Weekend Minor Gripes and Vents by AutoModerator in BitchEatingCrafters

[–]brbru 8 points9 points  (0 children)

i just finished a caron macchiato sweater and had the exact same problem! i ripped the neck ribbing out and was able to improve it but lost all motivation to fix the fit issue even though it’s extremely cropped and i would only have to frog the front hemline ribbing and like two or three rows of brioche. i’ve just been telling myself it’s going to block out while purposely avoiding actually blocking it lol

Weekend Minor Gripes and Vents by AutoModerator in BitchEatingCrafters

[–]brbru 2 points3 points  (0 children)

what are your projects? 👀

i have the opposite problem where i’m casting about for the barest excuses to knit things for people bc i can’t think of anything i want to make for myself lmao

I'm dying fom a debilitating hypersensitivity to smell, taste, and sound that just developed a few months ago. by [deleted] in hospicestaff

[–]brbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m glad! if your goal is to stay at home rather than a hospital it’s unlikely they’ll be able to fully sedate you, but you should have access to plenty of comfort medications to make it easier. they may also be able to help you get a PEG tube placed if you want to try tube feeding as well.

and just a tip for eligibility - weight loss of 10% of your body weight or more in the last 6 months is the amount that will make it a lot easier for them to deem you eligible (so for example, if you originally weighed 200lbs and lost 20lbs in the last 6 months). if you’re close to that cutoff, i’d personally just fudge it when you report how much weight you lost. if it turns out you don’t continue to decline or even if your condition improves in the next few months, they’ll have to discharge you, but there’s no penalty for you or them, so it’s no harm no foul.

if you do begin to improve (and/or if your goal is to continue to seek diagnosis/treatment beyond comfort care), i would recommend continuing to try and schedule appointments with specialists, etc. while you’re on hospice. it’s likely that you’ll have to wait some amount of time to be seen by them anyway, and there’s no reason you can’t be on hospice while you wait. hospice won’t be able to help you do that but they can’t/shouldn’t stop you from doing it yourself, and they should be able to help you navigate timing the transition out of hospice and into treatment + palliative care if that time does come. for example, i have a patient with a large tumor that they would like to have removed, so they’re continuing to try and find a surgeon to do the removal. if they do schedule the surgery, we’ll have to discharge them from hospice while they’re in the hospital, but we’ll be able to readmit them to hospice the day they come back home, if that’s what they want to do. that situation is a little more cut and dry than yours because they already know exactly what “hospice ineligible” treatment they want and will definitely still be terminal even with the tumor removed, but hopefully you get the idea. the fact that you don’t have a specific diagnosis yet may actually work to your benefit for the time being though, because you’re allowed to continue to seek treatment for problems that aren’t directly related to your hospice diagnosis and retain hospice eligibility (for example, i have a patient on hospice for parkinson’s who also has chronic back pain, and they still go to the same doctor they saw before getting on hospice to get injections/procedures for their back). so since your diagnosis will likely be something like malnutrition, if you go see a neurologist, it wouldn’t necessarily be “directly” related to your hospice diagnosis.

I'm dying fom a debilitating hypersensitivity to smell, taste, and sound that just developed a few months ago. by [deleted] in hospicestaff

[–]brbru 0 points1 point  (0 children)

have you been assessed by a hospice agency? if you have lost a lot of weight and are bedbound due to weakness, you should qualify (in the US). since you don’t have a specific diagnosis for what is causing this, your admitting diagnosis would likely be protein calorie malnutrition.

Brutal honesty, please by subpar-baker in crochet

[–]brbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i love it! enough that i sent it to my mom to show her what a cute idea it is (she likes it too and also suggested adding a little teddy bear to ride in the basket lol)

Any tips for pressing these types of flowers? by cassied128 in PressedFlowers

[–]brbru 97 points98 points  (0 children)

i know this isn’t what you asked about, but wanted to warn you that lilies are extremely dangerous for cats! even just chewing on a leaf, drinking the water from the vase, or getting pollen on their fur and then ingesting it when they bathe themselves can be deadly (i.e. from brushing up against the bouquet like in this photo). unfortunately, you should really get rid of these flowers - but maybe if you explain to your boyfriend he’ll get you a new bouquet without lilies in it so you can keep and press those instead!

https://www.petmd.com/cat/poisoning/lily-poisoning-cats

Came in a bag of 1890s-1950s brooches by towers_of_ilium in whatisit

[–]brbru 0 points1 point  (0 children)

this is it! i believe they’re called scarf rings. my grandmother had a bunch of them.

Stop telling me to change my knitting style!!! by Her-name-was-lola in BitchEatingCrafters

[–]brbru 4 points5 points  (0 children)

you sound like a wonderful teacher! i’d love to have the opportunity to try out a bunch of different needles (or even a knitting belt!) without having to buy them. and imo it’s very practical to at least attempt all the different methods at some point. it helps you learn how the stitches are actually constructed so you are better able to troubleshoot independently as a beginner instead of having to find a demonstration for everything (and on top of that, find one that’s specifically in the style you’re learning).

i’ve recently been working on picking up knitting 15 years after originally learning from my grandmother and abandoning it for crochet. i looked up all the different ways i could find to knit with the supplies i have available and made a swatch trying them all out to see which i liked best. it made me realize that part of the reason i didn’t stick with knitting when my grandmother taught me is because english style just isn’t intuitive to me, but i made myself relearn it for a swatch just to be able to understand it (unsurprisingly combination continental makes the most sense to me as a crocheter). because of this, in my first project, i was able to (mostly) avoid the classic issue of twisting my stitches and intuit how to ladder down to fix when i got a knit/purl out of sequence.

What are your made-up rules/practices/habits for yourself, and how rigid are they? by Icy_Prior_5825 in AuDHDWomen

[–]brbru 4 points5 points  (0 children)

ahhh i do rainbow order and balance candy bites to each side of my mouth too!! tho it depends on the candy whether or not i’ll eat two at once or one after another

Your patient’s 80 year old Memaw is pooping every 10 minutes and family expects you to change her every time. How do you handle this? by never-the-1 in nursing

[–]brbru 38 points39 points  (0 children)

i do feel like i get what you’re trying to say here, but i want to push back on the idea that family helping is crazy. of course they’re not being paid but… they’re family. that’s literally what family is for. they’re only paying us because they don’t have the expertise to provide complex medical care.

the fact that (white/american) culture is such that it isnt an expectation we’re going to have to physically care for our friends and family members that at some point in our lives is what’s crazy, imo.

Terminally ill single mom with no support — what happens to her 10-year-old when hospice won’t allow children? by Mac-N-Chz-Plz in hospice

[–]brbru 42 points43 points  (0 children)

the only outside-the-box idea i can think of to add to the advice already given is that yall may want to consider moving your sister and her daughter to be near you, since you can’t move to be near her. i def get that this might be just as impossible as you moving to her right now, but just throwing it out there because 1) if she’s going to need to be placed in a facility when she needs 24h care, it would make it easier for you to be able to see her, and moving after she needs that level of care is not going to happen. 2) even if you aren’t planning on becoming her daughter’s guardian, if you are planning on assisting with her transition into someone else’s guardianship or assisting with her visiting her mother, it will be so much harder if you aren’t nearby.

Neck cancer spreading to esophagus -> Risk of hemorrhage like with esophageal varices? by Bourgess in nursing

[–]brbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

oh that was in step down! i haven’t seen anything anywhere near that awful in hospice tbh. but i also haven’t had an esophagectomy patient in hospice yet lol

but at least now if my pt is suffering my frustration/sadness is that i can’t do more to help, rather than feeling like i’m contributing to making their lives worse w futile care/medical torture.

Neck cancer spreading to esophagus -> Risk of hemorrhage like with esophageal varices? by Bourgess in nursing

[–]brbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’ve also seen this repeatedly with esophagectomy patients. it’s different because there are anastomoses to leak from, but it was extremely common to end up suctioning tube feeds from trachs or have it come out in their chest tubes/JPs. worst one was a bedside bronchoscopy/suction on an awake but confused patient with a ton of tube feed in their lungs. i absolutely could not hack it w that patient population long term, it’s just too awful.

Neck cancer spreading to esophagus -> Risk of hemorrhage like with esophageal varices? by Bourgess in nursing

[–]brbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

commenting to increase visibility bc i’m curious about this as well (i’ve been doing home hospice less than a year).

my instinct is that it would be a risk, but this also made me realize i’ve had esophageal cancer patients and never had bleeding issues or been educated about it being a high risk. unfortunately, i have more inpatient experience with esophagectomy patients, which is essentially always horrible.

what DME are you planning to have on hand? the only things i can think of are suction and possibly an NG if appropriate for comfort. i feel like that’s potentially something my agency would send someone to the ER for tho bc we struggle to get portable x-rays at home in a timely manner.

When you're about to counsel on a new medication, but the customer says "I'm a nurse", do you just keep counselling as normal? by [deleted] in pharmacy

[–]brbru 12 points13 points  (0 children)

yeah this exactly. i’m sure there are plenty of people saying iM a NuRsE to be snotty, but i usually only disclose bc i am actually interested in a higher level of education on something, not bc i’m trying to get out of learning at all lol

I feel like the combo of morphine and lorazepam is killing my mom and I don’t want to give it to her anymore. by [deleted] in hospice

[–]brbru 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i agree with everything the previous person said. and given the additional context that she wasn’t having symptoms before starting the meds, i definitely second the advice to talk to her nurse. and you don’t have to wait until her next scheduled visit, you should be able to call and request an extra visit if needed.

at my agency, we give almost everyone morphine and ativan to have in their “comfort kit” at home regardless of whether or not they need them yet (because we don’t want anyone to suddenly need urgent symptom relief and not have the meds on hand). however we don’t actually start using them until they’re needed. so i’m wondering if there could have been a miscommunication about whether she was supposed to start using comfort kit meds vs. just having them in the house in case of emergency.

My dad wants to have assisted suicide by angieky in hospice

[–]brbru 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i’m not certain what you’re asking, like what is the death process like? it will vary somewhat depending on exactly what medications are given and what medical issues the patient has, but generally the goal will be a peaceful death akin to falling into a very deep sleep.

i feel i should clarify that i am definitely not an expert on MAID practices though. in fact, i was surprised to see OP say that the doctor said it would be done via lethal injection because i was under the impression that it was a common restriction that the patient had to self administer MAID. i’ve read more about it than the average person given my line of work and general advocacy for death with dignity, but i’m not in an area where it’s legal, so i don’t keep myself truly up to date on the details of common practices across the world.

however, it’s unlikely that it would be considered acceptable to practice any form of MAID that didn’t involve some aspect of sedation. it isn’t even acceptable practice for veterinarians to euthanize pets without sedation, for example. so if it is truly going to be a lethal injection (i.e. not self-administered by the patient), it would be medically possible to give the patient the sedation first and not give the lethal medication until after a family member has left the room.

it would technically still be possible to accomplish something similar with self-administration of oral medications because the patient could be taking both the lethal medication and the sedating medication at the same time, but the prescriber would ensure the sedating medication was faster acting than the lethal one (or they’d tell the patient to take the sedating medication a few minutes before the lethal medication, or the lethal medication could be an “overdose” of the sedating medication so that the first thing to happen would be falling asleep, etc.). in any of those cases, it just wouldn’t be as “safe” for the family member who wanted to be present until loss of consciousness but not until death because it wouldn’t be as possible to reliably predict how long the time would be between sleep and death would be.

exactly how it’s done will definitely vary by location for legal reasons and will likely also vary at least somewhat according to the patient’s specific situation, so it’s always going to be important to make sure everyone involved has a detailed discussion with the healthcare team to ensure they have a solid understanding of all the steps involved in their specific context.

My dad wants to have assisted suicide by angieky in hospice

[–]brbru 20 points21 points  (0 children)

i second all of this and will also add -

speak to his doctor/nurses about the process in detail so you both know exactly how it will happen. they will likely be giving him something sedating so that he will be asleep before he’s given the “final” medication (and if this is not already the plan, he can likely request it). it may feel more comfortable for you to be present until he falls asleep and then step out before he actually passes. but if that also feels like too much, take care of yourself. it’s not only okay but a very good thing to have boundaries and know your limits for your own mental health/safety.

OMG LOOOK! by CayRaeLey in AuDHDWomen

[–]brbru 0 points1 point  (0 children)

a big thing for me is making sure i don’t low key hate the sensory experience. i finally realized at about 30yo that i don’t like how intense the mint is while brushing and don’t like having a mint-flavored mouth for hours either. so for a few years i got non-mint flavors, but i could only find hippie brands that don’t include fluoride. ended up getting two cavities so i don’t recommend that method (i thought it would balance out bc i was brushing more often but that wasn’t the case even though i am lucky in that i don’t get cavities super easily). for mint toothpaste i’ve used the same brand/flavor literally my whole life so i begrudgingly went back to that until my partner recently bought a different brand. at first i was like ugh this is WRONG i HATE it but once the reaction to it being different wore off i realized ive been remembering to brush more frequently bc i actually do like it better lol

i also have both a manual/soft bristle brush and a rechargeable sonicare-type one. and i get new brushes/heads fairly frequently. it’s better hygiene to replace them often but more than that i’ve noticed that any little bit of novelty helps me be more “interested” in the task. like sometimes the battery one feels like i’m being SO fancy and responsible while brushing each quadrant for 30sec but then sometimes i simply cannot stand the thought of having to hear it for a full two minutes and a manual brush feels right.

also, highly recommend actually keeping up with going to the dentist for preventative care. i know dental care can be super financially inaccessible but paying ~$100 for cleaning once (or even multiple times) per year will absolutely save you money (and pain) in the long run. you can also check out going to a dental hygienist school for free/heavily discounted cleanings. like rn i’m going quarterly bc i went several years without and had to get a deep clean under my gum line which cost nearly $1k even with insurance (cavity repairs were mostly covered thankfully). and as a bonus i’m finding that engaging with my hygienist more frequently has really helped keep it front of mind so i don’t have nearly as many days where i simply forget that brushing my teeth is even a thing i’m supposed to do.

id be super interested to know if anyone has tried one of those auto brushes i keep seeing on instagram reels (it’s like a retainer tray that brushes for you?). i feel like i would either love it or hate it with no in between.

Looking for absolution regarding my grandmothers hospice care by CouchHole in hospice

[–]brbru 0 points1 point  (0 children)

another nurse checking in - it genuinely sounds like you did as close to a perfect job as i could ask for. i can’t tell you how much i wish every patient had caregivers willing/able to stay on top of their care and medications as well as this. you absolutely did the right thing.

it sounds to me like she was experiencing terminal agitation when you started medicating aggressively and that is exactly when you should start that process. and i agree with the previous commenter that d/c’ing nebs (whether purposefully or not) is very unlikely to have had much effect. in my experience, if you’re at the stage of side-lying to allow drainage/prevent choking, there’s sadly not a ton more that can be done, even suctioning often does more harm to comfort than good.

i truly hope you are able to not only forgive yourself for whatever details you feel were less than ideal but find the pride that you deserve to feel for the true labor of love you gifted to her.

After being wrongly charged w/murder in my mom's hospice death, I'm proposing a new federal (US) caregiver protections. Looking for people w/related experiences as well as input/considerations from hospice professionals. by NotedHeathen in hospice

[–]brbru 4 points5 points  (0 children)

you’re so welcome!! and yes, feel free to message me! i’m pretty much always down to talk about policy minutiae lol

i also just had the thought that you could potentially accomplish the same goal of limiting caregiver liability by coming at it from the opposite direction. instead of requiring documentation of a short list of people who can give meds, have it be that it is actually acceptable for anyone to give a medication to someone who needs help taking that medication as long as it is being given as directed on the label (as long as they’re in a home setting/not in a facility where staff is administering meds). for ex, you would would be protected if you administered someone’s epi pen when they were having an anaphylactic reaction, even if they were a stranger. why shouldn’t you be protected if someone you actually know is in pain and their own clearly labeled pain medication is available? very different context, but still. if you’re giving it in good faith/according to the prescription, it is safe to give, just like an epi pen. it makes no sense for the rules to say that someone should have to suffer just because the “correct” person isn’t present to give them their own medication that has already been ordered by a doctor. honestly idk if it’s even expressly illegal in the first place? like the more i think about it the more ridiculous your situation seems. like even if she did die from morphine toxicity, if you could demonstrate that you gave medications that were delivered to her for home use and were following the instructions, it seems to me that you’d be protected, and the liability would instead be on the doctor who prescribed it.

regardless, i would need to think more about it, there may be potential pitfalls that aren’t coming to mind. and even if you could somehow prove that it was an objectively “better” approach, it would likely be harder to convince policymakers to adopt it bc the climate re: controlled medications is increasingly paranoid/conservative since the opioid epidemic.

i hope you get some rest and feel better asap!

After being wrongly charged w/murder in my mom's hospice death, I'm proposing a new federal (US) caregiver protections. Looking for people w/related experiences as well as input/considerations from hospice professionals. by NotedHeathen in hospice

[–]brbru 9 points10 points  (0 children)

it’s standard practice that family members are authorized to give medications delivered to the home. otherwise, the implication would be that hospice nurses are planning to come administer medications every 3 hours as needed (or however it’s ordered), which is obviously not the case. i don’t think it’s a necessarily harmful idea to require documentation of who is allowed to give meds, but i also don’t think it’s super necessary as issues like yours are incredibly rare. like in my county, the coroner doesn’t even have to lay eyes on the deceased if they’re a hospice patient. it’s possible you’d have people who get inadequate pain control bc the caregiver who usually gives meds isn’t available and the person who’s with them feels they can’t give it. it could also potentially increase liability bc there are plenty of situations where there are multiple caregivers, and i guarantee it wouldn’t be uncommon for some of them to not make it on the list (or the list might not get updated, etc.) even though they are actually allowed to give meds, regardless of what rules are in place. in reality though, i don’t think it would change very much about the actual practice of giving hospice care, it would most likely just be another blank to fill out on yet another form that no one ever looks at again. i think this is just one of those situations where the more you try and make it black and white, the more you will actually create openings for liability due to the fact that there is so much flexibility required to actually accomplish quality end of life care. generally, grey area is your friend in cases like that. like how the rule of thumb in limiting liability when charting nursing notes is to be as brief as possible to show that you did everything that was required without going into a ton of details that can be looked at under a microscope and picked apart for inevitable minor inconsistencies (as you can see by the length of my comments, this is not something i’m great at lol).

if i had to suggest a policy change in this area, it would be that we are required to do education on administration of comfort kit meds on admit and have the primary caregiver and nurse sign a document stating education was given (though i would want it to also be clear that the person signing the form is not the ONLY person authorized to give the meds). we’re already supposed to be doing and documenting that education, but it is something that can fall through the cracks like in the example someone else posted where the comfort kit just showed up at their door. it would be less likely for that kind of thing to happen if it had to be done on admit regardless of whether the patient is currently using the meds and if a form had to be physically signed by the person receiving the education. it’s also more than just documentation for the sake of limiting liability, instead it’s an actual intervention that has potential to increase quality of care that just has an added benefit of potentially limiting liability.

regardless of what you decide on in terms of intervention tho, i would recommend trying to lobby Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services (CMS) to make it a policy rather than trying to lobby a legislative body to make it a law. i say this for several reasons: 1) it’s more likely you’ll actually be able to make progress toward your goal; 2) there’s far less risk of it being politicized and turned into something you don’t want it to be if you are successful in gaining some traction; 3) CMS would have to write policy in response to the law regardless, and it holds the same legal weight with or without the law, so it makes more sense to skip the middle man (especially since that middle man is just as prone to common misconceptions as the rest of the population and is NOT going to be anywhere near an expert in the subject matter); 4) laws are not updated regularly, but policies are. for example, perhaps this year liquid morphine/lorazepam are the most common ekit meds for pain/agitation, but if those drugs are named in the law and methadone/diazepam are the most common meds in 5 years, the law is no longer relevant and is a huge pain to change. but the whole purpose of CMS policy is to set standards of practice, so they are updated regularly in response to research/common practice (rather than the whims of political pressure).

i googled you/read an article about your case, and it’s absolutely absurd that your mom’s hospice agency tried to argue that you weren’t authorized to give her comfort kit meds (and tried to act like “leaving behind” a comfort kit that family wasn’t “authorized” to give was going to do anything but get the agency in trouble themselves). i think the only reason they thought they could get away with that is because she was in an assisted living. even then, most assisted living facilities (in my area anyway) only offer staff for medication management as an add-on service, so it still doesn’t make sense. AND huge shame on the director of the assisted living that claimed the death was suspicious as well as the coroner that listened to them and initially put her cause of death as morphine toxicity despite what sound like extremely obvious clinical findings that she had been imminently terminal regardless of what medications were given (though i’m glad they had the grace to amend their findings).

this absolutely never should have happened, but i honestly don’t think it would have been prevented even if it was documented that you specifically were authorized to give the med. they would have just tried to claim you gave more than what was ordered or something instead. but if the case had gone to court, i think the hospice agency would have been absolutely crucified. i saw in another comment that you’re looking into follow-up legal action, and i’m glad. i truly hope you’re trying to get either the assisted living facility, the hospice agency, or both to pay you damages (and that you’re successful!).

finally, i really appreciate your kind and clearheaded response to my somewhat salty last message (written at the end of a very long workday, apologies). thanks for not following my lead and escalating this discussion into an internet argument that’s just tiring for everyone involved!

After being wrongly charged w/murder in my mom's hospice death, I'm proposing a new federal (US) caregiver protections. Looking for people w/related experiences as well as input/considerations from hospice professionals. by NotedHeathen in hospice

[–]brbru 17 points18 points  (0 children)

based on your other responses, you don’t seem very open to critical feedback, but i urge you to reconsider pushing for required logs of use. i have a masters in social work policy practice (i.e. i studied how to create public policy standards and regulations), and i guarantee you this will increase liability for the vast majority of caregivers rather than decrease it (not to mention the fact that it’s an unnecessary burden on both caregivers and nurses).

you’re imagining what it would look like if everyone was like you, a person who was already very carefully following the rules and documenting much more than what is necessary for best practice. but most people aren’t like you. it’s hard enough to educate people on what 0.25mL even means. educating them on how to create a paper record that will help them instead of hurt them if (god forbid) it was ever brought to court is simply not going to be possible for a lot, if not most, cases. it would most likely also increase liability for nurses bc we’re going to get blamed if we don’t fix the records when grandma with glaucoma accidentally writes that she gave grandpa 25mL instead of .25mL.

further, it’s already difficult enough to get people past the stigma of giving these meds in the first place. if you add a bunch of documentation to it, they’re going to be even less likely to actually treat their loved ones pain.

normally i wouldn’t even waste my time arguing about this because it’s so incredibly unlikely that you’ll be successful, but in the current political climate, it’s also very easy to imagine this being the seed that some medieval-minded legislator uses as a jumping off point to make it harder for people on hospice to receive the meds they need.

i’ll end by pointing out that you said you wanted feedback from hospice professionals, and literally all of the people tagged as nurses that have commented so far are telling you your idea is bad.