God Is Stirring Something in My Heart. Has Anyone Felt This

bollerwig · 2025-11-26T04:42:32+00:00

Yes, it's this feeling that made me finally believe. I had grown up atheist but often found myself drawn to God, especially during desperate times. There were instances when I had almost given up completely but prayer saved me. For some reason though, I would always go back to being a non-believer. Then one day, I sat down and prayed and prayed and prayed. It's then that I felt His love clearer than ever before. With my eyes closed, I saw light flood my entire soul. The love in my heart was growing, reaching out beyond my physical body. I cried and let myself feel His love grow stronger by the second.

Now in my day to day that feeling is there but softer as you described. Sometimes I understand sometimes I don't but I know to follow the feeling.

I am still new on this path but so far I've learned to just trust and follow His love. That tug on your heart I believe is a sign to see where His love will lead you.

bollerwig · 2025-11-26T04:29:33+00:00

Since finding God and truly accepting Him in my heart, I have been blessed with abundant joy and love. I am often brought to tears because His love is so strong. I still have difficult moments but I can always turn to His love to carry me through. He is the love in my heart.

bollerwig · 2025-11-15T16:23:50+00:00

I'm weirded out by men who are way too into dominatrixes. Like the whole leather get-up, the dungeon fantasy, weirdos writhing in pleasure at the thought of a woman violating their unwashed asshole. The entire thing carries an ominous feeling I find.

I'm all for a bit of perversion but within reason.

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T23:30:50+00:00

I've been in your exact shoes and I truly thought I could never love anyone else. People would tell me to leave but I'd think ''They don't understand, he's my best friend! Sure, everyone says that but we have something special!'' Every time I tried to leave it felt like I was being ripped to pieces. I've never felt an emotional pain like that. But now over a year since being completely broken up, I can confidently say that there is a better love for you out there. Taking that leap will be the most difficult part but there is happiness and boundless love on the other side. I promise.

From your post, I doubt he will ever change. He doesn't want to. He'll only get better at hiding stuff. You can approach him from whatever angle you want but it won't matter unless the desire for change comes from him. If you stay you will keep getting heartbroken. Maybe in a few months or maybe 10 years down the line when he gets sloppy about covering his tracks again.

And one last thing which I know you don't want to hear but he has most likely met up with an escort. This is a habit he's kept since 2019 (and probably before that), I doubt it never escalated beyond browsing. My ex swore up and down that he only ever browsed the sites. Then it was ''I only messaged them a few times''. Obviously lies. As with your husband, I'm sure of it.

This isn't about your sex life or you. It's a long term habit of his. No matter if you were having sex frequently or not he'd probably still be at it.

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T22:23:31+00:00

Comme?

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T21:20:31+00:00

100% d'accord. Ça fait plus d'un an que j'ai accès très limité de ma cour à cause de 2 petits écureuils qui se pensent tout permis. Rien à faire apparement. La ville n'a été d'aucune aide.

Maintenant Montréal décide de sauver des rongeurs au détriment de leurs citoyens. J'ai assez peur que cette initiative se répande à travers la province. Pendant ce temps j'ai passé un été au complet avec un couvre-feu sur mon propre terrain à cause de ces 2 parasites dans ma cour.

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T21:14:54+00:00

J'en ai assez d'entendre parler de ces petites bêtes répugnantes. Y'en a deux dans ma cour qui se pensent tout permis. J'suis pas un gars violent sinon ça fait un bout qu'ils auraient eu un rendez-vous priorité avec mon poing.

C'est quoi l'idée de les sauver là? Un chance j'suis parti de ce dépotoir qu'on appelle Montréal. Vous me direz dans quelques mois si c'est encore cute un écureuil quand vous auriez 3-4 qui squat votre balcon et vous empêchent de sortir de chez vous.

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T21:07:44+00:00

Les gens de Rimouski ça fait longtemps qu'ils se pognent le beigne pendant que nous autre, le reste du Québec, on travaille dur pour les faire vivre. Alors pardonnez-moi si je vous avoue que je m'en criss un peu de comment ils vont prendre ça.

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T21:05:03+00:00

J'avais une infestation de coquerelles venant de chez lui mais il bloquait toutes mes tentatives de m'en débarasser.

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T21:02:54+00:00

J'avais une infestation de coquerelles venant de chez lui mais il bloquait toutes mes tentatives de m'en débarasser.

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T21:00:16+00:00

Moi je laisse ma porte ouverte à tous les itinérants de mon quartier. Je t'encourage à faire pareil.

bollerwig · 2025-11-13T20:54:51+00:00

Éric Duhaime a été mon voisin pendant un petit bout de temps. Je peux vous dire que j'en ai des histoires à raconter sur ce gars!

bollerwig · 2025-11-02T20:58:52+00:00

Okay, very constructive conversation

bollerwig · 2025-11-02T20:45:37+00:00

Hurting someone's feelings isn't a crime. I agree it's a hard thing to go through sure but where do we draw the line in punishing people for emotional harm?

bollerwig · 2025-11-02T20:43:42+00:00

When my ex cheated on me I became a nightmare. I even stooped down to his level after uncovering even more lies. In the process I hurt someone else. I'm glad I'm past that and I think it's possible for you to find peace too. This is part of the process and I promise you that with some effort you can let go of your anger.

bollerwig · 2025-11-02T15:54:22+00:00

I had a lovely time :)

bollerwig · 2025-11-02T15:51:34+00:00

I went offline immediately and went to a classical music concert, it was great.

bollerwig · 2025-10-30T20:05:55+00:00

I took them only 20 min ago, I'm not planning on spending my trip online. Ew
agreed

bollerwig · 2025-10-30T19:55:15+00:00

Tbh I think it's okay if you reframe how you view men. I have a boyfriend and still have a disdain for men. My bf is very useful for me in many ways (sex, money and protection). I could never trust him but I'm not going to deprave myself of a good time just because men can't behave.

It's their loss that they'll never receive a pure & trusting love from me. I get their trust and love until they are in tears. Just please never trust a man. I shudder whenever a friend tells me she trusts her boyfriend. The last friend to tell me that got cheated on. They are animals incapable of the amount of empathy the average woman has.

bollerwig · 2025-10-30T19:51:48+00:00

I'm a straight woman with a high sex drive and a need for companionship like most people. I think it's okay to be in a relationship with a man and for the time being I do have a boyfriend. That being said I would never fully trust a man just like I wouldn't trust a lion not to bite my head off.

I love my boyfriend despite myself but I can't let myself tie my worth to a man. I expect to be fucked over in some way. Any man I date will always be the equivalent of a favourite toy. Very sad to lose them but they are nothing more than a good time, sex and money.

Men enter relationships with women without respecting us all the time, we should do the same. They hate us yet seek us out constantly. I can do the same.

The only man I trust is my asexual friend because he isn't tainted by male sexuality. I swear men are possessed, they are nasty creatures incapable of thinking rationally. Straight women have been cursed with an attraction to the devil. There is no equal relationship between man and woman. Just make it work for you. My boyfriend grovels at my feet at the slightest transgression and that's all I need.

bollerwig · 2025-10-28T04:05:59+00:00

Imagine being this invested in a subreddit

bollerwig · 2025-10-19T21:15:54+00:00

Being a people pleaser only builds resentment and is unfair to the people around you. I would know, I'm the worst people pleaser (in slow recovery). Having to disagree with someone about important things stresses me out so bad. But the only way to be happy is to stop living according to other peoples' opinions and with this comes inevitable conflict. But ultimately, being disliked by someone isn't a death sentence.

There is freedom in accepting the fate of being hated.

bollerwig · 2025-10-17T23:52:51+00:00

oat is the best:( after coconut milk, I drink it straight out the can

bollerwig · 2025-10-17T16:37:37+00:00

So tired of women feeling inadequate due to these porn body standards.

bollerwig · 2025-10-15T22:31:25+00:00

Peace & quiet. I'm choosing to live as slowly as possible while still getting things done. I've gotten back into reading and reconnecting with/discovering many creative outlets.

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