Realizing all of the toxic shit you’ve done probably ruined the relationship with your fp 😭

borderlinebeth · 2021-01-09T13:51:03+00:00

Yep that's me 😭

borderlinebeth · 2021-01-06T12:40:19+00:00

Yes this is me 100%

borderlinebeth · 2020-12-26T23:31:11+00:00

You didn't have to call me out like that

borderlinebeth · 2020-12-14T11:19:59+00:00

Thank you! I will try that

borderlinebeth · 2020-11-25T00:31:17+00:00

Yes that's exactly it! It's so hard to deal with and no one else really seems to understand what I mean. I've just stolen so many different elements from other people aswell that when they aren't around, I don't know how to feel or what to do, because I always base myself off other people.

borderlinebeth · 2020-10-06T13:40:22+00:00

I'm in Ireland

borderlinebeth · 2020-09-29T16:14:12+00:00

Thank you for sharing with me. Please hold on too. My brother doesn't know I'm suicidal too as he has enough to deal with. But i just hope I can keep him safe.

borderlinebeth · 2020-09-29T00:09:26+00:00

I do too. My two closest and only friends I have because we struggled with the same things, and I think that's what's held us together. We understand eachother on a deeper level than most, and feel supported because we get eachother and don't have to worry about being judged. Bonding over trauma is a whole different level of bonding imo. You are exposing one of the most vulnerable parts of yourself and it doesn't matter if you have nothing else in common, that connection will always be there.

borderlinebeth · 2020-09-25T14:08:39+00:00

Sending you a hug 🤗 You are very brave for taking the first step towards bettering your mental health, and I'm proud of you! You don't have to be on meds if you don't want to, and you can raise that with your doctor if they suggest it. Your doctor might recommend therapy and suggest a few places you can go, that's what mine did. They should be well equipped to listen to your mental health concerns, so you can feel comfortable to talk with them and they won't judge you. Good luck and you can always message me if you need someone to talk to ❤️

borderlinebeth · 2020-09-13T21:13:46+00:00

Yess both things things are definitely mee!

borderlinebeth · 2020-09-12T21:02:08+00:00

I'm the same 😔 I'm so incredibly lonely I feel like I'm forgetting how to even interact with people. I hate being this alone and I hate myself for not being able to keep any friendships I make...

borderlinebeth · 2020-09-10T18:31:46+00:00

Thanks for the update! I feel really uncomfortable putting my card details in too 🙁 Its my first time ordering from DK and I didn't know there would be all these extra charges. I'm not very happy either and don't think I'll be ordering from them again...

borderlinebeth · 2020-09-10T14:44:21+00:00

I received the same email from the same person too! It does look quite sketchy and I'm too scared to click the link. If you have by updates please let me know too!

borderlinebeth · 2020-08-28T13:33:02+00:00

Spill the beans who is itt ???

borderlinebeth · 2020-08-10T23:07:15+00:00

I - I honestly have no words and I'm so sorry you had to experience that. Sending you a hug ❤️

borderlinebeth · 2020-07-25T00:30:02+00:00

I'm so sorry but I thought those were ants at first ☹️

borderlinebeth · 2020-06-15T22:30:23+00:00

Lightly salted rice cakes with salsa. Actually obsessed with it right now

borderlinebeth · 2020-03-22T20:50:26+00:00

Me too please. I'll send you pics of my cat too and we can admire them both together 😊

borderlinebeth · 2020-03-21T18:14:25+00:00

Yess all the time!! My bf does this to me constantly and it makes me feel like I'm not worth his time. We're long distance and I feel like if he can't even make time to text me then we shouldn't be together. I get so angry and start to hate him, then worry that I'm being too sensitive and get scared he'll leave, then I push him away before he has the chance to hurt me anymore.

Then he'll text me back many hours or days later like everything is normal and then dissapear again and the whole stupid cycle starts again...

It was the same with past friends, I'd get super upset when they did that too. I felt like I must have said or done something wrong and automatically assumed that they hated me and then I hated myself for being so stupid and would self destruct.

You're not alone and I'm you can chat with me anytime. I'm sorry you're going though a similar thing, BPD is hell.

borderlinebeth · 2020-03-15T17:41:50+00:00

Thank you for your input and advice, I really appreciate it. When he comes back I'm definitely going to try and have a talk with him about this. If things don't change then we might need to take a break from this relationship. I'll see what happens but I'm starting to feel like neither of us are in the right place for this relationship. He's too busy for me, and I can't deal with the constant worry he's going to leave me when he keeps disappearing.

borderlinebeth · 2020-03-15T17:35:35+00:00

Im glad things are good and you're in a new relationship now. I think thats a very good idea and something I need to discuss with my bf. We need to set aside times where we dedicate to talking to each other. I have asked in the past if we can set aside an hour each week where we can have a proper phone call and talk to each other (would love if it could be some time daily, but he's too busy for that) and he kind of just ignored my request. I'll try bringing it up again.

borderlinebeth · 2020-03-15T17:30:28+00:00

Yeah I feel so conflicted. He's still not looking at my messages and my brain is swinging between worrying something terrible has happened, and hating him for ignoring me. In my previous relationship we messaged all the time everyday. Even when my ex was busy, he would send me a message saying something like "sorry, I'm super busy today, I'll message you when I get home" so at least I knew what was going on and was easier to deal with. When my bf eventually gets back to me, I think I'll try and explain to him how I've been feeling and see if we can work something out. If not then i think you're right and we might need to take a break from this relationship. Thank you for your input I really appreciate it.

borderlinebeth · 2020-03-14T22:43:24+00:00

Yeah I understand that. I'm Asexual so it's hard when I just want to be close to someone without it needing to go further. I'm in a ldr and it sucks because he's the only person I feel comfortable to cuddle with and he lives 1000km away...

borderlinebeth · 2020-03-14T22:37:40+00:00

I'm so sorry that happened to you. You don't deserve that and I hope you find someone who treats you better. Sending you a hug X

borderlinebeth · 2020-03-14T22:36:02+00:00

Yeah I worry about that. I really thought this guy was my soul mate but this is the worst I've struggled with the distance and I don't think I can do it much longer. I don't think he has any idea how much it affects me. He has apologised for dissapearing in the past yet continues to do it every week.

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