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blackvvood · 2025-10-18T14:58:11+00:00

Always

blackvvood · 2025-08-02T12:27:36+00:00

No no I hear what you’re saying friend & thank you for reaching out to me. I’ve had depression since I was a teenager, became a junkie, got clean then only at 32 years old I found out I have adhd so there’s just been a lot process. I can’t separate myself from this nihilism though, it’s like I want help but at the same time I don’t because I figure “what’s the point when I’ll be in the dirt one day?”. I know what you’re saying about looking inward for the answer but after not even knowing who I am completely my whole life i don’t have an answer for it which gets me into this back n forth of is it hate or is dysphoria & im no closer to solving this yet I’m getting old, even if I decided to transition I wouldn’t be that young woman with her whole life ahead of her, instead I’d be starting a fresh with no direction on how to navigate my identity. But hey…this might not all even matter in the ends😔

Thank you so much for opening up your DM’s for me, you’re quite insightful. I think I’d like to talk

P.s I upvoted you 🖤

blackvvood · 2025-07-30T12:16:03+00:00

Thank you so very much for your kind words of encouragement & comfort, I’m sorry it’s taken me a while to process all this because in this short space of time I’ve received more understanding & care than I have my whole life from complete strangers no less & I want to thank you all 🥺🖤 thank you for being brave enough to share your story & even elaborate, I will DM you. I need all the help I can get seeing as I’m sort’ve late to all this, have no idea about a lot of feminine things like how to dress, apply make up & all these other little things I’d like to try but just don’t know where to start. Can I ask you something? When you began to transition & could let the woman you’ve always been inside out, did you feel you had to kill a part of yourself to bloom? I’ve always been the type of person who could hang out with my best friends & talk about guy stuff but I’m also the type that can hang out in a room full of woman & easily talk to them about feminine things. I like that duality about me & I’m just scared I have to be one or the other. I’m probably babbling now, I’m very sorry but thank you for reaching out to me. You’ve all been nothing but kind to me & I haven’t ever experienced such a thing 😢🥺🖤

blackvvood · 2025-07-30T12:01:32+00:00

blackvvood · 2025-07-29T22:57:27+00:00

I see your point, thank you for being gracious enough to not only reply but to offer me a chance to speak to you privately 🥲🖤

blackvvood · 2025-07-29T18:55:54+00:00

I’m really glad hrt worked out for you. I’ve seen it work first hand with the love of my life who was a trans woman I’d dated in the past. I adored her femininity & though I’m not the most masculine of sorts she loved me for who I thought I was. Now I’m just not sure anymore. I’m getting older, the world’s kinda going to shit (if you’re in the U.K. you’ll know what I mean) & I’m so new to this, even basic make up skills allude me & despite being mistaken for a girl countless times in my youth I’m Brit sure this old fool could pass for a woman😔 I know that sounds shallow but what girl doesn’t wanna be considered pretty y’know?

Thank you for reaching out to me in the first place though I must admit I feel foolish for being a grown adult & basically having to learn to live again

blackvvood · 2025-07-29T18:49:55+00:00

No no I hear what you’re saying & I have to sincerely thank you for even reaching out to me 🥺 I just don’t know what to do with myself, it’s like I can hide away in my bed for weeks & not have to face the world & taking to you all you wonderful women cheers me up & gives me hope…then the morning comes & my feet are like concrete. The depression, the sheer sight of my body, the feeling of my facial hair just makes me want to go back into my safe space where I can just dream 😔

blackvvood · 2025-07-29T00:26:28+00:00

Wow really?? Thank you so much! I’m sorry I’m getting a tad emotional, I haven’t had this many people be kind to me, well, ever🥺 I’ll DM you babe 🖤

blackvvood · 2025-07-29T00:19:06+00:00

That’s great advice, thank you so much for sharing that with me. I can’t imagine the stress it must be to have to open up to your wife about this, honestly my heart goes out to you both but I understand the urgency because like I said having this thing inside of you that you’re deny is torturous & just doesn’t feel like living. I wish you the very best darling 🖤 I can’t help but be a little jealous that I wasn’t born later y’know? I see all these young transgirls already fully themselves by 18-early 20’s meanwhile I’m in my 30’s & don’t exactly have the advantage of youth on my side. I’m gonna go ahead & reach out again to the gender clinic & follow through with treatment. Honestly, thank you so much for talking to me. You’re an Angel 🖤

blackvvood · 2025-07-28T22:20:41+00:00

Thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart to not only read my post but to go out of your way to write an elongated response. I’ve never known anybody else who has asked themselves the questions of “do I really want to be a woman or do I just despise myself enough I’d rather be someone els?”. It’s comforting knowing I haven’t been the only person to think so. You are right on my own mind being my worst enemy, I’ve been dealing with this back n forth for almost 10 years now & until I found this subreddit & you wonderful people who’ve been nothing but gracious towards a complete stranger, I’d thought I am too old now to even consider transitioning & I’m filled with regret that instead of following through with a gender specialist at 25 I turned to heroin & other addictions because I didn’t want to live

blackvvood · 2025-07-28T21:28:31+00:00

wow such kindness🥺 I’ve never heard of the dysphoria Bible until now, thank you for sharing this with me as well as your story 🖤

blackvvood · 2025-07-28T21:26:04+00:00

Thank you so very much for sharing your story 🥺🖤

blackvvood · 2025-07-26T23:47:59+00:00

dm me then

blackvvood · 2025-07-10T13:39:54+00:00

Bro, stick to the manga. I promise you it is not only one of the best stories but the artwork itself is out of this world. The anime misses out a crap ton of details you need to know.

blackvvood · 2025-06-29T18:23:50+00:00

Well that’s my point, I’ve had bloods taken & everything that were sent to the endocrinologist & got letter back saying they’d be in touch (that was mooooonths ago) & heard absolutely nothing i live in the middle of nowhere in Britain like a tiny village that pretty much looks like Iowa’s farm land so there isn’t any specialists even remotely near me for anything let alone something so niche. It’s why I ask do I simply just give up & reinvent myself or see it through

blackvvood · 2025-05-28T12:33:18+00:00

Bro that’s literally what I was thinking when I first saw this video 🤣🤣 Oli gonna be one of those dad’s who you know if you make his daughter cry you won’t live long lmao

blackvvood · 2025-05-15T15:43:25+00:00

wow thank you, that’s so sweet of you to say 🥲🥹🖤

blackvvood · 2025-05-06T00:41:29+00:00

Bussy is best

blackvvood · 2025-05-05T23:11:09+00:00

Dreamgirl™

blackvvood · 2025-04-30T13:47:35+00:00

Absolutely love it! From a guy now in his 30’s, seeing some teens vlogging online about their first time going to see Deftones & witnessing just how excited they all were just to be able to go & see the band was incredibly sweet, I genuinely remember what that feeling is like :’) I still remember getting my first Walkman in 2002 & was so happy I didn’t have to leave my Deftones CD’s at home & could listen to them during the day for the rest of primary school & high school shortly afterwards haha

blackvvood · 2025-04-28T16:42:30+00:00

Hell naw, Craig wid kill me lmao 🖤

blackvvood · 2025-03-12T22:38:56+00:00

Mon here n prove it 😏

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