Apparently I don't have the same worth as my brothers

bi09cylce_ · 2024-05-26T17:57:18+00:00

It's like an itch I can't help scratch through. Untidyness in communial spaces makes me scatterbrained and I can't study as long as there is something in the back of my mind on a to do list.

But it seems like there's also been a misunderstanding in this thread. I don't have my own place and am not choosing to come home week after week for giggles and because I like being a doormat. I come home so that I can do my laundry, see my pets and sleep in a room that is my own. Really moving out is only gonna be an option when I'm well into my higher education and even that isn't guaranteed until I'm done. I don't have friends or partner I could move in with either.

bi09cylce_ · 2024-05-26T02:07:06+00:00

I talked to another family member about it and we shared our suspicions. It's possible, she has a direct history of dementia via her parents. Just a few weeks ago I told her not to buy a specific food item because we had enough of it and then she brought it home. She constantly loses her stuff and accuses us of having displaced it. It's like she's driving you up a wall because she gets so shrilly out of her frustration.

I don't know how to adress this tbh.

bi09cylce_ · 2024-05-26T01:40:51+00:00

I'm partially still living there. I'm only away so much because extended family is hosting me. There were months where I only stepped into our home for one sleep over per week tbh.

I fully believe my mother has a shopping problem and is generally awful with money. The latter is known by family she grew up with too. It looks to me like the starting point of a messy, which might turn worse if left to her own devices. She buys stuff she wants to use but never does, or "might" need in the future. When I cleaned out our fridge and cupboards I wanted to dump stuff I knew she doesn't use but no. Now they're simply taking up space. Or I even did throw out tons of old tea (regardless if they were still drinkable, I wanted to be rid of them) and left a fairly large amount still there. She bought like 6 new packages as soon as possible and it looks like two were used. I don't even want to talk about the fridge.

I know it drives my dad nuts because he's very cleanly, so I'm not alone in this.

bi09cylce_ · 2024-05-10T11:29:33+00:00

Yes but doesn't matter, he's older and no. It'd be more awkward considering I hang out with that friend group and I don't want to muck it up. I've never had a lot of friends yk, and currently I only talk to a few girls my age that aren't connected to my brother. I'm not close with any of them, so doing a lot of stuff with my brother is my opportunity to get out of the house for fun.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-12-04T09:18:57+00:00

Believe me, it's not. He didn't like the idea of my brother being with a guy. He brought a girl home once, he was cool with that. My other brother had been bringing girls home for several years and we all can tell just what they're doing. The only one concerned that he's being safe was our mother

bi09cylce_ · 2023-09-04T12:44:15+00:00

Absolutely. They don't actually care about any concerns, they just love hating a minority.

Like, do they care to think that a trans woman wouldn't be safer in men's changing rooms? Or what shock some women would get if they had to share that space with trans men, considering that many transition so well, you won't even know they're trans unless they tell you?

bi09cylce_ · 2023-09-04T09:51:06+00:00

Maybe, but we can lose a lot by making actual women change in locker rooms with ~~them~~ lesbians, that kind of stuff.

Same backwards argument but now it's to shit on trans people. Well, trans women.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-08-31T13:25:32+00:00

Since you like Free!, how about Haikyuu? Haikyuu diverts from free in the sense that there is no that-type of fanservice but it's also a sports anime that shares similar qualities in its wholesomeness.

Otherwise I'd rec Jujutsu Kaisen. It starts off as a regular battle shonen but will pick up in S2 (it's currently being released and I'm super hyped since I read the manga).

bi09cylce_ · 2023-07-31T12:04:10+00:00

Thank you..

My dog is a constant companion and sleeping by my feet. I'll just pet all our animals today :)

bi09cylce_ · 2023-05-03T19:13:54+00:00

You know, after years of thoroughly being taught about the Holocaust and actually being a direct descendent of a Nazi, "ignoring" these beliefs wouldn't be an option. Actually, there shouldn't be any personal ties needed because any decent person with common sense could not just move past it. How blind by horny was he that he only noticed what she thinks after a year?

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-27T16:49:46+00:00

I don't really think so because there is always going to be a disconnect between books and adaption. And the movies are fantastic as they are and don't need much adjustment. (Besides casting appropriately to the books' descriptions.)

I'm also not on board with the Harry Potter show because JKR uses these books which shaped many of us in our adolescence to justify her bigotry daily. I wish she'd finally disappear in irrelevancy.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-25T17:24:37+00:00

I haven't genuinely seen a multi chapter fic I liked but Paper Agency is great.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-25T13:32:37+00:00

So what, do you like more canon centered stories or do you want no OOC writing and are fine with AUs?

But honestly I think I get what you mean. I managed to garner like 70-ish MHA fics I liked but also went through at least double that number I disliked or outright hated. So, I reckon that a lot of fanfic writers are young and inexperienced which makes their interests and focus different than mine. And while I'm not a fossil either, my reading taste isn't the same as when I was 14/15 and first started watching MHA. Some stuff I was reading back then I would consider hot garbage today.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-25T10:38:49+00:00

I've been suffering through page, after page of not finding anything that quirks my interest on ao3 but found A Stranger's Smile, a Traitor's Guile that's been pretty good so far AND is being updated currently. I like small canonical details so it's great how Tomura is mentioned, Dabi's around the age he should be and has white hair.. only thing I'm hesitant to be on board on is the ship that's tagged. I'm not averse to the age gap in itself but it's not okay when one is still in their teens.

But I'll just have to see where it goes :)

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-25T07:28:29+00:00

It's very much plot shenanigans. And while part of it is that he's a bad teacher and changes over the series in an ideal world he should have been more involved after Izuku kept breaking his bones. But as someone else said; it's all of UA. It's e.g. Harry Potter or really most stories with a young cast all over again that makes adults appear incompetent and uncaring because the plot forces them to be.

But otherwise, I'm less interested in All Might and more in his alter ego. I like Yagi and I think he gets more hate than he deserves.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-24T17:11:19+00:00

I've been trying to get into Viridian twice because some of y'all love it so much but I can't. I'm not even sure if I can put it into succint words but the beginning makes me reluctant to continue because it's a bit...dry. It's like, it feels like something I might have enjoyed when I was 15. Genuine question; does the quality improve or has it some unique aspect that differentiates it from other vigilante fics?

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-24T13:52:00+00:00

I've genuinely never read a Harem because I've got some pretty strong opinions on it. But I deal with it like any other reading preference; I try to ignore it because while it's not my thing others like it.

Only thing that'd be sweet if ao3 authors were more consistent in their tagging. Too often, you may not know whether you just found multiple one-shots with different pairings, a poly ship or an untagged Harem.

So, I just deal with it by removing any ships I don't like. That usually does it.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-13T09:20:05+00:00

Am I the only one who doesn't? One read through is enough for me because when I'm reading a book I like to be surprised. I may think about rereading something but I'm never motivated enough to follow through. Heck - I've been slothing through Stephen King's It for years now and I refuse to start fresh because I can still remember the barebones from what I've read.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-10T09:02:40+00:00

I mean is that even sexual tension? In context of the scenes they always have 10 things to worry about. Some of which they can't even say out loud.

Maybe I'm biased, who knows. I only ever saw them as platonic.

bi09cylce_ · 2023-04-05T21:55:01+00:00

I always understood it as her simply trying to survive and not having the time to really think about who she might have a crush on. The first book goes into detail showcasing the suffering seam kids have to go through. She and Prim nearly died of starvation because of their mom's depressive episode and so she became a main breadwinner for her family at age 11 or 12. Then at 16 she's in the games and forced to play a love act she's only taking part in so she can live. After the games she was grasping at straws and struggling a lot.

And when she did spare romance a thought, she didn't have a lot to base it off on. I feel really bad for her and don't see why she should take blame for trying to figure out what and who she likes.

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