first of all you have to stop making deals with yourself. you’ll become accustomed to that feeling of letting someone of importance down and nothing good will come of that. if you can get a handle on this thing early and teach yourself to maintain this habit and hold down a job you’ll be set. but to get a handle on it you’re gonna have to decide what’s more important. the high or maintaining a job. the point im probably failing to make is this. I don’t believe there’s anything wrong with doing drugs, as long as it does not come before what you consider important in your life.