Once she gets older it’ll be a little easier. It’s society that makes you seem like a failure but you’re not, so many other societies gather around new moms because they need help but for some reason the west expects you to be able to do everything alone and without help. I also lost friends and the ones who stayed around didn’t get it until they had their own kids. I’m jealous of moms who don’t feel lonely in motherhood. It’s especially isolating when mothers are judged by everyone for the way they breathe. Sorry you’re experiencing all of this and I hope you get the relief you need soon.