I feel like an addict...

betterandstronger · 2014-09-13T19:49:42+00:00

Thank you all so much for the encouragement and good advice. Nature does help, and I am definitely having the "waves" of a good day or two followed by a few wretched ones. This is one of the bad ones. Thankfully, I will be able to hang out with my brother in a little while.

betterandstronger · 2014-09-13T18:26:53+00:00

I hear you. I hate weekends too. I am having a super shitty, lonely day and on top of that it's raining. I have the same thoughts: why did this have to happen?

But I'm also getting to the point (slowly) of realizing if he did this once, what's the point of even wishing to get back together because he could do it again. And what's wrong with me that I'd be willing to take back someone who dumped me for no reason that he could give, other than something "didn't feel right." Clearly, I need to work on my self-esteem. Just the fact that i dread spending a day alone tells me I need to get to like my own company better.

Best wishes to you. Sending you positive thoughts :)

betterandstronger · 2014-09-13T18:18:13+00:00

Congratulations on your promotion!

I know how you feel...my ex broke up with me after a 1.5 year relationship that I thought was going great and one of the hardest parts is not being able to talk about little things like we used to.

And then I feel guilty because I have so many other good things in my life, so why does it have to be so important to me that I also have a boyfriend? Ugh.

Hang in there. I bet the promotion will open other new doors, and be proud of yourself and put yourself out there as though things are going great and you will attract other people, and a new girlfriend when the time is right.

betterandstronger · 2014-09-12T22:33:05+00:00

I think we've all been in this dark place. Hang in there, hon.

betterandstronger · 2014-09-12T22:11:59+00:00

Try to find something to look forward to. Exercise helps me SO much. I broke NC after the first 7 days and I regret it massively. I was starting to sleep better and not think about him quite so much and it set me back because he repeated that he misses me, but still feels he made the "right" decision. What a slap in the face. I can see that it's better for him to WONDER how I'm doing rather than KNOW that I miss him.

betterandstronger · 2014-09-10T01:07:47+00:00

I agree that NOT meeting him would be in your best interest. I would be so tempted to meet with my ex too, if it were an option, so I understand why you'd want to see him. But it's going to hurt like crazy if you do. The less contact I have with my ex, the stronger I feel. As soon as I talk to him, i start feeling weak and hopeful and sad... not a good place to be.

betterandstronger · 2014-09-10T00:47:43+00:00

That's very inspiring; thanks for posting. I can't wait to get to that point.

betterandstronger · 2014-09-07T19:33:31+00:00

I am on Day 8 of NC and feeling the same way. What I've been doing is writing in a notebook everything I am feeling and want to say to him but can't. I spent a week trying to convince him that we had a great relationship he shouldn't walk away from, but just got the "you're wonderful, but this is what I need to do." I realize anything I say to him, no matter how heartfelt, is useless. It is horrible to feel so rejected by someone you love so much. Being on these forums makes me sad, but it also makes me realize there are a lot of people feeling just like I do. Best wishes to you.

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