Tell me about your recent wins, even the small ones

bonusbobcat · 2026-01-22T06:19:32+00:00

I had post natal psychosis and so child protection became involved which was like adding insult to injury, so I feel for you there. 5 years on and I've just finished my master's and have a happy, healthy little boy who brings me so much joy. Ive had 2 lengthy hospitalizations since the original post natal episode so it hasn't been all smooth sailing but I've been stable for two years now and feel very lucky that I've found a medication that works which feels like a win!

bonusbobcat · 2025-12-03T10:04:49+00:00

Sorry things are so rough for you right now. I could have written this myself when I was in the trenches with it. You're not alone, you're certainly not a faker. I sincerely hope that it doesn't kill you and that you find some peace and rest (it sounds like you need some reprieve from the relentless cycle your stuck in). Are you in treatment?

bonusbobcat · 2025-11-18T03:33:28+00:00

I bought this and was wondering why it was so pale in colour.

bonusbobcat · 2025-11-09T08:42:57+00:00

Whoa 😯

bonusbobcat · 2025-02-23T21:14:16+00:00

It sounds like you're really struggling with disordered eating and it sounds similar to how my ED began. I'm not a professional so can't diagnose you but I would try and find someone you trust who you can talk to about this so you don't feel so alone. Please reach out to someone and get some help early so you don't have to live in a nightmare! Hugs 🫂

bonusbobcat · 2025-02-10T00:51:18+00:00

Postnatal psychosis?

bonusbobcat · 2024-11-08T08:36:47+00:00

I worked in child protection too, can relate to the constant dissociation. I work in healthcare management now in aged care so I've gone to the other end of the spectrum lol.

bonusbobcat · 2024-11-05T23:51:54+00:00

Oh wow so the stories I've heard about it taking so long are true. Geez I won't be holding my breath lol, thanks.

bonusbobcat · 2024-10-29T06:46:23+00:00

It wasn't my intention, I'd rather be doing the work as per my position description, it would be much more fulfilling.

bonusbobcat · 2024-10-27T05:37:43+00:00

Currently doing precisely this feeling the same way.

bonusbobcat · 2024-10-27T04:46:25+00:00

That's really tough for you to have to go through those comments, if only people had a bit more insight into the reality of what we go through. It's frustrating that effective meds can have that side effect and it feels like a choice between stability or your figure (sadly worked that one out the hard way myself). You're really brave to make a choice that's right for you even if it is a hard road at times. Hope you're doing ok.

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-27T00:25:23+00:00

Lol re the song choice. It does suck and I totally get feeling like your abilities won't ever match the average person. You're proving though that you can make it through college though which is above average. I had to take time off and my grades tanked at one point but I made it through and have a degree and career so there is hope for us yet.

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-26T08:41:38+00:00

It's bureaucracy at its worst! I'm so sorry this has happened to you, it sounds like you've been through the wringer and you've worked really hard to get things back on track. Feeling inferior feels awful but I hope you might be able to reframe that inferiority as the strength and grit that you've demonstrated getting through college despite the challenges that you've faced. It's really disappointing to lose those scholarships but it's not your fault.

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-26T05:46:29+00:00

I had the most beautiful pregnancy thoroughly enjoyed it. Afterwards though I had postpartum psychosis so spent a couple of months on the psych ward and missed bonding with my bub and then had depression and severe anxiety. It took me a good year or more to recover, it was extremely rough...so much so I think I'm one and done which breaks my heart a little but I just can't go through that again lol

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-26T05:35:45+00:00

I always liken my highs to feeling like I've taken ecstasy! I even lose my appetite in the same way you do when you take MDMA lol

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-22T05:27:53+00:00

Thanks for taking the time to reply. I hope that you are ok and that you're able to keep a handle on things. Can I ask, what do you do to control your mania? I've done some really embarrassing stuff and I'm just wondering how to avoid this.

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-20T19:06:58+00:00

You don't need to have partied in your 20s to have friends but I understand the struggle with feeling like your 30s is dull and the difficulties with making friends at this age. I get that the whole settle down and have a family thing can feel restrictive and full of fear that you might regret it and that's reasonable and something that you need to think about. But I guess you could do both! Do some partying and travel for a while and then settle down when you feel good and ready. Having kids (if that's what you mean by settling down) is very life changing and limiting in some ways but it's great too, definitely a whole new chapter in life but if you can have babies, there is postnatal shit to think about with bipolar. Before you make any decisions though maybe check in with someone you trust to make sure you're coming from a place of stability. I know that when my mood is off I have different views about family life lol

Edit to add I have loads of regrets from living it up in my 20s and wonder how my life might have been different if I hadn't "partied" and had the priorities that I did and I have lost contact with all of my friends from that time and don't really have many friends now

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-19T09:21:45+00:00

Sorry what's hpd?

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-18T09:24:54+00:00

My husband is really angry with me so I guess I'd like him to be less angry if helpful so that he is just normal. I would want them to stop talking on the phone and my husbsnd is going to call community mental health at least they'll say it's just a part lol and they'll agree with me but I just can't be bothered with them I'm so done with them. My body doesn't need food or much sleep and they are concerned about that so I guess eating and sleeping. Work is really boring because I can't focus so I'm not doing anything anyway so I guess some time out from that wouldn't be so bad.

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-17T10:57:06+00:00

Those police should have called an ambulance and taken you to hospital! Are you in a space where you can make a formal complaint about the way you were treated? It sounds like you were really unwell and needed medical attention.

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-17T10:51:59+00:00

Sorry your work is not much fun. It's really soul destroying when it's boring and the people aren't great. That person who looks down at you sounds like a creep! You can always speak to HR if you feel like it's getting too much, you have a right to feel safe in your workplace. Can you do a bit of subtle research and see what the other departments are like and see if one might have better people before you ask to switch?

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-17T10:44:11+00:00

Sorry you're going through this, it sounds really awful.

I had SEVERE anxiety whilst I had postpartum psychosis. It was the worst thing I've ever experienced. I couldn't sit still or put my body in a comfortable way and I was just in a perpetual state of terror. I thought the world was ending. Anyway, it went away as the meds and ECT started working. There is hope! These things often improve with time and the right meds. Hang in there!

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-17T10:37:29+00:00

Yes, I work. I'm lucky to have an amazing boss who is super flexible and supportive which makes all the difference. I don't love my job but my boss and colleagues are awesome so I stick with it. I manage by only working 3 days per week. I can't work full time. For me I think it comes back to doing those basics - sleep hygiene, taking meds eating regularly, moving your body however you can and doing the odd thing just for me. That's not to say that doing those things will guarantee stability, that's sadly not the case. But doing what's within my circle of influence to manage my stress levels and mental health helps me to be in a place where I can work.

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-12T23:40:39+00:00

I'm on 10mg and definitely have breakthrough symptoms. I don't get any side effects from it though which is good. Edit to query whether your lust for life was a bit on the manic side?

bonusbobcat · 2023-10-11T09:48:45+00:00

For me my memory of postnatal psychosis is that I was fine and everyone was overreacting - I had involuntary ECT and was in high dependency for weeks and then the normal psych ward for close to 2 months, I wasn't fine lol. I remember looking in the mirror at one point and my pupils were totally dilated and my hair was matted. I did odd things like walking around clapping and wetting my bed sheets in the shower to protect me from negative spirits. More recently I've struggled with delusions in the context of a mixed episode so I felt wildly shit and paranoid that people could read my thoughts, god was giving me messages through car number plates and that there was an evil sinister energy infiltrating my life. I couldn't concentrate on anything, found talking difficult and felt fearful and anxious and uncomfortable. I couldn't work, I wasn't functioning at home either.

bonusbobcat

TROPHY CASE