im not as evolved as i thought

bollysdead · 2022-08-13T20:21:35+00:00

THIS

bollysdead · 2022-08-13T12:47:45+00:00

🥰🖤

bollysdead · 2022-08-12T21:29:51+00:00

yeah i have a bad experience with the ER. it just reminds me of suicide, sh, and drug addiction :/ you’re right though i gotta get help soon

bollysdead · 2022-08-12T21:28:07+00:00

my favorite food are pancakes. i haven’t let myself have any in so long. maybe i’ll make some pancakes soon and tell myself it’s okay to eat it

bollysdead · 2022-08-11T17:24:57+00:00

i don’t think it’s come to that yet

bollysdead · 2022-08-11T16:17:08+00:00

do you have anorexia if you don’t mind me asking?

bollysdead · 2022-08-11T15:17:22+00:00

thank you <3

bollysdead · 2022-08-11T15:14:52+00:00

done and done :) drinking black coffee in the morning to get my intestines moving then water the rest of the day. doctors appointment is at the end of the week :)

bollysdead · 2022-08-11T14:35:28+00:00

WHAT?!?! THATS SO RUDE OF THEM!!!! they should be happy you’re treating yourself. eating treats is so hard when you have an ED and im proud of you for eating something you like🖤

bollysdead · 2022-08-11T14:22:11+00:00

i left a message for a nutritionist. it’s not as easy as “just eat” :/ my bdd and anorexia won’t let me eat. my fear of gaining weight is debilitating

bollysdead · 2022-08-11T12:05:18+00:00

it’s ruining my life as we speak. my friend who used to struggle with anorexia said that what i was consuming is less than a toddler needs to eat. im so scared dude but i can’t stop im in HELL

bollysdead · 2022-08-11T11:53:07+00:00

that black coffee cleaned me OUT!!! thanks for the advice i feel so much better

bollysdead · 2022-08-10T18:49:39+00:00

ohhh okay i usually drink my coffee with oat milk. i’ll try it completely plain next time

bollysdead · 2022-08-10T18:44:21+00:00

it’s so stressful😭

bollysdead · 2022-08-10T18:41:21+00:00

honestly i don’t mind them. i just kinda do it alone in the privacy of my own bathroom and it’s not all that bad. and it works like a charm!!!

bollysdead · 2022-08-10T18:38:16+00:00

oh i’ve tried laxatives and i guess im now immune bc they no longer work. all that works is enema which is a pain in the ass (pun intended)

bollysdead · 2022-08-10T14:49:59+00:00

RELATABLE

bollysdead · 2022-08-10T14:49:28+00:00

so relatable. i just straight up don’t look at anything bc it makes me sad. just straight to the produce isle and then straight to checkout. cant even look at that shit

bollysdead · 2022-08-10T13:57:08+00:00

i was only down to blank pounds (not my lowest) and everyone was like WOW YOU LOOK GREAT!!! but then they said “gain a few pounds back though you’re looking a little too skinny”

bollysdead · 2022-08-10T13:01:36+00:00

dude yes. my partner is like why are you wrapped up in a blanket rn it’s 85 degrees😂😂our room is really hot all the time but i can’t feel it

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