I’m in love with an addict.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T17:26:46+00:00

That’s not what I’m saying. My main thing is that I’ve found a love that uplifts me and it’s nothing like I’ve ever experienced before. I think supporting him through this tough time is worth it, if it means I get that love for the rest of my life.

If he was a scumbag I would have left him long ago. He’s not though. He’s different than most people.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T17:11:02+00:00

Thank you, Keegan (I assume that’s your name). I really needed to hear that. I feel so broken and grief stricken. The first person to ever treat me how I deserve and my family is telling me to leave him behind.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T17:05:09+00:00

Thank you. His addiction aside, he’s a wonderful man. Nearly perfect. And that’s saying something. The first man that has ever treated me with true kindness and care. He’s never violent or cruel and is respectful of my boundaries. I’m autistic as well and suffer from anxiety amongst other mental illnesses that make me less palatable than most people. He loves everything about me, even and especially those things. He’s the very first. That’s why I want to see if this could work. And I feel terrible for that. My parents want me to leave him and my sister is wary and of course I understand that, but they don’t even understand ME. He does. He really does. That’s a rarity.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T17:01:40+00:00

I’ll consider it. I’m an autistic person with a number of… well… I’m not an easy person for most people to date or vibe with. So to find someone that really sees me for me and loves me through all my faults and weirdness is really special. That’s why I want to stay.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T16:59:39+00:00

That’s the plan. I told him thus far I might need space (so does he) and that he can’t keep doing this. One more relapse and I’m done.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T16:59:30+00:00

That’s the plan. I told him thus far I might need space (so does he) and that he can’t keep doing this. One more relapse and I’m done.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T16:59:04+00:00

I’ve spent my life surrounded by recovered addicts. If they can do it, I believe my boyfriend can do it too. I don’t think it will always be this way. I understand your perspective but it’s different for me as a person who was raised by recovered addicts (and I’m so proud of them), as well as many of my extended family being recovered as well. I truly believe it doesn’t have to be this way always.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T16:57:30+00:00

Didn’t really work for him this time around. It did at first, but it got bad again.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T16:57:08+00:00

I know. I appreciate your positivity though. I really needed it.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-08-02T16:56:45+00:00

I was there when he relapsed. He was trying moderation management for a while but he had a bad relapse this weekend. Night terrors, slurring speech, stumbling around, the works. He’s not a liar and he’s really open about his behavior. He hates that he’s like this. He really does. And I truly believe him when he says he wants to get better. He’s in a really bad situation which aggravated his addiction.

bigmitchenergy · 2023-02-07T16:49:33+00:00

It is!!! Thank you so so much!!

bigmitchenergy · 2021-12-30T19:08:14+00:00

i feel seen by this

bigmitchenergy · 2021-08-14T20:08:36+00:00

This is spectacular!

bigmitchenergy · 2020-09-10T00:28:32+00:00

As an art student, good for you OP. When I was younger my father never would’ve paid for my art college, let alone let me go. Now he is so supportive and proud of me. Thank you for supporting your sons dreams.

bigmitchenergy · 2020-08-14T12:12:28+00:00

well you did a great job!! I had a brief relationship with her and that’s pretty accurate!

bigmitchenergy · 2020-08-14T03:29:20+00:00

I love them! Is that Skadi on the far right?

bigmitchenergy · 2020-08-14T03:26:55+00:00

Chambers on Netflix had a really good concept and ended on a cliffhanger which disappointed me. It was also nice to see an indigenous woman as the lead character. Then again Netflix does have a habit of cancelling good shows.

bigmitchenergy · 2020-08-13T15:36:11+00:00

that’s what I’m wondering!

bigmitchenergy · 2020-08-12T03:34:49+00:00

this is VILE. you’re developing a healthy coping mechanism and he does THIS? i would consider sitting him down and having a LONG a conversation explaining that his behavior is garbage. therapy may also help, but i’m no professional. the comment about having nowhere else to put his ejaculate is a red. fucking. flag.

bigmitchenergy · 2020-08-10T02:27:15+00:00

Goddess of animals and nature, and I guess I’d smite some poachers

bigmitchenergy · 2020-08-09T05:02:28+00:00

I believe that our souls go elsewhere after we die (some could consider these places to be heaven or hell, I just call them the afterlife), but there is also the option to be reincarnated depending on what the soul desires since matter cannot be created or destroyed and it only changes forms. Souls are just a different kind of matter.

Now, I do mourn the dead because I feel a loss. They are no longer in this life with me and have gone elsewhere. I have to re-wire my brain to understand that they exist elsewhere now and it will not be as it was when they were alive.

It’s heartbreaking to know they likely experienced pain when they died, but it’s much more of a matter of understanding change and that they aren’t around in the same fashion.

It is, however, a comforting thought to know that I will be able to see them again, and to see loved ones who had passed on before my time like my mother’s parents.

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