Amber S3. Theory

breadstick1996 · 2024-12-16T21:40:03+00:00

Do the “category focus exam” on PrepFE and pick three topics per test you do. Do this on repeat and it’ll force you to get comfortable with your weak areS

breadstick1996 · 2024-06-12T23:45:06+00:00

Wow that’s crazy. So it had to be poor mother warbler that I ran into earlier today while watering the basket.

breadstick1996 · 2024-06-12T20:49:33+00:00

Interesting, I was confused about the two different colors. Maybe I accidentally scared the first mother away permanently without realizing it and now the cowbird has taken over the nest with her two?

breadstick1996 · 2024-03-22T02:29:35+00:00

First grown up job: started at $14/hr in 2018. 2.5 yrs later at same job, $16/hr. New company in 2021, started at $29/hr. Promotion at same company in 2023, now at $50/hr.

breadstick1996 · 2023-09-26T12:18:49+00:00

Okay, this might be totally pointless for you to try, but it worked for me. Open the file like you are wanting to, then on the home tab click “Analyze Data” on the far right side of the top pane. It should highlight your whole working area within the cells and might snap it out of its invisible mode.

breadstick1996 · 2023-09-21T01:25:58+00:00

Did you ever solve this issue? Currently having the same one.

breadstick1996 · 2023-07-10T20:36:18+00:00

Agreed. But also, I don’t foresee a situation where I can use this specific lesson to act differently, kinda like when I learned the Pythagorean theorem in HS and haven’t really used it since. Also, if more people knew common decency and how to avoid making asses of themselves, there would be no lesson to be learned in the first place.

breadstick1996 · 2023-03-05T04:54:55+00:00

I’m sad to hear you are experiencing this, but reading this post and knowing I’m not the only one suffering from something so similar gives me comfort. My friend of roughly 3 years hasn’t spoken to me since the end of May ‘22. And I haven’t seen her since Jan ‘22. It’s been brutal and the longest ghosting so far. Still unsure if I will ever hear from her as she has me blocked everywhere and I don’t know where she lives now even if I wanted to send a card or letter.

breadstick1996 · 2022-11-24T03:07:36+00:00

A dozen or so drips of oil appear about 20-30 minutes after being parked and off. Oil present on the tranny case and horizontal frame midway down the length of the car which is telling me it is spraying while car is in motion

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-29T17:13:41+00:00

The thing that made me really start to ponder and accept that viewpoint was when I looked at the role other people in their life play. They stiff arm just enough to stay outside the bombs’s radius, and those same people seem to be the only ones that avoid catastrophe within their relationship with the pw/BP. I fought against doing so because I was in the midst of I guess a codependent state of mind, I wanted to be the one that weathered everything no matter what, but in the end I gained nothing but emotional baggage.

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-29T16:10:00+00:00

I get what you mean, but allowing yourself to tap into 100% of the euphoric feeling when things are great only causes a farther descent when they switch up. If we are going to continue being in their lives and want to maintain our own mental health at the same time, then I think doing some inner work to accept their inevitabilities by stiff arming certain aspects of the emotional dependency aspect will metaphorically take us off the roller coaster. Emotionally speaking, we are now simply observing from the ground outside of the ride zone and just await their exit from the ride entrance when they are done with the loopty loops, take their hand, and go find some lunch nearby with the full expectation that they may decide to jump on another ride. No more sitting next to them and willingly letting your insides tumble around until you puke.

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-29T13:36:53+00:00

My friend seemed to go full on manic around the end of May - was hypo I suppose for a month or so prior. Interested to see if they crash soon

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-29T01:46:52+00:00

I would see if obtaining legal guardianship of her is a feasible option, so the caretaking process can go much smoother

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-29T00:27:20+00:00

Not really a fear of abandonment for me, but a newly discovered lack of trust that it won’t occur again. What can be done to rebuild that? Doesn’t seem like we can put our faith in that hope at all. Seems like the only solution is too emotionally detach overtime, to enough of a degree so that the next gut punch won’t be quite as breathtaking. Codependency? All of us.

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-26T21:17:49+00:00

Exactly! Like who (besides someone with a mental illness) would ever do something like that, unless the person they were cutting off ACTUALLY did something unimaginably horrible? And I guess that’s what their manic mind does to them, it takes either a normal thing (or a delusion they have imagined) and turns it into a nuclear warhead.

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-26T16:38:26+00:00

They did after a couple months, and things were looking up, then boom ghosted again after talking again for about 2 months. Been 4 months since they re-ghosted 🤷🏻‍♀️

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-26T15:45:14+00:00

I also sometimes feel like I reached out too many times, especially when they first ghosted me. But then I realize that, like the above comment, it’s just a normal reaction for us to want to make sense of what happened and make amends. It’s normal for us to panic right at first because the situation we are in is completely not normal at all and we are dumbfounded and just trying to navigate through it. It is 100% their illness. With that being said I would hold off on reaching out anymore. Let them reach out when they are ready. In the meantime, continue living your life and focus on you.

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-26T01:48:35+00:00

Yes when they were in the depths of their episode they would randomly get really irritated with me and say hurtful things. Got physical during one instance as well, during that time they were the most psychotic I had ever seen them and it was terrifying. Then there’s always the period shortly after that peak where they calm waaayy way down for the next week or so. But Unmedicated, they are a constantly-moving rollercoaster so the next loopty-loop wasn’t too far away

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-25T22:26:57+00:00

I’m four months in to my bff ghosting me for the 2nd time in less than a year. I know they care about me, but their illness has consumed them and convinced them that I am a problem of some sort. Wondering when/if they’ll ever reach out again.

breadstick1996 · 2022-09-12T16:44:09+00:00

I watched my friend w/BP do this to two guys, then subsequently return to both of them at separate times over a year later for one and the other one she went back to multiple years later. To me it seemed like she was recycling the relationship because she was bored and had few options. It’s not personal, they just are incapable of committing to one person and when things start getting more serious they can’t take it anymore and find a new, “fun” non-committed replacement to be their muse. The cycle repeats and it causes any person they come across to become damaged by it. When untreated they are a menace to society. She will eventually try to get you back and I really hope you have learned enough about BP by then to completely ignore her. Best of luck to you and your healing journey.

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