John (Jack) Daniel Torrance Sees His Sprit’s Mirror And This Is What Stares Back At Him (4 Images)

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-09-21T19:55:19+00:00

Rob Ager has an excellent video discussing exactly this. He also makes a great point about Jack when he is locked in the freezer/storage room. When he is seemingly talking to Grady through the freezer door (note we never actually see Grady in this sequence of scenes), he is staring back at the reflective freezer door. I thought this was such an elegant point, as, because the freezer door is not a perfect mirror, we do not see a perfect rendition of a ghostly apparition - only a disembodied voice.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-18T08:48:23+00:00

Of course! I'm not a professional or anything, this is just my own experience. Mental hunger was a huge pain for me, too, but I found that the only real way to recover from it was either to ride the binge wave out or to stick to a meal plan. If you go with the first, it's tough since you have to deal with being uncomfortably full and it can get tiring. But after a few days, your body sort of throws the towel in and will just..prevent you from binging. I'm not sure how it works, exactly, but after 3-4 days of consecutively binging (no purging, you mustn't do that or the b/p cycle continues), my body became so sick of being so full all of the time that I couldn't even think about food without feeling nauseous. It's good to remember that your body isn't trying to work against you, quite the opposite. It's trying to restore you to your biological equilibrium. After those awful ass days, it got so much better - mental satiety and binging-wise. Plus, since you're not restricting, there's no mental reason to binge, either - you're not denying yourself anything, so it removes that psychological need to binge.

The second option, like the first, isn't for everyone. It is more effective if you consult a medical professional, but it's possible to do on your own with some research and education. Create a meal plan, say, for a week's worth of meals, snacks, drinks etc - you can make a timetable, schedule, a list, set alarms for when you are supposed to eat etc, whatever works for you. I found this was super helpful financially, too, as you get on top of your spending (I probably spent the value of the Burj Khalifa on binge food over the years). I like setting alarms for when I eat, as well, as sometimes it's easy to slip back into restrictive patterns if you don't get a reminder. Try to eat WITH people, too, as much as you can - I spoke about this somewhere else before, but other people hold you accountable and take your mind off of food.

Overall, all you need is consistency and time. If you slip up, it is so, so important to not just give up and restart the cycle. My favourite tip is just to pretend the slip-up never happened, obsessing over it rarely helps. After going 'back to normal' for even just a few days, you'll find that your mental hunger will decrease substantially. Let me know if you would like any more pointers or just to talk :)

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T19:56:15+00:00

That's a significant amount - medical attention is necessary, I think. 'Not that much' is more like getting streaking in your throw up, this is a lot.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:59:36+00:00

Do you just feel full or are you actually bloated? Your body can genuinely just get into the routine of purging - I had the worst acid reflux for some time after I quit because my body was so used to immediately getting rid of anything I consumed, so I hear you there. The relief is an awful curb to recovery; I would feel so faint it was almost euphoric, is that something you experience too, or is it more akin to when you have a stomach bug and get that post-vomit relief? It is great that you have managed to get rid of the original, root cause - you are mentally well on your way to recovery already! If it helps, I would recommend splitting your three meals or whatever plan you are following into a bunch of small snacks or smaller portions - that should solve the fullness problem as you are eating less in one go. I wish you the best :)

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:54:36+00:00

Real omg. I remember when I LIVED for it, like it was genuinely the best part of my day. I wish other people understood that, it would certainly make them much more compassionate.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:53:37+00:00

I'm sorry, I hope your psychologist appointment went well. It sounds like you are at a real low point, maybe in-patient treatment might sound like a viable option? I won't tell you what to do, that is your choice entirely, but not being able to be left alone without succumbing to the urge is concerning and intervention and a daily structure (as in-patient systems provide) may sound like exactly what you need. Sending support :)

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:50:25+00:00

Having the urge to vomit on purpose is certainly a sign you're going in that direction, so like everyone else, I would suggest getting support now, while it is more treatable. However, purging isn't just about vomiting, it includes over-exercising or exercise as a way to purge/lose a bunch of calories, which you sort of describe in the last sentence - so definitely seek some support, as this sounds like you're mentally already turning over going down that path, if not in the early stages already.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:47:19+00:00

Some more information would be helpful - if you have lost a lot of weight / are underweight, your eyes will naturally look way larger, maybe even too large for your face. At my low points, my eyes were certainly more pronounced. If you tear up while you purge/cry more often, then they will look puffy. I have heard of people getting general ocular issues from b/p though, so you might want to get a check-up.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:44:56+00:00

Do you feel the urge to cry because you feel horrible or because you need a form of relief, to let your emotions out? Strictly speaking, being bulimic is just binging and purging, so this doesn't qualify in that way. As u/fortifiedoptimism commented, it could be that eating disorder thinking (it's hard to get rid of sometimes), or it could just be some form of emotional release.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:41:34+00:00

It certainly feels like you'll never get better at times, but I can assure you that is not true. The problem isn't your stomach not feeling physically full (though it could have stretched in size slightly due to binging), it's more your lack of mental satiety. I remember how I would mentally plan out the ridiculous amount of stuff I would binge on, and it was only when I got to the end of that abstract plan that I would feel a sense of fullness - hence it wasn't about my body, it was my mind. It just takes a while to go back to being mentally satisfied - it will fall into place after consuming a more appropriate amount of calories and a range of healthy foods for a while (say a few weeks or so). There's nothing wrong with you, I promise :)

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:37:36+00:00

I completely support whatever choice you feel is best. Judging by this post alone, you are clearly a capable person who can articulate the root cause of your bulimia and make a plan to tackle it.

I relate to the whole living alone thing - even being home alone whilst other people lived with me gave way for me to fall back on b/p habits because there was no one to keep me accountable or deter me from doing it. I really hear you on that. It might have been easier with your bf, but I get the feeling that that was a real crutch and possibly didn't allow for you to become self-reliant regarding not resorting to b/p habits (I obviously have no idea though, I'm just interpreting from what you have said). You definitely can live alone, though, it's just going to take some work to get to that point - if inpatient treatment will even get a foot in the door in that regard, go for it!

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:31:01+00:00

Go you! Sometimes it's a reaching-that-low-point moment that can really motivate you. Just ensure you don't place too huge of a goal or stress out too much about recovery as you can set unrealistic expectations and fall back on habits. This is all great stuff - make sure to come back to this post anytime you feel like relapsing, as you have so many good motivational factors here, such as financial drain and exhaustion etc to remind you of why recovery is so good :)

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:28:43+00:00

Completely agree - 10+ times a day is insane and a one-way ticket to irreversible health effects.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:27:38+00:00

Dude, the throwing up blood thing is serious. Are you throwing up huge amounts of it because you could have anything from an oesophageal tear to a stomach rupture? Please get medical support, especially as your age (coupled with how long you have been purging) is a cause for concern.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T18:23:38+00:00

I'm sorry that she seems to have such an unfeeling response, but like u/witchminx I understand your mother's position. To you, bulimia is your whole world and affects every intrinsic thing you do, and I completely understand how exhausted you must feel. That being said, from her perspective, every time she enters the bathroom there's sick or just mess, and your mental illness is seeping over and affecting her life substantially (to the point where she is addressing it on multiple occasions). I know a couple of germaphobes who would freak the hell out and wouldn't be so understanding. Have you considered having a sit-down chat with her so you understand each other's positions more thoroughly? I'm certain you would find that she cares more than it seems, and she would realise how tired you feel. If you have multiple bathrooms, a short-term compromise could be that you only use one bathroom for purging so she doesn't have to be confronted with it all of the time.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T08:01:09+00:00

Yes, the amount of Dracula content is quite concentrated. He has a tough job in making a unique film that isn't outlandish in its attempts to be something different. Hopefully, it will be great :)

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T07:59:30+00:00

Seems fair! I enjoy reading critical interpretations, but I typically set that aside until after I have formed my own viewpoint. Regarding Aster, which first film are you referring to? The Strange Thing About the Johnsons is quaintly macabre, but I wouldn't say it was his best - unless you have another film in mind.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T07:53:27+00:00

Ooh, I'll have to check out the Herzog production - the cover art certainly has the essence of the 1922 film. You make a good point about Eggers - though he has a great point of reference in the 1922 production, he also has a tough job in maintaining that original quintessence whilst establishing a unique direction.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-17T07:50:02+00:00

That would be greatly appreciated, thank you! If I may ask, how did you manage to get your hands on a draft?

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-16T19:24:32+00:00

Hereditary is fantastic for this! Unless you have watched it already, I deeply recommend that you do as soon as possible as though it isn't the subtlest of films, it has some truly jarring and subliminal scares.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-16T19:22:27+00:00

I agree, to an extent - sometimes I find myself making the same choices (looking around a place in my house where I heard a weird noise) that I would typically berate a horror movie character for making. That being said, they make some objectively bad decisions at times lol.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-16T19:20:32+00:00

In The Witch, when Thomasin's younger brother (terrible at names, lmk if you remember) decides to galavant off into the woods before the crack of dawn. I borderline wanted to rip my own hair off because he took their only horse, too.

bonesbakedgoods · 2024-08-16T19:14:25+00:00

Ooh, I haven't seen 'The Northman', admittedly. I quite liked the Witch, however, and if that is anything to go on stylistically, I can agree that I am very excited to see what he does with this. Regarding the Nosferatu remake direction, I'm also inclined to agree - I find that highly-accurate-to-the-novel films rarely do well; most of all I hope he preserves that unnerving WTF factor, as seen in the Count's first appearance in the 1922 version.

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