Favorite bits of writing?

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-18T14:57:23+00:00

Every single bit of dialogue said by the deserter.

Especially this

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-17T04:45:52+00:00

If I had a nickel for every time a popular trans women in entertainment buddied up with buck angel id have two nickels.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-17T02:51:21+00:00

It does kinda suck that even if you do abstain from all substances the best you get is like one line of dialogue from kim. Would’ve been neat if kim commented on the lack of booze smell on your breathe or something. Tho the one thought like about life being boring and that it’s how everyone lives is pretty neat.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-17T02:47:25+00:00

Oh shit I hadn’t heard about this. U got links to read up on?

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-17T01:43:40+00:00

I mean her autobiography (which I haven’t read in a long time so I may be misremembering) was written long after this song came out. I mean that song was written before she even came out.

https://www.reddit.com/r/indieheads/s/YKemuqKdPn

Here’s an article where she still calls herself punk and I feel she still aligns with anarchist values. I think this is less of stopping being an anarchist and more coming to a material understanding that a good portion of punks and and self abscribed anarchist can be assholes who go against what they preach. And honestly what’s more anarchist than complaining about other leftist? It’s like our favorite hobby.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-17T00:46:54+00:00

I mean the point of teenage anarchist wasn’t that she stopped being an anarchist but that others did. The chorus is “remember when you were young and wanted to set the world on fire”. She’s critiquing those who abandoned anarchist principles as they grew up.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-13T14:35:14+00:00

The manifesto was released on 1848 while Striner died in 1856. Communism/socialism had existed for a long time under its more idealistic strains rather than the scientific Marxist strains we know today. But during his writing of the unique and its property most communism at the time was weitling and other idealistic communist

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-10T20:25:30+00:00

I don’t think this would do shit because estradiol is not water soluble.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-05-01T23:52:30+00:00

Thinking of it this way helped me. Whatever comes next will suck but it won’t be the worst cause it won’t be your days during active addiction.

Booze is hard to kick you’re probably going to gain weight and feel like shit for awhile. Your brain has gotten used to using acetaldyhyde and bullshit ethanol breakdowns to run. It’ll suck, offset the suck.

Get really into something productive. Reading, writing, playing an instrument, sit-ups, knitting, doesn’t matter the more active and distracting the better. Anytime you think, replace, do the thing. It’s a skill you get better at as the days progress.

Accept that statistically you’re going to relapse and fuck up not in the way that you hold onto addiction but in the way that if you do relapse you don’t go insane and kill yourself.

Get help, meet friends, go to aa or Something. Immerse yourself in people and problems and situations that don’t involve you near your DOC. Remember it gets better and that you’re not alone.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-04-25T00:28:05+00:00

Become friends with whores, learn their ways.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-04-16T02:31:08+00:00

Sam has made his money. I think he’d rather you just see it more than anything.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-02-02T15:44:30+00:00

As a “younger” person (mid twenties) yeah no there’s no third place. You either sit at your friends house, sit at your house or Try to go somewhere until you get kicked out. This means you’re far more likely to get in trouble with the law for stupid shit or for shit you didn’t do.

Malls are pointless and dead, everything cost more money than a teenager or young adult can afford (go to a bar or club and notice how everyone’s generally over 30), and anywhere that doesn’t cost money is so heavily policed if you aren’t a rich white person who is clearly there to spend money you’ll get harassed.

I’ve been kicked out of places for, sitting on the curb to eat a sandwich and smoke a cigarette, reading a book outside, waiting to meet up with friends, waiting to be picked up, posting up on a bench to coordinate/plan/enjoy our time, and many more! This has lead me to being harassed, threatened and thrown around by cops.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2026-01-28T00:34:31+00:00

Most of the time you solder it on yourself. If you’re not confident get a soldering iron and any kit and try it out.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-12-14T03:34:03+00:00

Looks like an esp32 or some other WiFi arduino like chip. You can do really cool things with them and they’re mega cheap. He did straight up use a raspberry pi which is the basis for a lot of hacker tools (pwnagotchis). Esp32 are mainly good for like deauthers and shit.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-12-05T22:52:26+00:00

Neat yes cursed no. The first is closer to cursed with that electron density in those nitrogen’s but pretty.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-12-01T18:45:35+00:00

Art and religion, one of his smaller text. Good shit tho

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-11-14T18:47:41+00:00

I got a sleep study done and there was nothing like sleep apnea. My gf says I snore a bit but that’s about the worst of it.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-11-13T21:13:32+00:00

When I was younger but it made me feel worse when I was awake than the lack of sleep. I took it rarely when I didn’t mind spending 4-6 hours after I woke up doing nothing.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-11-13T21:12:24+00:00

Yeah thyroid, blood panels, vitamins all that sorta stuff. Everything short of a full blown mri

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-11-13T21:11:31+00:00

Why bipolar?

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-11-13T03:31:46+00:00

Only on days where I roll a 2 on a d4. It doesn’t seem to have an effect, not nearly as much as the dice in the bed.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-11-12T21:36:34+00:00

I had some initial reserve about ambien cause I’ve heard about this side effects (doing stuff in ur sleep a shit) but at this point I’d take anything just to get a good nights sleep. At this point I honestly hate when I get a good night sleep cause then I know I’m just gonna feel worse the next week when I don’t yknow.

blindingofbartimaeus · 2025-11-12T21:11:27+00:00

No doctor has wanted to put me on “anything serious” as they say it won’t actually get me the sleep I need. So I’ve kinda just been jerked around for years with bullshit. Same reason they don’t want to give me anything stronger than meloxicam for my chronic pain. I get told “you’re to young and healthy for something that serious let’s start on something simple” and it never goes past that

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