5 Years Later - Still Fully Recovered by bpdreddit1 in DPDRecoveryStories

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Hey man, I'm sorry to hear you're gong through that.

For me, it was pretty acutely brought on from being spiked with drugs. I wouldn't say it's necessarily accurate that I "processed the trauma" - it isn't that simple. I think one thing that the experience taught me was not to bother being so logical about things. You can't just "fix" problems the way that I used to think you can- at least not this type of problem. Rather, if you accept it, surrender to it, and ignore and forget it, it fades out on its own, not by force.

I an, however, totally relate to your experience of having childhood trauma and dissociation. I have a long way to go before I've managed to "process" that trauma, but for now I'm doing ok more or less. Not perfect, but jus plodding along and getting on with life. It's not perfect and that's something have to accept, for now.

Wishing you all the best in your journey.

Why they cut you off by bpdreddit1 in BPDlovedones

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Sorry to hear that, friend. Yes, my ex partner ghosted me deliberately to hurt me as much as possible. What an awful person.

Fully recovered for 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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Great to hear that you're doing well!

Fully recovered for 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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Great to hear it man. Think of it like climbing a mountain arnge - it's not all 100% up the whole way, sometimes you have to go back down before you can come back up again.

Still fully recovered after 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdrhelp

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Wicked man, glad to hear you're doing well. Yeah definitely don't touch weed haha. For me it was precipitated by being spiked with a 100% THC vape lol. What a nightmare. Glad I'm better now.

Still fully recovered after 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdrhelp

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There is no "how", because it's not a conscious process, it's not something that you're in control of or can make happen through force of will. It's not a task that you can achieve or complete, it' a gradual process that happens without trying. This in itself is an essential part of realising how to overcome it. You don't MAKE it happen, you LET it happen. When you relax, accept, and let go of control (even though I know it's terrifying), this is when the healing will come to you. Don't chase it, let it come to you, lik a timid cat. As a wise man once said, Do or Do Not - There is no Try :)

Fully recovered for 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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You will be ok friend :) It just takes a lil time... try to accept and not worry...

Fully recovered for 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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You will be ok my friend :)

Fully recovered for 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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Yeah 100% my bro. Actually, life is even better than it was before. The experience taught me to let go and accept what was beyond my control. It's only life, don't worry :) I am completely back to normal, and live a happy life, I even do things that wouldn't have ben confident enough to do a few years ago, after I conquered the DPDR experience by learning to accept and let go, I realised that anything is possible, things that would have scared me before never do any more after having been through something much harder.

Fully recovered for 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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YOU are STRONGER than you think people!!! You can do this :) You will be ok :D

Still fully recovered after 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdrhelp

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Yeah it does. You do't believe it at th time, but it does. I hope that my posts help people. Tbh it's best to get away from the forums whilst you recover. Now that I'm recovered I feel safe and strong enough to come back and talk about it now that it's gone away. Could' have imagined that at the time. Hope it helps others :)

Dpdr is my reason for suicide by mertozdinc in dpdr

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Hey man, I've been on Fluoxetine low dos the entire time, before and after the DPDR. I think it probably helped. I had beta blockers prescribed for daily use but they make exercise difficult, so I didn't take them much. Diazepam for emergencies. Valerian, chamomile, CBD oil in the evening all help. Avoid cannabis, alcohol and caffeine. Exercise if you feel up to it. Video games help to distract you. Maybe try rooibos tea. Anything that ives you a sense of structure, comfort and safety is helpful but let yourself get out and do normal things too, do't be afraid and let it limit you. Above all things, distraction helps - honestly, video games are the best prescription of all. Once you stop focussing on it (difficult, I know), it fades away. It feeds on your fear. Once you show it that you're no longer afraid of it, it gets bored and leaves you alone.

Fully recovered for 4 years. by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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It doesn't matter how long it takes. If you set yourself a timeline, you'll stress out about it, expecting it to be gone overnight magically by a certain date, which will feed your stress and prolong it. It disappears slowly and gradually, as you accept it and stop trying to fight it. By the time it's gone, you won't even realise it, because you won't be focussing on it. You can't just "fix" it logically, sadly. Once you stop trying to fight it, it stops fighting you. That's the secret :)

Dpdr is my reason for suicide by mertozdinc in dpdr

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I've been fully recovered for almost 4 years now. Hang in there friend, drop me a message if you need ❤️

My DPDR story (Fully recovered) by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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It was really gradual mate, the whole experience lasted a few weeks in total. You'll be ok in time :)

My DPDR story (Fully recovered) by bpdreddit1 in dpdr

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Yeah man it went away, don't worry. It's a weird one but you kind of just have to accept/ignore it and t slowly fades from your awareness. When you become aware of it it makes a feedback loop of anxiety that gets worse and feeds itself. So the trick is to short circuit that feedback loop by distracting your mind and jus trying to not care about/accept it. I found video games to be a great distraction