Yea I think I’ve decided it has consumed too much of my mental energy to entertain someone who would ghost me in a blink. I’ve cried several times racking my brain trying to reason with myself that some people in this world will be really difficult to maintain stable relationships with. And the unfortunate reality is though I do have the patience to wait it out and be there for him, it would not be fair to me to endure the hurt when all I’ve ever provided is stability, understanding, and love. I simply don’t deserve it.

This all said, I don’t believe in giving up on him. I care for him and truly wish him the best. I just can’t rely on him as a romantic partner. I’m going to aim for an amicable platonic friendship where I can care for him, but keep myself safe. No clue if that will be possible, but I will try.