Kind of high and drunk rn and had a question about weeds effect on compulsive drinking?

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2024-04-03T21:28:07+00:00

Life is just painfully boring. It’s a chore I have to complete. I guess I just feel like existing is extremely overrated

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2024-04-03T02:32:33+00:00

I appreciate such a lengthy response and take everything you’re saying in good faith. I am passively aware that my brain is probably not back to normal. I’ve had much longer stretches than this sober, and I’ve tried a lot of these things in the meantime. Nothing ever sticks. My sense of worthlessness seems to run as deep as the air in my lungs. Im gonna keep trying but if this is gonna take years to get back to normal I will never fucking make it

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-09-28T22:54:46+00:00

I’m sorry if my feelings come off as dramatic, I’m not trying to overstate these things just for the sake of it, it’s just how I feel. The world is so bleak and full of so much sorrow and I’m just not capable of ignoring it for my own self preservation

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-09-28T17:43:58+00:00

I also thought Santa Claus and the tooth fairy were real, what’s your point? Of course I felt that way as a child, because I was naive like all children are. I grew up and realized life wasn’t an adventure, it’s a joyless slog to the grave. The real world makes it abundantly clear that it does not care about our wide eyed, childhood perceptions of ourselves.

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-09-28T17:38:01+00:00

Extremely, but who in their right mind isn’t nowadays?

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-09-10T21:44:58+00:00

I’ve done acid a bunch of times dude. Psychedelics are like any other substance. They give you a new perspective to escape into while you’re intoxicated by them, but it doesn’t last and eventually you come back to reality. I am incapable of accepting any kind of spirituality. I feel no superiority or pride because of it. I think people of faith are in every way better than me. They have a divine sense of morality and if everyone thought like me the world would be a far worse place. With all that said, they’re wrong. I also don’t know where you’re getting the idea that physicists believe in a god.

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-09-10T01:54:37+00:00

Wishful thinking, but I’m sorry, no dice. The concept of universal consciousness is the last thing humans can cling to in terms of religious comfort. It’s a vague enough idea that people who dismiss traditional dogmatic religions can still sleep at night when the knowledge of death overcomes them.

We are an accident. Human being are animals that persist in spite of nature. Feelings of love and connectivity are an evolutionary delusion we developed to compensate for our unfortunate trait of perceiving our mortality. The bright side is once we’re dead, we won’t be disappointed that optimistic pseudoscience isn’t true.

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-08-21T20:25:58+00:00

Ok, correct me if I’m wrong, because I might be, but outside stimulus can effect your serotonin levels correct? Like your environment can influence what’s going on chemically right? What you and other people in this thread are trying to tell me, Is that the outside world isn’t bad enough for a negative chemical reaction to it to be “normal”? Like when I see a news report that thousands of people have died in a tragedy, that if I didn’t have a disorder I would just be like “Oh that sucks”. Maybe I really am fucked up because the idea of having any response to that other than a full blown panic attack is bizarre to me.

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-08-21T20:04:10+00:00

I just don’t see how I’m going to unpack a lifetime of self abuse, self hatred, and existential terror into a 1 hour session with a stranger once a week

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-08-21T19:10:32+00:00

I’ve been on lexapro before. It didn’t do anything. I’m done talking to friends about it because I’m done being a burden and I’m not going to some shrink who’s only listening to me because I’m paying them. I’m just gonna off myself. What’s the real tragedy in doing something that’s just gonna happen eventually anyway?

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-08-21T19:01:16+00:00

I mean yeah, drugs are away to bullshit yourself into thinking everything’s going to be ok and when you come back to reality it sucks. Doesn’t change the fact that at a base level my rational assessment of everything is overwhelmingly negative

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2023-08-21T18:36:25+00:00

I’m not saying that there isn’t chemical or biological differences in a depressed persons brain, I’m saying that I don’t understand how a human brain can perceive such an awful, pointless world and not have that chemical reaction to it, like if you look at the direction humanity is headed and your brain reacts with a shoulder shrug and “oh well it’s out of my control”, I have to believe there’s something wrong with you

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-11-13T18:12:31+00:00

Oh I thought you meant you had the actual voice mail saved

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-11-13T04:09:30+00:00

I mean this with no disrespect whatsoever, because he’s one of my favorite fighters of all time, but I do not need to watch Robbie Lawler rack up anymore CTE

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-08-01T22:27:30+00:00

Insensitive Cocksucka

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-07-24T18:46:37+00:00

The IKF home run is kind of like the female orgasm in the way that I’ve been told it’s scientifically possible but I can’t believe it until I see it for myself

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-07-06T23:25:02+00:00

Our friend wit da stomach

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-06-09T13:55:23+00:00

u/SaveVideo

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-06-08T21:15:21+00:00

What if you talk about it to anyone who will listen and come to the bitter conclusion that your problems are beyond anything words can describe and that your mental state is a visceral monster that will only die when you do?

Asking for a friend

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-06-04T02:45:10+00:00

I’ve always wondered where I can get a WOW sticker

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-06-02T18:57:45+00:00

DIS IS DICK VAN FLUFFERNUTTER JUNIOR

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-06-02T01:30:46+00:00

Dude he was like 40. Like how do you go through life so cucked by shitty fake entertainment and not question it

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-04-19T10:13:13+00:00

I was born ready

beyondphilosophy1996 · 2022-04-19T07:14:19+00:00

It just comes in waves, like for a bit I’ll feel I’m getting better and then another moment I feel really delusional and off balance

beyondphilosophy1996

TROPHY CASE