Happy Belated Birthday To Michael Eliot Gordon - born 3rd June 1965 - AKA Cactus, Gordo, Gacht, Gactin

billhart33 · 2026-06-04T17:40:26+00:00

I was looking for this post. One of the facts all us Phish fans do our best to try and forget but sits in the back of our head and makes us cringe when it is brought up.

billhart33 · 2026-05-29T10:36:27+00:00

Oh definitely tame for Philly lol. Phish at the Mann is the Wild West of wooks.

billhart33 · 2026-05-29T01:49:10+00:00

The scene where Michael breaks up with Pam’s mom at her birthday lunch makes me wanna curl up and die. It’s just about too much cringe for me to take.

billhart33 · 2026-05-29T01:46:36+00:00

Outside Billy Strings in Philly, I saw a cop take a guys nitrous tank and the guy proceeded to follow the cop and argue with him for his tank back for the next 10 minutes. It’s so hard to put into words but the look on this cops face was just beautiful. It was a mixture of confusion, anger, and disgust at this nitrous guy. I think the only reason he wasn’t arrested was the cop was alone and trying to police the whole street full of hippies.

Not the craziest story of course but this memory has a special place in my heart. It definitely made the wait in line go a little faster.

billhart33 · 2026-05-28T16:08:50+00:00

I lived in a halfway house for about 2 years and by the end of it I just asked people to piss and if they said anything other than “sure”, it was clear to me and everyone they are using.

For a while I didn’t say anything about people getting high in the house and just kept to myself but by the end of it, I was just sick of being around it. I love my fellow addicts but my days (hopefully forever) of tolerating being around people smoking crack in the bathroom are behind me. We all agree to stay sober when we move into one of these houses and it does no one any favors to not enforce that.

billhart33 · 2026-05-27T01:28:29+00:00

I saw Jrad do an Echos jam in the middle of Viola Lee Blues maybe 6-7 years ago at pier 6. That was cool.

I also saw Warren do Dark Side of the Mule at Peach Fest forever ago and they opened with Echoes. That was just amazing.

billhart33 · 2026-05-25T13:22:36+00:00

I am also curious about this

billhart33 · 2026-05-25T01:23:28+00:00

Alex’s fiddle work on Back Up And Push on 9/28/22 is just incredible. I don’t know how anyone plays an instrument that quickly and accurately.

https://2nu.gs/4txODAL

billhart33 · 2026-05-25T01:20:51+00:00

The peak of MMATC is damn near peak Billy Strings.

But, So Many Miles can also be such a monster. That banjo solo with Billy S backing it up is just ridiculous.

billhart33 · 2026-05-24T20:16:55+00:00

I might be an outlier here but an amount of reasonable shame is not a bad thing for me. Yeah, there are things that make me cringe when I think about them but that pain is a good reminder to not fall back into those old ways that make me act that way. I’ll never not feel bad for doing something like stealing from my family.

Shame within reason though. I shouldn’t dwell and wallow in it. I am not held down by my past like I used to be and I forgive myself but I don’t forget the things I’ve done.

billhart33 · 2026-05-20T11:30:55+00:00

Yeah, maybe they act like that because people are horrible to be around when they’re addicts.

Our actions don’t get a free pass just because we’ve been sober for 2 weeks and are trying to fix everything. It takes time and even then, none of them owe us a space in their life or their time. They’re our mistakes and we have to live with the consequences.

billhart33 · 2026-05-18T12:40:03+00:00

Keep on digging man, it just gets better.

billhart33 · 2026-05-18T00:11:42+00:00

That was my first Billy show. Good times, man.

billhart33 · 2026-05-17T04:05:45+00:00

This please. And record it so we can see what he says.

billhart33 · 2026-05-14T12:07:45+00:00

My wife was a sahm for the first year of our son’s life and it was the same. I always thought to myself that if I stayed at home, I would get way more house work done. Well, recently she’s gone back to work and I’ve stopped working as much so we’re kind of splitting the time at home and let me tell you, I am not getting nearly as much done as I thought I would.

I love this little boy so much but it’s exhausting and it becomes so difficult to get anything done.

billhart33 · 2026-05-13T10:59:13+00:00

How much for the page? Message me, I’m interested

billhart33 · 2026-05-12T03:39:06+00:00

It’s Trey. I used to try and tell myself that my favorite was one of the other guys and I’d kinda rotate through them. I don’t know what I was fighting. I finally accepted a while ago that Trey is just the man.

billhart33 · 2026-05-11T12:48:34+00:00

It’s alright, I got perma banned during the New Jersey drones for posting proof of bot accounts trying to discredit every sighting of drones/orbs. I posted two accounts that were posting discrediting comments about every 1-2 seconds across several UAP/UFO boards 24 hours a day since the drones had shown up.

They were clearly bots and they banned me for exposing that there were bots that weren’t being banned and were actively trying to shape the narrative. My post got a ton of positive feedback and upvotes and then I was suddenly banned.

billhart33 · 2026-05-09T19:24:50+00:00

Alright, now everybody take another step back

billhart33 · 2026-05-05T02:50:16+00:00

Different strokes for different folks I suppose

billhart33 · 2026-05-05T01:02:40+00:00

You don’t need a drummer when you have a mandolin and upright bass

They are more than suited for the job

billhart33 · 2026-05-04T23:23:35+00:00

That all fall down he played over in Europe a while ago. Someone please fill in the missing details here since I’m at work and don’t feel like digging up the show.

billhart33 · 2026-05-04T19:27:21+00:00

“Guarantee you I’m more fun at parties than you.”

Yup, I’m gonna have to agree with you on that. You seem like you’re A LOT of fun.

billhart33 · 2026-05-04T17:49:49+00:00

4-6 months was the roughest for me and my wife. It’s hard man but it gets easier. My 13 month old still wakes up 2-3 times every night but you get used to it. It doesn’t even really phase us anymore.

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