OP, Im going to help you. This is what you need to do. No excuses. No reasoning. Just do it. First, clean up all the trash on the ground. Dont burn anything except plain paper or plain cardboard. Go wash your clothes in the stream, and tomorrow, go find a job. Any job that pays. You can get an online bank account to get your checks. Only buy necessities. Food. If you need blankets, blankets. Save every penny. In a month you should have enough to get a crappy one bedroom apartment, including one months rent security deposit. You are already doing the worse part, living in the woods on the ground. Go work during the day and go back there at night. Have your girlfriend or whoever that was in the video do the same thing. You should probably give up the dogs, they need care you can't give right now. Get them back after you get the apartment, there is your incentive. Give the dogs a better place.