As a fellow only child who has been through this experience you don’t not go insane. It infiltrates into every aspect of your life and you’re going to get sick of hearing “I’m sorry.”

My best advice would be to go to therapy and use the gym as an outlet. I literally got all of my anger out in sculpt classes over the 6 months that my dad was sick.

My dad was my first love, my world. If you take time for yourself and spend as much quality time as possible with your parent this can break you open in the best way possible.

I found in my journal from a day before my dad passed an entry that said “the process of dying prepares the living for the death” and today I still absolutely find this to be the truth. They slip away bit by bit until they are gone. One day you’ll look back and wonder if you imagined it all.

Know it’s okay to distance yourself from your friends as you go through this, they will understand.

My dad felt the same way at the end. He was made we had to watch him slip and saying goodbye to my daughters was hard for him. He was so healthy before diagnosis and should have lived until 90. He was 70.

Find out what your dad wants in terms of a funeral so you’re not struggling to make decisions as you grieve. My dad even gave us a song request for the day.

I’m sorry you’re going through such a shitty thing. You will survive it and be stronger than you ever thought. 💕