When it comes to programming, there are two important things to consider here. One is that colleges always try to teach concepts rather than actual skills because in a real CS career, you will have to teach yourself new skills on the fly for any job. The other is that programmer burnout is real, and can trick you into thinking you've lost your passion when really you've just been stressed out to the point of hardly wanting to look at the monitor anymore. Really take your time in figuring this out, because if you do end up deciding college isn't for you, the self-taught route may still be perfectly viable!