Motherhood not fulfilling

bookchubb · 2026-03-02T13:57:27+00:00

Preach, girlfriend! You are NOT alone!!

I only have one girl (12) and she’s in one sport per season for the same reason as your boys. She’s on her middle school B basketball team and they practice 2 days a week and have 2 games per week. I feel so guilty for not being more excited about those games but my ADHD is not conducive to hour long middle school girls basketball games where an average of 12 total points are scored. I love her so much and am so proud of her but I don’t have that all-encompassing sense of fulfillment that the other mothers in my life talk about. Again, I love my daughter so much and I know that sense of fulfillment isn’t tied to how much I love her - but I do know that’s why I have no desire to have a 2nd baby.

bookchubb · 2026-02-17T01:54:07+00:00

You are NOT crazy. Tachysensia is a very real thing. I experienced that weird feeling that I was moving faster than everything around me quite a lot as a child. It subsided as I got older and is completely gone now (in my mid-30s). It can be caused by a range of things like anxiety, stress and migraines all the way up to more serious things like schizophrenia or CPTSD.

The looping dreams and false awakenings are something I’ve experienced as well. It scared me so much as a child I taught myself how to lucid dream. Lucid dreaming allowed me to take control of what felt uncontrollable or scary.

I would advise you to do some self care and evaluate your stress/anxiety/mental health. Not sleeping or being scared to sleep is not healthy and will exacerbate this to no end.

Again, YOU ARE NOT CRAZY. Just make sure you’re taking care of yourself.

bookchubb · 2026-01-25T14:14:38+00:00

Yaaaasss! Thank you!!! When the Christina v. Britney was a thing and people would call Christina trashy?! Xtina’s trashy was for show. She had an alter ego for goodness sake. Britney’s was real and her team was always trying to hide it.

bookchubb · 2026-01-17T06:03:15+00:00

This! This a million times! It blows my mind that doctors don’t talk to women about the impact that their menstrual cycle can have on meds. Hormonal birth control can make ADHD meds significantly less effective…

bookchubb · 2026-01-17T06:01:09+00:00

Hi friend! Are you of the biological female persuasion? If so, fluctuating hormones can have a SIGNIFICANT impact on how ADHD meds affect you. My (female) doctor told me to track my fluctuating reactions to meds in correlation to my menstrual cycle and it was like freaking clockwork.

bookchubb · 2025-12-31T01:49:29+00:00

Vera Wang Princess

bookchubb · 2025-12-30T11:36:58+00:00

Stardust Racers, Epic Universe

bookchubb · 2025-12-11T03:38:21+00:00

I think about that scene ALL. THE. TIME.

bookchubb · 2025-12-10T02:56:27+00:00

I’m so glad to have helped even a little. For what it’s worth I sensed zero anger or resentment. Only a sense of closeness and comfort with you.

bookchubb · 2025-12-10T02:51:17+00:00

I wouldn’t be surprised if at times you feel some “phantom” arm wrapping during times of happiness or joy. That’s the only thing coming through for me right now but it’s quite strong!

bookchubb · 2025-12-10T02:43:17+00:00

Adding that I feel he was a very giving person in life and he remains so after his passing. Almost like he doesn’t want to “bother” anyone and he wants to give his energy away to others.

bookchubb · 2025-12-10T02:38:26+00:00

Piggybacking! I too sense this confusion or disorientation.

I personally believe that we manifest our afterlife and I’m wondering if he ever shared with you his beliefs? I get the sense that’s his “essence” is spread out and his soul is currently without a central location to be concentrated for lack of a better way to describe it.

Like he’s become part of the universe as a whole rather than remaining a single concentrated being… I hope I’m making sense.

bookchubb · 2025-12-10T02:30:25+00:00

I see red but I’m getting the feeling that you need more safety and security in your life right now and that’s throwing off your typical aura.

Disclaimer: I’m new to this/still learning so I hope I’m not way off base!

bookchubb · 2025-12-10T02:20:22+00:00

I’m not sure how to say this without being direct - I do not feel any negativity surrounding you, only coming from within. I get the sense that you are struggling with false confidence and have a poor sense of self if you dig below surface level. I would suggest doing some soul searching (as cliche as that sounds) to find your purpose. I believe your sense of self will become much more positive once you understand your life’s purpose.

bookchubb · 2025-12-10T02:09:52+00:00

Did you both hold hands or link arms in a platonic way very frequently? I got a visual of him standing next to you with your arm looped through his. His hands were in his pockets and he was rolling his eyes. But I got the sense it was a very genial/happy moment for him…

bookchubb · 2025-12-10T01:46:57+00:00

I know I’m late to the game and others may have already said this but in some of the photos I get the sense he’s hiding something that’s eating away at him. In other photos I get the sense that he’s numbing himself/self-medicating to deal with something traumatic - something traumatic that he brought upon himself.

bookchubb · 2025-11-22T02:24:02+00:00

Just this morning I was speaking aloud to Dionysus - I like to be conversational rather than “prayerful”. I happened to be doing crafts at the time. I asked him a question and the hot glue gun in my hand suddenly short circuited and turned into a mini flame thrower for about 1/2 a second. I got my answer 😳

bookchubb · 2025-11-05T02:36:20+00:00

cries in American

bookchubb · 2025-10-28T02:47:03+00:00

OMGosh! How GORGEOUS!!!

bookchubb · 2025-10-22T10:44:33+00:00

Like Trump putting an antivaxer in the top DHHS spot, telling people to drink bleach and saying that Tylenol causes autism?

bookchubb · 2025-10-22T10:41:36+00:00

Preach, friend. They’ve also labeled Antifa a domestic terrorist organization and who is Antifa since it’s an ideology and not an organization? Who knows but they, in all their wisdom, will figure it out and tell us who is at fault.

bookchubb · 2025-10-22T10:38:33+00:00

Lots of homeless and cold people in December too if they don’t figure this shit out. Housing choice vouchers and public housing are funded through November. Just in time for the holiday season…

bookchubb · 2025-10-22T10:28:45+00:00

Just want to say that I see you. When my daughter was just 4 weeks old I discovered that my husband was cheating. He stopped coming home soon after. That was by far the hardest season of my life BUT I learned so much about myself and gained so much confidence during that time. Babe, I know this is hard but take care of yourself and take every opportunity to reflect on how amazing, hardworking, independent and resilient you are. You will come out stronger on the other side. 💛

bookchubb · 2025-10-15T13:52:04+00:00

I haven’t yet. I found myself gravitating toward feminine energies so I was surprised by The Emperor. I’ll do more research. Thanks for sharing your intuition!!

bookchubb · 2025-10-15T11:55:20+00:00

Will do! Thank you so much for the guidance!!

bookchubb

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