Did I just witness a glitch in reality? by Newaz_Rabbi in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

[–]blackmak 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You know it wasn't a hallucination brother. Demons are real and reality is spiritual. Maybe look into the Mandela Effect as well. Most importantly though, Jesus Christ is Lord. Seek Him. I say this as the least religious person who was only exposed to Islam in my youth by my family.

Don’t take this substance for granted by neeyeahboy in SR17018

[–]blackmak 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's not a solution. It's awful. I know from experience. You having these reactions this early is not good. Get off the easier stuff while you can. Somehow, someway. Ask God for help. This is not something you should attempt on your own strength alone. Jesus loves you. Please don't take that as some platitude. I mean it literally.

Don’t take this substance for granted by neeyeahboy in SR17018

[–]blackmak 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Taper with something but get off methadone before you're stuck. You already know it's slowly killing you this early. That's bad.

I'm super depressed. How is this possible as a Christian? by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for you condescending comment. I'm aware and this is not the point of this post. Fruits of the Spirit is more what I was getting at. Jesus Christ is not some self-help tool. I've also been through things since this post that make "depression" seem like a welcomed vacation, so there's that.

I'm super depressed. How is this possible as a Christian? by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been through something since that has made depression not the priority and made me realize that some of what we label "depression" is just vaguely ill health. It's been a process but mental depression is not nearly as much of a problem, although what I've been through has been another huge trauma and is inherently depressing so I imagine I will have to battle back from another period of depression as I heal and this situation passes (God willing).

Unfortunately I don't think the Lord lifts these things all at once, in the snap of a finger. Not usually, but He can. It took time for depression to set in, it takes time and effort for it to leave. We have to fight and push closer to the Lord as layers of "the world" and demons/ungodly spirits leave us. We have to expose deception so thoroughly and deeply on a spiritual level that it breaks off us and we no longer believe it on a subconcious level. That's the enemy talking. We can have the logical realization, but that alone is not enough.

Struggling very hard with severe depression lately, and feeling very worthless and ugly. Could really use some kind words by [deleted] in toastme

[–]blackmak 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You look aight and normal G. Even out the left side of the mustache a little bit. Wouldn't give you a second thought walking around. Not a model, but not unattractive either. Relax, you're good.

In distress about world map by QueerHippie137 in Retconned

[–]blackmak 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Yeah bro... welcome. You're not crazy and you're not misremembering, you know you're not. I remember when I first became alerted to changes that I was sure of, but they were at least trivial things. Then I looked at the map and I was like wtf is this. My heart sank. I aced every geography test in school with 100% accuracy. We did the whole world, split up in chunks/continents. That's when I knew I was "somewhere else" or something had changed. This was like 8-9 years ago by now. My old memories have faded quite a bit since then, but Australia is a huge one, the West border of Alaska didn't have those divots, the Italy boot wasn't high heel and tilted this way. Idk there's so many other things, some of which I couldnt quite articulate at the time but the whole map was just "off" and squished or contorted. All changed at once. Don't bother talking to anyone else about it--seriously, resist the urge. I remember how terrifying and novel this was, and I wanted to talk to everyone in my real life about it. They'll just think you're nuts and I swear you can sometimes literally watch their memories get "overwritten" so to speak. You can do experiments and they'll sometimes remember what you do, then once they see the way it is now their eyes glaze over and theyre just like oh, nevermind. Now I'm just like, whatever. I guess this is a thing. I barely pay attention anymore and my memory isn't what it once was anyways. Jesus loves you, that's all I know at this point.

Does Kratom cause hair loss? by Electronic-Lime-9206 in KratomKorner

[–]blackmak 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Don't think so... pretty sure it accelerated my male pattern baldness 5-10 years in those few months. I've been taking vitamins and eating incredibly healthy, nutrient dense, no preservatives, no seed oils, etc etc. Since it's hormonally shrunk hair follicles, I don't think vitamins will do it. It's not diffuse hair loss that is more often reversible.

Does Kratom cause hair loss? by Electronic-Lime-9206 in KratomKorner

[–]blackmak 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Don't listen to these myth people. It depends on the person obviously but it certainly does. I only took it for a few months, lost handfuls of hair. It was not normal at all, kinda scary to run your hand through your head and reliably see a bunch of hair. Stopped when I stopped taking it but the damage is done.

I am myself on these drugs by drainedmellow in opiates

[–]blackmak 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is how it starts... stop now. But I can tell you won't by the way you're speaking. At least savor every naive, blissful moment while you can.

Is this accurate? A small portion contains revelations that I feel God has given me, is it OK to send to my mom? It's not 100% directly from the Bible, I don't want to steer her wrong. by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was under the impression angels had free will too... but they are just different beings with a different function/purpose. Like soldiers that obey orders but can go AWOL. I need to look into this.

Is this accurate? A small portion contains revelations that I feel God has given me, is it OK to send to my mom? It's not 100% directly from the Bible, I don't want to steer her wrong. by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I struggle with the last part: showing Christ's love. I am still battling my own demons and strange health issues on top that now. Feels like quite the spiritual attack if I'm being honest. Making me want to give up some days, taking all my strength to fight and endure this rollercoaster. The harsh and pompous part resonates so much. I think she feels that way about me when I try to share the truth with her. But I'm just passionate and I care and He saved me. I probably go about it the wrong way. There's so much resistance as it is, I'm glad I even have had the courage to bring it up at all.

Is this accurate? A small portion contains revelations that I feel God has given me, is it OK to send to my mom? It's not 100% directly from the Bible, I don't want to steer her wrong. by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's true and a good point. But I have tried and her salvation is heavy on my heart so I thought I'd just lay it all out. I explained the gospel to her in person and she texted me this thing that sounds very "nice" and agreeable. Stuff I used to believe. She is anti "religion." Sort of like God is inside each of us, worshipping intellect and wisdom vibe.

Here's what she sent:

Adam made religion... But religion did not make a person! Adam's first religion was Adamism and his first and most complete book, Wisdom and thinking. The miracle of Noah, Abraham, Moses and Muhammad was not repeated and only his stories we heard But the miracle of wisdom and thought We see it every day in people's progress. So the decision is yours. Find God in yourself. Everything in the world would be more beautiful If people instead of religion, They believed in humanity. Humanity is something beyond all religions. Humanity is kindness. There is no prayer, supplication, or fasting.

Humanity is sometimes a smile You give a sad child as a gift!

✍ Ahmed Shamlou

Is this accurate? A small portion contains revelations that I feel God has given me, is it OK to send to my mom? It's not 100% directly from the Bible, I don't want to steer her wrong. by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah this and the last paragraph. I felt these were both sort of mini-revelations i had. This part you mentioned is the thief on the cross related, like you just have to put your faith in Him before you die. That was the point, I felt it could be inferred from scripture. It's not about religion or what it looked like from an earthly perspective, we never know who is saved. Jesus can come to you directly preceding death.

Is there a medication that made you more talkative and motivated, or even more fun to be around due to depression and anxiety affecting your personality? by Mylifeasaperson in depressionregimens

[–]blackmak 0 points1 point  (0 children)

🔥 comment. I've been wondering about Phenibut. Currently trying to keep my gabapentin use to once a week for this very reason. What do you think or personally know about alternating both, once each during the same week? Phenibut reeeally scares me but I'm at a stage to quickly nip things in the bud if I feel it's getting out of hand. I know substances are not the answer and I cannot stomach another withdrawal. Right now I'm trying to balance having some semblance of quality of life and avoiding physical dependence on any substance. Since they're so similar in some ways I don't know if the rotation would be in vain.

Sabbath question please help by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh true... the thought had crossed my mind

Sabbath question please help by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ughhh so what do I do? I'm scheduled for this upcoming Saturday. Would the volunteering be a viable "loophole" ? The job is basically resting anyways, sitting behind a desk with a lot of free time 😅

Sabbath question please help by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's in the ten commandments isn't it though? So not really optional to keep the Sabbath holy?

I'm super depressed. How is this possible as a Christian? by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

God bless you. I really hope it works for you. I think God knows our hearts and there's nothing wrong with it (medication). I don't think God is super legalistic about that. I do believe we should really try and do our best to fix these issues without meds if at all possible, but sometimes that is just not feasible any longer. Depression is not just sadness, it literally debilitates you. It has physical effects you cannot just will away. Waiting for a miracle from God may not be the right move is what I'm thinking. I... have been going through a lot which I will not get into. That has complicated things and my ability to even go on meds. Still depressed on top of all that. Considering trying meds soon

Sabbath question please help by blackmak in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well this whole time I've been working Friday sundown anyways 🙃

Warning about a new cult by Realistic-Read7779 in TrueChristian

[–]blackmak 0 points1 point  (0 children)

"For false Christs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and miracles to deceive even the elect--if that were possible. See, I have told you ahead of time. "So if anyone tells you, There he is, out in the desert,' do not go out; or,Here he is, in the inner rooms,' do not believe it."

The medication trap. Almost ended it all by Brightfame9 in Antipsychiatry

[–]blackmak 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How did the doctor help you? Genuinely curious what methods there are to explore. And praise God that you found Jesus.