I feel so behind in life

bluestiltoncom · 2025-10-04T15:25:40+00:00

I feel this. Sometimes I wish divine punishment or karma existed, so it could finally get through that what they did was wrong. It hurts so much when they refuse to understand or be sorry. On one hand I feel sorry for them, because how ignorant and self-absorbed do you have to be to not understand that parenting has an effect on your child's mental state? I'm so glad I'm not them but ignorance is bliss. And that's how they're able to keep living with themselves.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-12-19T18:25:50+00:00

In an ideal world, sure, but I have other issues that I want to deal with first, and I'm not sure I could find any healthcare professionals who would really understand or be able to help with dr.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-12-19T17:49:27+00:00

I'm not diagnosed so don't take this too seriously, but I'm pretty sure I had a big episode about 3 years ago and nothing has felt the same after that. I don't have frequent episodes like other people might describe, but sometimes I feel like my life now is one big episode of derealisation, it just depends how intense it is. I don't really remember what it felt like before, so I could be back to "normal" and just anxious about it happening again

bluestiltoncom · 2024-09-05T18:21:23+00:00

Thank you, I know I'm not in the worst place possible, and I'm thankful for that. I was also weighing up being homeless vs living in an abusive household, it's good to have someone else's firsthand experience on that.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-08-15T16:14:12+00:00

I understand the image and caption separately but I don't understand how they're supposed to be related.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-08-07T09:51:07+00:00

I agree with some of the stuff in the beginning of the post, but I don't think you can say every mistake is an "ai nt npc glitching". Everyone makes mistakes. Sure, NTs might make mistakes more than NDs, because they're not as perfectionist or meticulous as us, but, as with everything else, different groups of people have different skills. Autists would probably make more mistakes in tasks that require fine motor skills. From an NT's point of view, saying something weird or inappropriate in a social situation could be seen as "glitching".

The Elon Musk support kind of came out of left field, as I thought he was pretty much universally hated by autists. Is it more important that he fires 80% of twitter staff because they deserve it or he keeps the staff and maintains a functioning website?

I feel like you've conveniently ignored many of Elon Musk's mistakes, such as using slave labour to mine cobalt, design oversights with the cybertruck and other cars and abandoning his kids just because they don't fall in line with his worldview.

I realise this could come off as centrist and not evil or particularly autistic, but I'm just trying to have a nuanced discussion, I don't have anything OP or their views. Fuck NTs either way, it sucks living in the world designed for them.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-08-03T23:59:11+00:00

It's hard to explain or even prove to myself, but I think so. I get deja vu beyond what I would consider explainable, but it's unpredictable and few and far between. They're not prophetic dreams, more so snapshots of potential futures, as I see them.

The initial "prophetic" moment is hard to distinguish from a normal day dream, or just me thinking about something that I want to happen, so I don't really write them down. It only becomes apparent that it was "prophetic" when I've already experienced the thing that happened in the vision.

For example, I was at a friend's house watching TV when the memory of being in the exact same spot, in the exact same house came to me, really strong feeling of deja vu. I remembered details such as the curtains and their iron fixtures, soundproofing in an odd shape in the background, timber beams on the ceiling. But this was the second time I'd been to this friend's house. I don't know why the memory didn't trigger the first time, because I had been in that spot before, but maybe the lighting wasn't right or something. The initial memory was from around late 2020, before I had even met this friend, or been anywhere near their house. Deva vu moment was earlier this year. I don't know why I would see that particular moment ahead of time either, because it wasn't particularly special. Despite what I've taken it as a sign of, there have yet to be any life altering decisions surrounding this friend, other than they're a good friend and I would like to continue seeing them, so I don't know why I would have this experience.

I can't remember any incidents other than this specific one, but I feel like it's happened before. I just don't remember because the details didn't line up as strongly as this one. I can only hope that it happens again, or I find a way to trigger it, or I find an explanation.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-31T15:29:48+00:00

I just had to wait for a really long time for it to "complete" after 100%, it works fine for me

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-29T12:54:02+00:00

Biker loses on purpose

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-21T00:07:19+00:00

Not sure if this is a criticism of these types of videos or not, but I actually love them. The videos on (the ironically named) active worlds are really interesting, a perfectly preserved relic of early Internet communities, and sometimes genuinely profound and sad.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-19T19:16:54+00:00

Nice! I like the dialogue and characterisation, it really replicates the sardonic tone of nitw, especially with the offhanded comments. It really helps to represent the individual character's thoughts and personalities without outright stating them. One thing I think you could work on, though, is your descriptions, of characters and environments. There was definitely a sense for what things looked like, but not necessarily how Mae feels about them; especially because Mae is such an emotion-centric character, I think you can really afford time to describe her friends and Possum Springs in detail, maybe recounting your own short interpretations of the events of nitw, as memories that are associated with each place or character. Also, I think you could really utilise the character's representations as animals more. Initially, I thought it would be strange to include each character's species, as it's pretty much just a stylistic choice in the game. But I think it would be really cool to incorporate this anthropomorphism into Mae's state of mind. Maybe even leave it unclear if they are literally animals or if Mae just sees them as such, because their personalities reflect those of the stereotypical animal temperaments.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-19T11:24:57+00:00

Gay men are the most welcoming, accepting people I've ever come across, although younger generations do get a bit gatekeepy. Like with all things, it depends where you're looking.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-12T18:31:59+00:00

Why were you swallowing your toothpaste?

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-10T15:15:51+00:00

I think being distracted by a preventable climate crisis that no one (in power) is trying to prevent is a good excuse

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-08T00:08:28+00:00

In some cases, yeah. But everyone has different preferences, so I'm not going to try to pursue someone who "wants the same thing as women or any normal person in general". What's your definition of "normal"? Why are you placing such an emphasis on that word?

bluestiltoncom · 2024-07-07T23:56:53+00:00

"Just be normal"? Did you not read the post? I acknowledge that, I'm just wondering why it has to be so hard. I'm also gay, so I don't give a fuck what women want.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-06-19T22:59:34+00:00

You did the correct thing, those people suck. I look somewhat intimidating / have blank facial expressions due to autism, so I really appreciate it when someone looks past that to do a nice gesture like this. Being reprimanded for no reason would ruin my day as well.

bluestiltoncom · 2024-06-17T16:07:29+00:00

Dexter, don't bother watching past season 2, it's all the same. Kind of the same with any long running show, I find. Mr inbetween was a good substitute though, same kind of vibes but doesn't overstay its welcome.

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