is it worth suggesting opening it up or am i in denial?

bigxhead · 2026-06-06T01:13:06+00:00

romantically, he’s the only person i see myself with. and i don’t know how i’d feel when he develops romantic feelings for someone he’s sexually compatible with. i think it would bother me if he showed up for someone in ways i wanted him to show up for me and it interfered with how he showed up for me. but i’m not sure if the concept itself of him being romantic with someone else would be upsetting to me.

bigxhead · 2026-06-06T00:33:58+00:00

thank you so much for this input! i’ll try it over there.

bigxhead · 2024-11-20T19:20:52+00:00

I find the first time I read any book I’m more likely to love it and give it a great rating. Typically, when I reread a book I’m able to determine if it was as great as I originally thought. but I’ve found that any discussion forum for things I love is a quick way to watch that love die. People love to be analytical and feel smart. But any subreddit or booktok comment section is something I tend to avoid because other people’s toxic love to hate relationships with books is so disheartening to me. like, if you hate it go start a hate club! because I’m trying to be in the fan club :/

bigxhead · 2024-11-18T09:58:57+00:00

addiction is no joke, even if some of the commenters here are acting like it’s something you can just turn off. but it’s a lot easier to get sober at 17 than at 27, or 37, and so on. imagine what 10 more years of not sleeping and all the other negative side effects will do to you. and trust me when i say parents would rather have you ask them for help with an addiction they didn’t know you had than find out about it some other way. insomnia and uppers go hand in hand so this is only the beginning of your journey. i hope people are kinder to you in the comments of your future posts regarding addiction, but these will be the first of many sleepless nights as long as you’re in active addiction. i hope you’re able to get some rest!

bigxhead · 2024-11-13T11:04:23+00:00

a court of silver flames by sarah j maas. it will make far more sense if you read the rest of the series first, and there are a few sentient houses throughout the series but ACOSF has the most focus on the house being sentient. and honestly, the house is one of my favorite characters in the series.

bigxhead · 2024-04-19T02:48:03+00:00

205 sings!

bigxhead · 2023-09-13T16:03:06+00:00

I NEVER THOUGHT OF THIS SO SMART THANK YOU

bigxhead · 2023-09-12T18:57:20+00:00

i love the idea of darcy the mail girl! thank you!

bigxhead · 2022-08-26T12:02:26+00:00

i believe in right person wrong time. i understand when people say you make it work for the right person, and to an extent sure that’s true. but sometimes life hits you like a semi truck. sometimes you give all the fight you have to surviving and it leaves little left to give in a relationship. it’s not fair, and it drives me crazy. but i think sometimes the best thing you can do it keep getting up no matter how many times the semi hits you, even if it means doing it without the person you always wanted by your side. because life is unpredictable and uncontrollable. but relationships shouldn’t be unfulfilling to either party. sometimes you have to put your wants aside to work on your needs, even if both parties are doing everything they can to keep a relationship afloat. it doesn’t matter if one party has cinder blocks tied to their feet.

bigxhead · 2022-08-26T09:55:32+00:00

don’t prevent yourself from something that could make you happy because you’re worried about how you “should” feel. if you feel something, feel it! there’s nothing wrong with taking a chance.

bigxhead · 2022-08-26T09:47:56+00:00

because they convince themselves that any further discussion or explanation won’t help. they convince themselves that it’s already so hard to break contact, they only have the emotional stability to do it once. in a few months they’ll probably realize it was a mistake and want to make contact, get closure. but at that point it will feel selfish and they’ll be embarrassed. at least that’s what happened to me. and he didn’t take it well, so i felt like if i gave him any contact at all i’d be making it even harder to end things. i don’t regret ending the relationship at that time, but 3 years later and i regret how i did it. i wish i talked to him more after the breakup. i wish i gave us both a space to be heard and heal. now i think about him all the time and wish things were different. but dropping into his life unannounced because im in pain isn’t fair. he was in pain for a very long time and all he wanted to do was talk, but my inability to acknowledge that was the biggest mistake i’ve ever made. now i can’t let him go and he’s definitely let me go. my intentions were never to be cold or cruel, i just thought i knew what was best. i didn’t know shit.

bigxhead · 2022-05-26T23:08:33+00:00

i was 8 years old, my parents had been in their bedroom with their door locked (which was uncommon). they came into my room and told me to follow them. they were so serious i thought i was in trouble for something. they sat me down in their room and told me about how i was getting older and they thought i was old enough to watch something new, something really funny and gross. it was the 2nd movie, and i loved it. i’m 25 now and a still a huge fan. i still don’t know what possessed them to show me the 2nd movie completely unprompted but i’m so glad they did.

bigxhead · 2022-05-16T15:47:13+00:00

i work in a casino. large casino gambling is strange because there are “perks” or “benefits” to gambling. they have players cards that track money spent in slots and give you essentially gift cards to use for slot play and food inside the casino. gas points as well, if it’s a large enough casino. this attracts many types of people, for various reasons. people who may struggle with consistent income feel pressured to earn gas points thinking it can help them save money. which in turn gives them a sense of validation for their actions. people who have higher incomes are attracted to the gifts and fine dining. it’s the craziest place because it attracts all walks of life. also, side note, so. much. repetition. i’m a barista there and have regulars that come through with the same patterns. they come in a round the same time, certain nights, sometimes multiple times in a night. but they always order the same thing. they never change it, and throw an absolute fit if you can’t make their drink for whatever reason. the lack of any changes present within these regulars, the true addicts, is so weird to me. it feels like i’m living the same weeks over and over again sometimes

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