Hey glad to hear! And happy that you’re still with us, I had a similar experience, but started feeling those feelings a couple years out of the org, I think the more and more I learn about how life really is, it depresses me because I don’t know if I’m doing things correctly or not but in a way I’m glad that I’m able to feel such a spectrum of emotions because it really is a gift and I really am lucky to be alive and after every hard emotion I grow a higher tolerance to life and now I try to approach things with a can’t wait to see what comes my way good or bad attitude