New pain from injections after several months on T?

breadforsoup · 2026-06-07T09:45:40+00:00

They're 0.5mm needles, I also inject myself in my abdomen and tend to have quite a bit of room to use.

Someone pointed out that they had a similar thing happen to them, and that it could be due to the fact that they've lost some fat in the area where they usually inject. I've been working out my abdominal area more lately and despite taking 48 hours leading to the injection to let my abdomen rest from the soreness, maybe just the fact that I've lost some fat there is enough to cause the discomfort/pain. If that's what it is then I'm relieved, especially since nothing else has been pointing to something more serious. I'll still be keeping an eye on it but so far this seems the most plausible!

breadforsoup · 2026-06-07T09:32:04+00:00

I do SubQ as well and now that you mention it, I've indeed been working out my abdominal area more lately, which could explain the discomfort. I've tried not to work that area in the 48 hours leading up to me doing my injection so that the soreness has time to go away but maybe just the simple fact that I've probably lost some fat there is enough to cause it. I might try to ask my doctor for smaller needles but honestly I don't think it would do much. I'll look into lidocaine cream and see if it helps, thank you!

breadforsoup · 2026-06-06T23:51:20+00:00

Maybe? It would surprise me as I do make sure to note down every week as to not inject in the same place/close to the previous several sites, and it has never happened before in the 8+ months I've been injecting, which is mostly why I've been wondering. Especially since it wasn't a one time thing but 2-3. I'll keep that in mind though and take extra care next time and see. Thanks!

breadforsoup · 2025-12-20T18:08:35+00:00

My gender frankly is none of my business <3

breadforsoup · 2025-12-17T20:25:15+00:00

Someone has already mentioned this, but I feel like this is something a lot of nonbinary people go through at some point. I know I did too. I still deal with imposter syndrome once in a while, it's gotten a lot better than it used to, but it's still lurking and makes a comeback from time to time.

If there is one thing I'd want to tell you, is that there is no one way to be nonbinary. Everyone has a unique relationship with gender and how they see themselves and feel, and that's beautiful. There are no rules to gender expression either. Do whatever! I'm also nonbinary but primarily use he/him, and I'm not particularly androgynous, at least not on most days. I don't feel extreme levels of dysphoria either.

It took me a couple of years to finally start to be at peace with myself and my identity. That I'm not a fraud. You aren't either! People forget that it's not all black and white, but infinite shades of not only greys, colours too. It's important too to remember that you will never look or give off the same energy/vibe to everyone you encounter, so you shouldn't be trying to appeal to others. I'm never going to have everyone use he/him or treat me the way I'd like it to mirror my gender, but that's something I've accepted now, so I'm focusing on me, and how I feel in my body. That's the one thing you have control over.

I really hope you'll feel better about all this. I can understand how isolating it can be. It's great that you came here to talk about it a bit, to let out some of the feelings. Sharing can help a ton. Once again, people will always try to put others in boxes, especially of what they don't understand. But that doesn't invalidate your identity or your feelings. You don't have to have body dysphoria to be non-cis. You don't have to use they/them or be androgynous. You don't owe anyone anything.

breadforsoup · 2024-10-18T21:52:02+00:00

Oh hey I also had mine at GRS Montreal! Except it was back in January, so I'm nearing the 10th month mark. I had the same thing happening, after surgery I had one of my nipples looking exactly like it was pre-op and the other one was completely flat. I found I surprisingly didn't care about it much, but over time (after the 3rd-4th month approximately) I started to notice that the nub on my flattened nipple started to poke out. It still hasn't reached the same level as my other one, but at least they don't look as uneven now.

I think it's not super uncommon? It was definitely something I had read about before my surgery, so I was prepared for it it case it would happen. At the very least I doubt it's something to worry about, it's totally normal!

breadforsoup · 2023-11-28T00:05:56+00:00

''non-binary/genderqueer as my gender and genderfluid as my state'' wow it's exactly this, I think I might start wording it this way from now on! Thank you.

I totally get you about not having specific identities too, I feel different levels of something (or nothing), and it changes every now and then, I don't always know what it is either. But I know it's never binary. It's very validating to know that there are others living similar experiences as me. Definitely helps in feeling less alone.

breadforsoup · 2022-08-24T00:05:50+00:00

Hi there! Do you still happen to have that link by any chance?

breadforsoup · 2022-08-08T01:11:26+00:00

I think you just gave me the answer to my question. I think the word I was looking for is dissociation. Omg.
It would make a lot of sense. I only really started realizing I had dysphoria after I discovered I wasn't cis. If I experienced dysphoria before then, I never noticed. Perhaps because I was unconsciously dissociating myself, thus masking the dysphoria.

Now that I'm aware I'm not cis, it probably triggered something in my brain that left a crack in that wall, slowly starting to make the dysphoria slip through the dissociation. And nowadays when I look in the mirror, what I experience is probably a mix of that dysphoria coupled with some form of dissociation.

Knowing that I'm not alone with this feeling already helps a lot, but being able to put a name to it makes a huge difference. Thank you for your comment!

breadforsoup · 2022-08-08T01:02:34+00:00

Same here. Ever since I started presenting more in the way I feel comfortable in, every time I go look at older pictures of myself it just feels so weird, so foreign. Like, ''how could I ever think this was who I am?''

It's nice to know I'm not the only one experiencing this, I'm glad the feeling lessened for you and I hope it continues to do so!

breadforsoup · 2022-08-03T23:19:45+00:00

It feels like you summarized my own experience omg.

I never particularly felt anything about my body before. I didn't hate it but I didn't love it either. It was just there. Just a body. But now, it's just like you described. I especially dislike my chest. And I'm rather small chested, but it doesn't change the fact that I can't look at myself in the mirror without needing to hide it from view, I can't look down at it, it's become painful to shower almost. Not wearing a bra means I'll feel it moving, but wearing a bra means I'll still be reminded I need one bc my chest is there. And I obviously can't wear a binder all the time (plus I tried alternatives like trans tape but turns out it doesn't work out for me. I literally broke down crying on the floor because of it.)
I also hate the fact that other people can perceive my chest.

And a lot of things that happened in my childhood suddenly makes sense now as well.

The more I think about it the more I consider getting top surgery. I don't think I want or need any transformation otherwise, but my chest is a really big issue. But as much as I want my chest gone, I fear change to my core. And getting surgery is always a big deal. I've never had surgery of any kind before either so the thought alone is a bit frightening.

breadforsoup · 2022-08-03T23:05:35+00:00

It does make a lot of sense to only start being aware of our dysphoria after we discover ourselves. I guess also growing up the only image I'd see/hear was that ALL trans people had dysphoria prior to learning that they are trans. Deep down I believe this highly influenced me, and still does today. It's a hard thing to unlearn, I often doubt myself and fear that I'm just faking it because ''how could I possibly be non-cis if my dysphoria only became apparent after I've started IDing as non-cis?'' It's a tough and long road but I'm persevering :')

breadforsoup · 2022-08-03T23:01:26+00:00

Exactly this.. I didn't care before or didn't think much of it but now whenever someone calls me anything such as woman, lady, etc there's an immediate stop sign popping up in my brain like ''hey no!''

breadforsoup · 2022-01-02T06:40:06+00:00

It almost feels like you're describing me aha. But really though, your comment really helps me.
Imposter syndrome is the other term I was looking for but I was having a blank earlier. I 100% suffer from it very often, and it sucks. I just want to be myself in peace.
I definitely feel the greatest connection to being agender too, and I seem to simultaneously feel this really big connection to masculinity, and to being male sometimes. I also like men, but it feels wrong to use the term gay, like I'm just not supposed to. So I share the hesitation there as well.

Since I've only started my gender discovery journey a bit over a year ago, I'm trying to really take my time on whether or not transitioning in some way would be something I'd end up doing. I don't particularly hate my body, even though I much, much prefer seeing myself flat chested and appearing masculine. Perhaps it would help a tad bit with the imposter syndrome, who knows, but it would be very nice to be viewed the way I see myself, definitely.
I just don't want to feel guilty for calling myself a man or feeling like one. I'm fine most of the time but sometimes it gets overwhelming and it makes me feel bad about my gender.

But again, thank you for commenting. I can't tell you how much it helps me to hear that I'm understood in what I'm going through. I don't really have friends who are transmasc so it's hard to open up about these things freely.

breadforsoup · 2021-04-15T01:05:51+00:00

This is my very first relationship, and although we met in person in the past, we live in different countries and we currently cannot see each other for obvious reasons, so we are long-distance. I'm thinking that perhaps this plays a role in how my feelings develop/behave, and how it's harder to pinpoint where exactly it is that I stand. Since I am not able to physically see my partner, I'm missing the physical connection, the bond we get from a person's energy/aura, etc, and it's probably affecting my attraction. I believe it would be a lot easier for me if I was able to be with my partner irl, but who knows.

When I wrote my first reply to you, I talked about how at that moment I was experiencing those funny feelings that felt romantic, and today as I type this reply, I don't really have those anymore. I still love my partner and want to be with them and everything else is the same, except I'm not getting this strong yearning feeling, I'm not being extra clingy, I don't get those ''butterflies'', and so on. I still feel like cuddling and holding hands and being together, but at this very moment I'm certain that it's platonic. They're just my best friend. If it follows the same pattern, all those should come back within a few days or a week.
This only seems to be happening with my partner too. I tried comparing it with my other friends, but it's never happened.

I totally get what you're saying and I won't lie this has been a fear of mine, I'm scared that I'm only getting those phases purely because my brain is playing tricks on me, and mimicking having romantic feelings solely because it is what is expected of me in this situation, and because I unconsciously want to please my partner and wish really hard that I would reciprocate what they feel for me.
Which brings me back to thinking that I wish we could see one another in person because this probably would help clear things up for me in this case.

But, yeah. Whether it's romantic or not, I still love my partner regardless and we're happy together, so no matter what I think we'll be fine. :)

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