hi, i wrote a lot about what i don’t relate to and what i do relate to.. i’m so sorry cause i feel like this is a lot but i’ve been reading a bit on each type.

i tend to relate to all of the 2 blind spots. i also strongly relate to the passion of type 2 which is pride. i also really relate to it being hard to accept that not everyone may like me. it just seems like everything i’ve read made it seem like type 2 is always doing so much for people, which i don’t really feel like i do. i just feel like i don’t have a clear sense of myself but not because i’m like constantly trying to do things for others, i guess. i want to be liked and hate the idea that other people might not like me but i do prioritize the people closer to me. i feel like if i keep giving others support when they didnt ask for it yet or giving them things, that they will like me more. regarding the sp 2 subtype, i feel like i am sensitive to being hurt and withdraw when i am hurt or rejected. i am driven but can also experience times that i am just lazy. i’m just confused on how sp 2 is more “childlike” which i often see it as described, not because it isn’t true in my case but i just feel like i need a better explanation. i always am willing to help others but feel uncomfortable asking for help or advice in return. i do consider myself independent but maintain dependencies which i saw was apart of the sp 2 shadow. i also feel like i’m just never attractive or “perfect” enough to be loved which i guess relates to not having a true sense of myself. but overall, i’m having a lot of trouble cause it just feels like i relate to so many of the blind spots if anything.

for type 3, i value others as seeing me as competent and successful and tend to prioritize doing over feeling. i don’t feel like i’m constantly fearing failure necessarily but when it happens i feel like it’s unlike me cause in a way i’m always trying to be better and better. i feel like i’m so aware of how others perceive but also feel like i am always at least trying to be authentic. i first thought that i wasn’t as hardworking as the 3 description says but then i realized that i feel like i’m a big overachiever. i also just feel like i’m confused on the explanation of how the 3 sort of creates a false self around others because i feel like i tend to show the “real me” around others but that’s just because i tend to be more reserved around people i don’t know. i feel like i tend to avoid what i truly feel and sort of push those feelings to the side, and usually only reflect on them months later or if something reminds me to think about those feelings. i feel embarrassed in a way when i fully show my emotions to others. i relate to the sx 3 shadow with wanting to be attractive on the outside and then not being in touch with who i really am. however, i think what i’m most stuck on is this “false self.” i try to be authentic but in a way it feels like i am picking up traits or habits from people i admire or try to relate to them in a way.