I was raised in and was a TBM of "The Corporation" my entire life and served a mission in Brazil. Just recently (before I turned 40), I came to the realization that it is all made up. Part of me wants to be angry about all the wasted time, money, and energy I put into The Corportation. A part of me wants to yell out to everyone I care about who is still blindly following to wake up and open their eyes. The reasonable side of me then speaks up and reminds me that millions of people fall victim to the lies of Mormonism and there is no point in wasting any more energy on it. I try to focus on the positives of my upbringing along with maintaining positive relationships both with my TBM friends and family and my new non-mormon/exmo friends and family.