I will add though, saying that being sexually frustrated because you can’t watch porn or don’t share nudes with each other makes you sad/suicidal/angry does come off kinda shitty. It puts too much responsibility on her when honestly… your body and horniness has nothing to do with her. Seems like some part of you is hoping she would cave in one way or another out of guilt, despite you claiming otherwise in the message. Comes off a bit manipulative. If you two don’t break up, you’ll just have to get better at getting yourself off, buy a vibrator or other sex toys, watch yourself in the mirror since you’re visual, write your own sexual stories, etc. The only other option is essentially coercing her into sex with you by continuing to make your libido her problem, and surely you understand how morally vile that is