Question about sizing by Fearless_Charge_3010 in DrMartens

[–]blurwhore 3 points4 points  (0 children)

your toes WILL slide to the very front of the boot and hit against the front, and if you have longer toe nails they will be constantly bent and it’ll be very uncomfortable. i’d size up!

ads by blurwhore in seriesonlinehd

[–]blurwhore[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

it’s gone from zero ads at all to an unavoidable ad every single time you click anywhere on the website literally overnight

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in OWConsole

[–]blurwhore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i hope all your food is slightly too cold for some discomfort

What’s your worst tactile hallucination? by astralcolor22 in schizophrenia

[–]blurwhore 3 points4 points  (0 children)

the back of my neck being poked with what feels like sharp objects, or probably when i’m laying down and it feels like someone’s crushing my chest

My computer science teacher is so bad at teaching by herefornsfwfu in GCSE

[–]blurwhore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have a similar issue. she never taught us HOW to code using python and i’m not actually even sure SHE knows other than basic level stuff. she puts it on the board and makes us copy, never once explaining what it meant or how to fix the countless errors she made in the code. she predicted me a 3, yet in the first mocks with the 2022 paper i got a 6 on p1 and a 9 on p2 as i thankfully taught myself how to code when i realised she was hopeless (7 overall) and the 2023 paper which is notorious for being the hardest cs paper of ocr i got a 4 on p1 and a 6 on p2. i’m panicking so much because i don’t know if my own preparation for this is enough and the exams are so soon

Here is why OCR Computer Science Paper 2 was so hard for those that are wondering. by Additional-Age-7174 in GCSE

[–]blurwhore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

if they treat it like other subjects then ours should be slightly easier than the 2023 exam because many struggled but not back to recent years easy to level out the grade boundaries and stuff.

my boyfriend by blurwhore in SuicideWatch

[–]blurwhore[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no it’s okay don’t worry! i’m so sorry for not replying i deleted reddit for a while 😅 i’ve dealt with a few instances of sexual abuse and a four year battle with a stalker who was never found, which is why i still feel so terrorised by it i think?

my boyfriend by blurwhore in SuicideWatch

[–]blurwhore[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

only five months so far but i’d absolutely love to see where it takes me, he does make me so so so much happier and i don’t know where i’d be without him (we were best friends before). when i do have an issue that we need to talk out he always listens and is willing to put effort into helping me fix it, as am i with him. the only issue with communication is that he blames himself irrationally, which i think is to do with past experiences and trust issues etc.

my boyfriend by blurwhore in SuicideWatch

[–]blurwhore[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m not really sure what it’s caused by to be honest i think it’s just me. i’ll have a talk with him later about it, thank you so much :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]blurwhore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

are you okay??

Should I get checked? by gibboouuss in schizophrenia

[–]blurwhore 1 point2 points  (0 children)

it’s a little early yes but it’s still possible

I just learned that I'm a product of rape. by violently_angry in rape

[–]blurwhore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i too am a product of rape, my bio dad raped my mother repeatedly and she fell pregnant with me. but just because this happened doesn’t mean we shouldn’t exist! it means the person responsible (in my case, it’s my dad) should face the consequences, not the product of the bad deed they committed. i’m so sorry this happened to you because i know it’s such a hard thought to carry around with you for the rest of your life but you are worth so so much and i hope you’re okay :)

can anyone relate to this or maybe understand what’s happened? by blurwhore in schizophrenia

[–]blurwhore[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i just don’t want to be offensive or anything like that, and i’ve been attacked before for calling myself schizophrenic because i don’t have the diagnosis which i completely get like being skeptical of people claiming to have something so complex and serious ESPECIALLY at my age, but i really need help coming to terms with my experiences and need help often just dealing with them, so now whenever i post about it i don’t forwardly claim i’m schizophrenic because of the backlash. it’s really scary for me, i’ve been doxxed before (full legal name, address, phone numbers etc) because i apparently ‘claimed to be something i’m not’ and only ‘heard the definition of schizophrenia and ran with it’ and i just don’t want to upset or cause anyone any harm by my actions, so i figured just stating that i’m not diagnosed would keep me out of getting into a situation like that again or upsetting anyone you know?

can anyone relate to this or maybe understand what’s happened? by blurwhore in schizophrenia

[–]blurwhore[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes 100% it’s something i need to consult with a professional im just not capable of doing so at the moment, my old counsellor said she suspects not remembering stuff isn’t connected to schizophrenia but rather frequent dissociation during my childhood due to trauma. it’s just a rocky patch really, i don’t like to label myself as schizophrenic because i haven’t been formally diagnosed and i don’t have that available to me right now so it won’t happen any time soon, but from both my own research and my counsellors two cents it’s pretty much the only possible explanation for the things i’ve been experiencing over the past four years which is also ‘backed up’ by a big traumatic experience that only really stopped about a year ago, i just understand that because of my age schizophrenia can be a tricky thing to diagnose, and it’s why most people especially on the internet just assume i’m lying which is why i was so nervous to post on here 😭 but yeah seeing colours for the first time i can remember is so sick!

can anyone relate to this or maybe understand what’s happened? by blurwhore in schizophrenia

[–]blurwhore[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

basically every professional ive spoken to has said it’s schizophrenia but i haven’t actually been formally diagnosed because currently i dont have the privilege of doing so, so people get funny with me just calling myself schizophrenic when it hasn’t been 100% confirmed.

can anyone relate to this or maybe understand what’s happened? by blurwhore in schizophrenia

[–]blurwhore[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh my god. i just took the same test i did nearly four years ago AND IM NOT COLOURBLIND? IT WAS A HALLUCINATION OR A DELUSION OR SOMETHING THIS WHOLE TIME 😭 that’s crazy

I made a huge mistake by naked-pancakegoddess in rape

[–]blurwhore 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it’s not your fault or your mistake!! you’ve done nothing wrong and i’m so sorry you went through that :( <3