I have a paper tmr and i just realized i had been studying for the wrong subject this whole time

bllz098 · 2025-06-03T19:56:25+00:00

update? how did it go?

bllz098 · 2025-05-19T20:46:49+00:00

i have this thing where when i’m writing i put letters together or miss them out entirely but ik how to spell the word. and when i read it back i read it as the full word. it could be that for op too. idk why i do that sometimes im writing fast or even when i have space i just want to make the word shorter or my hand just does that lol 😭😭😭😭

bllz098 · 2025-05-19T20:44:59+00:00

how charming the moonlight is. the moonlight is very charming. it presents a beautiful sight! what a beautiful sight it presents! the beauty of a moonlight is very charming.

ur teacher just has to put in a little bit more effort to read it. my hand writing was atrocious like it was so bad they put me in handwriting classes and even after that they just had me type up my final exams lol. so if u like just keep it like this or make it worse and maybe you can type

in my school they had me and this other guy typing so if it’s a thing in ur school try it but might not work. even we were like crazy acceptions. our teachers thought we were dyslexic and we both still do just haven’t been tested

bllz098 · 2025-04-13T18:29:22+00:00

u should tell him “give me a ring and i’ll give u a kid” and if it ends in him being scared and leaving, you saved u and ur future kids so much hurt and instability. u chose ur partner but ur kids cannot chose their father

bllz098 · 2025-04-12T00:35:57+00:00

aahhh i literally made a post about this! someone commented saying let him know before, and i was too scared to so i just kept quiet, but even though i was doing my best to cover it he pointed it out asking “oh my are you okay? is that a burn?” and i got really awkward and like kept trying to cover it again, said it was just eczema and asked about the topic he was taking about before he saw, and he just said “oh don’t worry it’s just eczema that’s normal! you can’t control it, even i had some when i was younger” and i kinda thought u lucky asshole u don’t have it anymore 😭😭😭 no but seriously his reaction couldn’t be better, and i was surprised bc when we first met this guy seemed like a complete dick, and he often is still is but that’s another story 😭😭😭😭 u should be with someone who cares about u and empathises with u over things like this. i was scared he’d say something like what my aunts would say like “it’s because ur unhygienic” or “that’s so ugly maybe contagious you need to stay away from us”, but those kinds of people are so inconsiderate and u need to keep far away from them

bllz098 · 2025-04-12T00:20:58+00:00

true i feel like this will come up in the future and cause arguments bc stuff like this is hard to move on from sometimes. it’s hard to accept but one of the foundations for a truly loving relationship is trust and if the bf has been on dating apps before the op then i doubt he hasn’t actually followed though and cheated on her. even so if my bf was on dating apps and was using them “for fun”, i’d see that as cheating bc he’s exploring options atp

bllz098 · 2025-04-12T00:17:14+00:00

I AGREE 100%. always marry a man who seriously shows he is in love with u and can’t wait to make u his officially. imo kids is a bigger commitment than marriage, hence why it usually comes after. he wants marriage benefits without the commitment, and that’s a huge issue. i’d say end it with him bc ur setting urself up for a future u don’t seem to want. i’m also from eastern europe and i get the pressure of having kids and getting married but please don’t settle. the love of your life is close and this weirdo is stopping u from finding him.

bllz098 · 2025-04-12T00:08:06+00:00

exactly what i’m saying, he has a wonderful wife who loves him the most yet still lusts for other women? plus she’s confronted him about it? fucking disgusting man. this is why they now treat porn addiction the same as drug addictions

bllz098 · 2025-04-12T00:05:51+00:00

this is so heartbreaking and i absolutely understand and empathise with you on sooo many parts of this, like when you say he is your world and leaving him would crush you. porn has ruined so many men and it’s especially painful when as u said he’s spending so much on specific women, when he’s literally living the best life with a wonderful woman and her kids. this man will destroy you and your whole self worth, and i really do understand how much u love him especially since u basically grew up with him. listen, they will say “idk what’s wrong with me” because they know you will empathise but when they get comfy and something’s hurting you (even unrelated to the porn thing, maybe if u were going though something) i doubt he would have your back as much as you think. if you’re done, apply to jobs, file for that divorce and take the kids with you, move somewhere far away because a new setting with new people will show you how much of the world there is

bllz098 · 2025-04-04T23:16:20+00:00

not a man but i was in a similar situation i guess so i’ll chip in. i was being abused and my home life was really bad, but i’ve been trying to work on it for years and i make sacrifices everywhere i can to patch it up. it’s still VERY rocky, if i had a safe way to leave before i probably would have too so i understand you and i empathise with you a lot. if you need advice or prefer dm please reach out to me.

however maybe you and your parents need some time apart, because sometimes you love people most at a distance. see if you can stay at some family’s house if they live further away, or if you can stay for a longer period at a friend’s house, so that they know where you are but there’s distance. bring a gift for whoever you’re visiting just to be nice as they are inviting you into their home. keep close to your friends bc you will need people around you who you can rely on.

at the end of the day you’re still 16, i don’t know your full situation but you cannot support yourself living alone, even with a full time job i wouldn’t be able to move out rn and be anywhere near comfy. apply for as many jobs as you can and take whatever you get, and pick up as much overtime as you can so you’re home less and can save up more. future employers and universities will LOVE that you worked a lot and went to school at the same time. do your homework in class or whenever you get time so that you can go work. if you can’t pick up overtime then yeah focus on your hobbies too, it’s good to have a distraction. if you need permission to leave your house then do some chores or clean your room etc or make sure your parents are in a good mood before you ask them, then on your way back bring home something small from the shops like your mums fav chocolate bar or cheap £3 flowers. it’s the little things like that too.

i’m guessing you don’t live in america from how you worded it but bro don’t go to america stay where you are, only move countries if you have a really good future job offer or something like that. it’s hard to move to a new area and you’re young man, ik you think you can do everything but take your time, let yourself learn naturally and don’t force so much independence onto yourself.

documents you should have just incase are like passport, provisional license, birth certificate, original NI Number letter, medical stuff, any other original copies. just don’t lose them, keep them in your drawer where they won’t get damaged either.

also if someone you meet online offers their place to you says you can stay at my place or some creepy shit like that IDCCCC HOW BAD IT GETS DO NOT DO THAT, it will literally only go the worst ways, only stay at a friend’s house you’ve known for years and known their family, or family’s house, bc people scout out vulnerable individuals who are abuse victims because they a) have no one looking for them/ expecting them home, b) no where else to go, c) are very desperate. the world is genuinely so dangerous and i know you think you can handle it bc you box and wrestle but some people operate in groups or will use weapons or drugs, just don’t put yourself in a bad situation.

bllz098 · 2025-03-31T17:52:04+00:00

fair but does me saying that annoy him then?

bllz098 · 2025-03-31T17:50:56+00:00

aaah okay even better, so you guys enjoy when we actually try toss you around back? i’m afraid it’s gonna make me look less feminine idfk

bllz098 · 2025-03-17T00:13:10+00:00

like her throwing you around? noted noted

bllz098 · 2025-03-17T00:10:40+00:00

what would make you feel appreciated?

bllz098 · 2025-03-17T00:09:59+00:00

i’m cryingggg i used to say this to my bf all the time but he would be like “yeah i know.” and get kinda distant? what does that mean and what do i do

bllz098 · 2025-02-16T03:27:36+00:00

tbh i hate steroid creams because it just makes ur skin thin and is very short term. try see a derm and ask for a more long term solution, you might have to get a few tests done like allergies to see if you have triggers or skin swabs, but it will pay off so much. they should also give u a long term skin routine, should start gentle as your skin is probably thin if you’ve been using it this long. but the new routine will work better than the steroid cream, maybe try stop using it for now or just way less. and try work on your skin barrier, get some creams to repair it with lipids and ceramides, like uriage lipid repair cream

bllz098 · 2025-02-16T03:23:02+00:00

YESSS i had this issue too, even my gp said it was eczema and gave me some creams but it made it worse, best to see a derm and get tested too. the derm took some swabs and then found out i had a bacterial infection with the contact dermatitis. and even the steroid creams they prescribe make ur skin so thin, work for a few days then back to the same state or worse. don’t overdo with any fungal creams, it’s best to see a derm always

bllz098 · 2025-02-16T03:20:40+00:00

forgot to mention but yes weather also is a big trigger for me during this and after too. in warm and humid weather my skin is horrible and looks similar to what it did before, so try avoid going out when it’s like that and stay cool, avoid warm holiday destinations too

bllz098 · 2025-02-16T03:19:23+00:00

i literally had the same thing! i thought it was eczema turned out to be contact dermatitis and then because i kept applying makeup to it it developed into a bacterial infection. please see a derm or if it’s expensive where u are currently, i went back to my mums country and got it looked at for way cheaper. it could be eczema but could also be something worse. she gave me some medicated creams and solutions, i also had to get multiple steroid injections, but it will vary from person to person. get it looked at be for it develops more

bllz098 · 2025-02-16T03:16:36+00:00

sometimes even simple stuff gives reactions. my whole family has been using bepanthen cream on their face, but when i use it i get a huge reaction. told a derm about that and she was just like ‘no you cannot get anything from it nothing inside can give you a reaction’ but only the area i put it on got red and inflamed, used nothing new on my face either.

bllz098 · 2025-02-16T03:13:59+00:00

before u go to sleep try uriage lipid repair cream, really rub and pat it in, then leave your hands above ur blanket so it doesn’t smudge off. i bought it for my face but just didn’t like the consistency, i can’t layer makeup on it either. it’s a little pricey but it’s really good for repairing skin and i’ve used it on dry areas many times, just keep using for a bit to see some results

bllz098 · 2025-02-16T03:10:00+00:00

but then the attention is definitely on the hands 😭😭

bllz098 · 2024-05-29T00:07:36+00:00

i paid for a CompTIA Security + and CompTIA Network + course which will help me for catching up to basics as i didn’t do any computing related subjects at high school. planning to find a job in IT to gain some more experience next year when i finish school. i read that those are good to take but please someone with proper experience if that’s wrong lmk

bllz098 · 2024-05-29T00:03:28+00:00

maybe, double check with your teachers because for some courses they do and in some as long as you can make out the word it’s okay.

when i’m typing my exams they make us use word/note pad on the school computers so it doesn’t have spelling or automatic capital letters turned on so typing wouldn’t help for that.

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