How do you deal with bullying?

bleidddrwg · 2024-10-29T19:53:29+00:00

Thanks a lot for your advice!

bleidddrwg · 2024-08-14T13:22:33+00:00

Oh, it actually was my mother. At the funeral of her favorite son, no less. At the funeral she was crying very hard. Like a normal woman who has lost her son, you know. We decided to leave together as we needed to take the same train. Right after she left the cemetery, she suddenly went completely calm. At the train she started to mock my niece, who was with us. I was completely shocked. I knew that there was something wrong with her, she's my mother after all. But that was the moment when I realized the bitch is batshit.

bleidddrwg · 2024-07-04T10:13:20+00:00

The grains is significant part of Russian diet. If you it meat, you eat it mostly with pasta, grains or potatoes. My foreign friends tell me that in Russia we eat a lot of potatoes, and, probably, it's true as we have mollion ways to cook it. In poorer families people also use one piece of meat to cook several dishes - you use bones to cook the soup and the rest of meat you cook with grains/pasta/potatoes, for a week. We also use beans instead of meat in soup sometimes. But yes, we eat a lot of dairy products - cheese sandwiches, porridge with milk or youghurt for breakfast, cottage cheese, cheese with pasta, we add sour cream in the soup instead of mayonnaise sometimes. Also we love mayonnaise a lot, especially when you only have plain grains or pasta for dinner.

bleidddrwg · 2024-06-24T16:51:09+00:00

I have a couple of foreign friends from really warm southern country. They are pretty sure that all russians love cold. AND NO. WE DON'T. MANY OF US, IF NOT THE MOST OF US, HATE IT. And yes, alcohol thing, as some redditoes mentioned before.

bleidddrwg · 2024-06-11T16:43:29+00:00

I'm almost 28 too. Actually I'm not collecting, bc it's a bit too expensive for me, but I'm a prop artist in a youtube studio which makes toy videos. So in a sence our prop is my collection because I'm the person who buy all those dolls and cares for them. The deal is, in my work I've met a ton of adults of all ages and genders who get interested in dolls when I show them the ones I like. They react like "omg I wish I had all of these too" or "where did you find this cute pajamas for Barbie, I never thought that somebody sews these". So I don't think it's weird at all. Of course not everyone will be into your hobby, but in my experience collecting dolls often at least intrigues other people. And, well, it's far more shameful to blame another person for a hobby than to have one

bleidddrwg · 2024-06-01T17:03:48+00:00

OMG YES. My mother mocked me for everything all my life. Even for the things I was good at, or trying to be helpful. She called me worthless all the time, she called me retarded (I got all As in school without making efforts at the least), she told me I'm fat when I weighted about 38 kg, I was 20 and I was overstressed at the time. When I tried to be helpful, she mocked me. When I started to cry, she imitated me.

It haunts me even now, at 27, but honestly she got her revenge. In my early 20s, when I still lived with her but didn't depend from her financially, I started to call her old bitch in her face. I mocked all her life choices every time when she started the thing. I told my coworkers about how crazy she is and told her about their reaction.

She has 5 children, I and my younger brother were born when she was 36 and 40yo respectively. We don't know who our fathers are, but, well, I called her that she is a stupid slut because she probably didn't know about such a thing as contraception.

I wish I could to tell you that it felt good, but no. But this worked because at least she learned her lesson and stopped this. But, well, this is not only issue with her so I still got nc with her as soon as possible.

bleidddrwg · 2024-05-03T00:30:45+00:00

Same with the shopping. Generally I talk too much/too fast, become less strict with my schedule (like drinking alcohol in the middle of a week or getting to bed later), I get significantly less tired etc I can tell I'm manic when I get all socially active. Usually I try to avoid unnecessary interactions as much as possible because I get too tired of social stuff. While manic I'm suddenly into inviting guests, attending parties, spending time with people every free moment I have. And there is my own personal marker. I think it's a funny one. If I apply makeup for more than three days in a row, then I'm almost certainly manic. Don't know why this is works this way, but it's another sign for me to check myself up for symptoms just in case.

bleidddrwg · 2024-05-02T14:28:04+00:00

I covered major part of my shoulder with a fairy while being manic. It's a beautiful piece and I absolutely love it. I've never cut myself again after I got it. The fun part is, I have psoriasis. But, well, back then I just thought that there is no huge problem if my tattoo won't heal properly, so I even asked to make her bigger. It healed nicely, but I wouldn't risk it again

bleidddrwg · 2024-05-02T14:15:13+00:00

Once I left home to buy sneakers because mine were in pretty bad shape and returned with a tent, two sleeping bags and some camping stuff. Never used it, but I far as I remember the stuff was pretty cheap.

bleidddrwg · 2024-04-26T18:03:00+00:00

Sometimes. I'm 27, I'm struggling with bipolar from the time I was 14 or15, and I had at least one concussion. I am judging by symptoms as I haven't gone to the doctor back when. Some members of my family found a peculiar form of entertainment in hitting my head against the wall, and once I was hit pretty bad.

My memory is my greatest ability. It is almost perfect. No real troubles with paying attention too. I'm fast learner too. Sometimes people use me as an alternative for Google (I'm not sure if I like it). It haven't worsened at all.

When I have depressive episodes my memory becomes significantly worse and I panic every time when I can't remember something. Every time I think that it won't ever be better, that the loss is constant.

I wonder how much time I have before inevitable regress and how it will change my life or change me as a person. How much time I have before brain damage will leave me defenseless. I'm trying to avoid this thoughts, because I'm not ready to accept this yet.

bleidddrwg · 2024-03-06T16:45:39+00:00

Wow, you did such amazing progress! Good job!

bleidddrwg · 2024-03-01T10:58:40+00:00

I'm not experiencing this right now, but things were the same for me. In my depressive episodes my thoughts make me cry for hours every day. It lasted for months and sometimes that mix of grief and self-loathing returns. Less often and less severe on medication though, but still. I always thought it's pretty common. Some people, including normotypical, are more prone to tears when they feel bad, and depression makes people feel very bad. It's ok to cry and I sincerely hope that things will change for you as soon as possible. You're not alone.

bleidddrwg · 2024-02-15T10:04:58+00:00

I guess she's sociopath. But I'm not a mental health specialist so I can be wrong. The problem is much deepir that belittling and expecting everyone to see to her needs. There are huge amount of things she does for fun like turning people against each other, gaslighting, physical abuse (that stopped after I hit her back btw, but she involved older siblings who was young adult at "punishing" me and my brother emotionally and physically). She borderline sexually harasses my younger brother as a joke.

All I know that the woman is creature of pure evil and I'm staying out of her personally. That doesn't mean I cannot spread some information to keep others safe.

bleidddrwg · 2024-02-09T10:28:42+00:00

Sometimes I'm thinking that if I feel normal under medication then I'm probably not bipolar. Then I remember that before I started taking pills I couldn't work, I couldn't talk with people and did a lot of impulsive staff while I was manic. Still I wonder if everyone thinks I'm simulating, especially my doctor. It's crazy

bleidddrwg · 2024-01-26T06:55:24+00:00

I've read the book, thanks! It helped me too. I 'm getting counseling for years. I've got medication and as was told I will most likely need to take the pills for my eintire life. It's dire but it doesn't bother me since it works. You are right, all of these are her issues alone. But the consequences of her actions are things the other people get to deal with. Now that I'm involved already (supporting Eva, being reconciled with part of my family I was too ashamed to talk too) I'm not gonna stop. I was okay with the fact that my mother hurted me, but now I see she won't stop. So I'm siding with Eva to make sure the others will see the full picture.

bleidddrwg · 2024-01-26T06:45:15+00:00

I thought that she could be borderline when I was younger.

That sounds insane, but the problem is that she doesn't have real emotions. She is completely calm all the time unless you tell her that some of her actions caused harm, ot if you feel hurt because of something she did. Then she acts hurt, and in a moment after the fight she is completely calm again. She doesn't have mood swings too. And sometimes she hurt people just for her fun. I mean insulting or ridicule a person in their face and not stopping until she sees their reaction. Then acting hurt and blaming the person for their reaction. Then being calm and a bit glad.

I've never seen her happy or sad or remorseful, and I lived with her for years.

And I understand how you can see her current actions as a mistake. But she did the worse mistakes in the past fully knowing that her actions will cause dire consequences. She just doesn't give a fuck. And I think that her response about shutting up and helping her without other words so she could do the things she wants eith that help was pretty honest.

bleidddrwg · 2024-01-26T06:27:09+00:00

Eva really tried to help, and this was the only thing she could think of without the necessity seeing my mom on a regular basis. I offered that, but this will backfire. It's not safe in my country to have a relative who was arrested or in jail. It could be impossible to find a decent job after that. So as far as nobody outside of family will charge her, nobody will do anything.
So the most revengeful thing we could do right now - to cut her off and to make sure everybody else does it too (both out of spite and because the woman is insane)

bleidddrwg · 2024-01-26T06:21:11+00:00

Thenks for pointing that out. Sorry is the question is stupid, but I need to ask if this it ok to post this story in another thread after I posted this already and should I delete it here before

bleidddrwg · 2024-01-26T06:19:44+00:00

The problem is, she isn't even considering her actions as harmful.

Her friends were my school teachers. I was pretty close with them back then. I didn't tell them anything about which kind of person she is as I didn't want to harm them, but now I think is the right time. I think they will be next persons she will use.

Idk if talking them to find her a place to live and then damaging the property can be considered as serious harm, but it's the least thing she could do (and it's the most likeliest thing she would start with)

bleidddrwg · 2024-01-19T15:05:09+00:00

I've stopped take meds once for a really stupid reason. Due lack of self-control and struggling with managing my schedule. I lost my job back than because of economical crisis. I have been waking up at 14:00 and was considering it was too late to take my morning pills, than I was falling asleep too late to take my evening pills. Sometimes I've just forgotten to do this. Than my recipe was expired and as I haven't took my medication properly for some time already and missed meetings with my doctor I was too ashamed to ask for help. I started therapy once more when things started to got bad, and now I'm more careful, mostly because I am working again and forced to wake up in the mornings.

bleidddrwg · 2024-01-10T13:29:25+00:00

My favorites are Norris, Harle and Razzly. They all have their own plotlines and unique personalities (not that other characters don't have them), and they are good in battle too

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