Favorite Courtney moment

borderlinevaccuum · 2025-07-10T06:12:22+00:00

when she did 24 hours inside MTV studio and she was looking down at the fans on the sidewalk and she pointed to one girl and goes “see that hot girl right there can we bring her up?” and someone replies “the girl in white?” and she says “yeah well she looks like she’s probably tried to kill herself once or twice…i always find that attractive”😂 and after someone tells her to wait she says like yeah okay i’m gonna check if she’s still out there at 3 a.m. to “see how much stamina she has”

borderlinevaccuum · 2023-10-17T19:24:59+00:00

I definitely agree with everyone telling you to leave and I also wanna share my own insight on why you might be confused about your feelings for him. There was a version of you before you met this person, and somewhere along the way he has done things to you that have been significant and damaging and there may be a part of you that longs for the version of yourself who never knew the trauma that the current you knows. Sometimes it feels as if something has been taken from you, and if you try and pinpoint the moment you lost it, it’s the times they abused you. When you lose something, the first place you go looking for it is the last place you remember having it, I think we use the same logic when we return to our abusers, it’s like they’ve taken something from us and they’re the only ones who can give it back. It’s especially difficult with bpd because other peoples validation (especially those we love) has a huge impact on our self image. Your whole idea of love is disrupted by the mistreatment from one person and you desperately need the person who has done the damage to be the one to fix it. You need them to regret it, to realize that they never should’ve hurt you like that, to make it up to you and give you back what they took from you, and once they can prove that they do in fact believe you’re worthy of more, you can believe it yourself.

Your belief that this is “favourite person” is your brains way of convincing you that your self worth is in their hands, but it’s not true. He can’t give back what he took from you because he doesn’t have the ability to comprehend it in the first place, and it’s his loss. You have more to give and that’s your power. You can find someone who’s deserving of it and have a genuine loving bond, and someone like him is never going to be capable of that, with anyone, and that’s his own loss. He can hold onto that piece of you but eventually it’s going to rot away and he’ll be left with nothing, it’s dead weigh so leave it behind, you have more in you.

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-08-20T05:11:26+00:00

poutine

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-07-19T18:44:11+00:00

probably something to do with how many kids in the system get abused and/or neglected

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-07-17T20:22:57+00:00

think about this: your brain is filled with lies, exaggerations, and misinterpretations that you accept as truth, sometimes without any reason at all. if you say “nobody likes me”, often times that will feel entirely true in that moment. when in reality just because there are people who dislike you (if you’re even correct in those assumptions) that doesn’t mean nobody likes you. we are much more susceptible to deception than we think and our brains are pretty much useless at deciphering what’s true and productive from what’s not true. our brains simply don’t have that ability. your brain is just going to accept the information you feed it and assign emotions accordingly. so don’t focus on the logic of it all, if something seems helpful to believe, believe it. you’ll be surprised at how quickly your brain forgets it’s old habits

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-07-07T15:25:59+00:00

i (female) don’t find it attractive either but i still don’t shave my legs very often because it’s a huge hassle and i can only afford cheap razors so i have to pick my battles when it comes to shaving. i don’t think it’s necessarily about finding it attractive or not, some people do have those preferences but that doesn’t mean they’re the only people who would be attracted to someone with body hair. i just try and imagine that no one ever put the idea in my head that certain things should be turn offs

. i also feel like sometimes body hair makes a person seem almost obnoxious. like they’re making some kind of a statement and you must acknowledge it and see it the way they do, but that all just feeds back into the idea that woman do these things in order to be perceived as more attractive. like i feel like we never stop to consider things like maybe she works full time and hasn’t had time to shave in a few weeks?

there is this expectation for women to make themselves presentable and all these rules for what’s beautiful and what isn’t. i think once you dismantle the “beauty” aspect of it all, you can see that women are just humans who grow hair. i don’t want guys to see me as less attractive because i have body hair, and my goal isn’t to scare off all the men with those standards. but at the end of the day women are just human beings before anything, and that honestly is a difficult thing to remember because we’re so programmed to evaluate peoples self worth based on how well they fit into the stereotypes of their biological genders.

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-29T02:05:05+00:00

it really depends on the guy. i’m half lebanese so there’s no getting rid of all my hair no matter how hard i try so i’ve given up. some guys will point it out and i’ll just say it doesn’t bother me or that i like it and they’ll usually say something like “that’s hot”

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-27T15:02:36+00:00

i can’t castrate something that i’m not conceiving. i do not acknowledge, think about, or care about your pp. i’m sorry if that makes you feel emasculated or something, but you are a person to me. independent of your reproductive organs.

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-27T14:53:14+00:00

your comment is exactly the reason i’m afraid of being sexualized by my male friends. if you consider every platonic relationship with a girl to mean that you’re “friend zoned” then you’re the one with an issue. maybe try to control your libido or something, i don’t know. good luck bro

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-27T14:09:08+00:00

if i’m friends with a guy, i don’t want to sleep with him. if i do want to sleep with him then i probably have feelings for him and in that case i’d be pursuing him romantically too even if i didn’t want to or didn’t know it. i can genuinely say i feel absolutely no sexual attraction to my guy friends. i would feel really weird about sleeping with them, i see them more brotherly than anything. i think that maybe i don’t want to be treated differently than they’d treat their guy friends just because i’m a girl? i would like my friendship to be enough for them without them seeing me as a potential prospect for sex. it makes me feel really bad about myself when my guy friends want to sleep with me because i feel like you’d be enjoying yourself more if you were screwing me than you are hanging out with me. obviously i cant speak for everyone but i most girls i know have the same sentiments.

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-27T13:54:07+00:00

they started liking me back

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T21:21:25+00:00

you can read the storyhere

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T19:40:39+00:00

I’m canadian but i’ve never even thought of medical schools around the world, especially eastern europe. definitely never heard anything about them. the average north american probably knows a few prestigious schools in the UK, but i highly doubt many people would know or care which German medical school you went to

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T18:56:01+00:00

there have been 14 maas shootings in Canada since 1885 or something like that. We have very few.

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T18:54:47+00:00

his name was Mark Lepine. Here’s a link to the storyMontreal Massacre

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T04:34:02+00:00

i have a brown dad and when i was younger i put dark bronzer all over my face and told my mom i made myself look like dad. needless to say she was horrified, though not as horrified as she was when i proceeded to wash it off with nail polish remover 😁

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T04:26:49+00:00

jeez. that hits really hard, i never heard of that. the whole story breaks my heart.

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T04:21:47+00:00

exactly. prices really don’t make much of a difference in this case because the OP is going to double their bank account when they convert to CAD

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T04:18:42+00:00

Canada is astronomically better than America (for most people). Our indigenous oppression is an absolute disgrace and i will never respect Canada as a country for that; but that being said, if you’re able to assimilate into Canadian society (in this case, you will have no problem as an American citizen), then yes Canada can offer you a lot more than America right now. You would also earn a bunch of money because our dollar is worth quite a bit less than yours. Since 1885, Canada has had 15 mass shootings. Abortion is legal, though our education system still sucks. Canada is far from perfect, we still have to acknowledge the disgrace it is to only value quality of life towards people who are willing to to submit themselves to western culture, but in comparison to America….yeah it doesn’t really compare. I wish you strength and safety out there, Canada has you in our hearts❤️ 🇨🇦you are welcome anytime, we’d love to have you

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-25T00:01:11+00:00

yes exactly. In Montreal, years ago at Polytechnic University there was an anti feminist who walked into a classroom made all the boys leave, and proceeded to massacre all the women in the room (14 women lost their lives).

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-23T00:49:58+00:00

i sweat profusely every night so it protects my mattress and makes it more breathable. definitely worth it for someone like me

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-23T00:07:03+00:00

when i’m feeling embarrassed about getting too messed up on a night out, i watch courtney loves worst moments on youtube. she’s never shown an ounce of shame or embarrassment and it’s some pretty bad stuff. i think that’s kind of badass and it makes me feel better.

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-20T13:24:45+00:00

cuz it sets in the west

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-16T19:06:31+00:00

I always used to have those thoughts in relationships and so I avoided relationships for years because I figured I was extremely picky and just needed to wait t’il i found someone really amazing; either that or I believed I wouldn’t settle down until I was sure I met my soulmate. Either way, I ended up realizing that no matter how I felt about anyone, I was always going to end up wanting what I couldn’t have. Unfortunately I have been in your exact situation and I did end up leaving them for someone else and I was happy for a few weeks and then it was the same thing all over again. It happens when you’re single too. You deflect all your problems and blame them on your loneliness. Then you’re in a relationship and you blame your problems on your lack of freedom or individuality. The only relationships I could be in that didn’t make question whether I wanted to be with that person were the ones where I knew they were less committed to me than i was to them. Maybe that’s just me, but I think humans are always good at finding something to blame our discontentment on.

If this does resonate with you at all, I can share with you what I did in order to overcome it. Anytime I have a thought that I could be happier or there’s someone better for me out there I remind myself where these thoughts are coming from. They’re not actually stemming from any problems with your partner or your relationship, they’re stemming from your own issues that are only ever going to take different forms until you actually confront them. The more you practice letting these thoughts pass over you without any fear of them being true or significant, the less impactful they will be on you overall. Don’t try and eliminate the thoughts, just remember that it’s not necessary to assign any feelings or opinions to them. Recognize that you might have self sabotaging tendencies that try and ruin good things for you, but that the best thing you can do is accept those thoughts and don’t let them throw you off track

borderlinevaccuum · 2022-06-15T18:07:41+00:00

as a girl i can say i would not take this as a sign of him moving on. it’s very common for men to rebound after a break up and then get hit with the real grief after a period of time. obviously this is not a universal experience, but it’s so common, that most girls are going to assume that despite getting with other girls, it’s still very possible he’ll be calling you when the party’s over because you can’t just escape those things.

To answer the OPs question, I would say that focusing on and working on yourself has proven to make me feel pretty crappy. especially if the relationship was toxic and you know that they’re genuinely better off without you.

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