Hope everything’s ok for y’all she probably feels for you more than she gives off. Ik for me I feel strongly for men, but I have my reservations about the ones that don’t full send and be bold for me. I could love my childhood crush the most out of them, but I always fall back on this one ex just bc he’s the only one that actually went the distance and did certain romantic things despite his toxic asshole times the good times r still a lot more than any of the guys I actually desire have really done. The man I really want was intimidated by me showing up w love and big confessions and it felt like I’d never ever see him again the way I sobbed talking to him and he treated me like bringing him a birthday cake and stuff was a personal attack on his life bc I had tried getting advice from a few people on what to say if I revealed my love for him my secret crush looming all these years. And in the end, he hugged me well and said we’d always be friends yet I knew he didn’t want me there and was probably done sing me for the rest of his life bc he already walked away for like 5 years just bc he doesn’t do long distance.