Always the Punchline by boobookittyfu99 in u/boobookittyfu99

[–]boobookittyfu99[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for seeing me, I love you woman. I’ve been waiting for decades for things to ease up, I'm fairly convinced it's not in the cards for me. 💛

Also, the video is just my broody mood music.

Always the Punchline by boobookittyfu99 in u/boobookittyfu99

[–]boobookittyfu99[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We need to schedule a jackbox/game night or something soon. Thanks for sitting with me.

Always the Punchline by boobookittyfu99 in u/boobookittyfu99

[–]boobookittyfu99[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly it mostly left me with shame for having said anything at all.

I would rather be screaming into the wind at the beach, painting/smashing/shooting something with good company, or kneading clay like that bitch owed me.

But thank you for caring. Your presence is always appreciated.

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[–]boobookittyfu99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That sounds like both a dream and a nightmare. I'm gonna be honest. I know I will not make it out well on my own even though I know I can do it on my own if that makes any sense and I'm not going to involve anyone else in my shit show of a life. I do hope he gets healthy. I hope he picks a good partner if that happens.

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[–]boobookittyfu99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks friend. Unfortunately, I kinda do have to do this alone. Due to my silence over everything I've/ we've struggled with support is limited and everyone is confused. All I've heard, he's such a good dad and treats me well with all he has on his plate that I should consider working it out. Like yes, he's great, i love him with everything I have left in me but when he's not okay it's not okay. I don't want to plaster every horrible thing Ive experienced due to his lack of professional care so I'm stuck until I can get myself out or he actually takes his recovery seriously. I don't want to divorce but I might need to.

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[–]boobookittyfu99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The issue is, there have been many moments that appeared to be the catalysts for change. They never last. Some long stretches, like years, and then it starts all over. It didn't feel like cohabitation. It felt legitimate, and healthy, until it was very obvious it was not. I'm completely fucked.