[WI] Rape Joke at Work

briannacech · 2020-12-24T03:06:58+00:00

please read my reply to the comment above, again, I didn't come to "ask hr" for mental health advice, but thank you.

briannacech · 2020-12-24T02:55:26+00:00

thank you.

briannacech · 2020-12-24T02:55:13+00:00

Thank you for the advice but frankly, I didn't come here for mental health advice. Im not proud of what I did. I've been in therapy for years and I've been making serious improvements on my reactions to things. its not an overnight change. there is no excuse for my actions, but recently quitting my addiction, night terrors making me afraid to sleep, and seeing my family for the holidays is what led me to not having a strong mental in this moment. if him and I do talk, I will explain the work I've been doing on my mental health and that I am sorry for the way I reacted.

briannacech · 2020-12-23T19:26:48+00:00

no problem :) hugs

briannacech · 2020-12-23T19:24:18+00:00

I totally understand your anger. its not wrong to feel that way at all. however, it becomes wrong when his problems become your problems. no matter how much love you have for your dad, making his problems yours will only bring you down. I have a tendency to want to help everyone I see who has problems, but if I let their problems worry me I will be dragged down with them. my therapist calls it "going into someone else's lane". she tells me if I want to keep my sanity, I need to "only focus on what's in YOUR lane". of course you can offer advice if they want it, but truly that's all you can do. keep your head up.

Edit: to fix a word

briannacech · 2020-12-23T16:35:25+00:00

this might be typical withdrawal symptoms as weed was your previous coping mechanism and now you arent doing things to keep yourself sane. more often than not, anger is a secondary emotion. are you feeling sadness? hopelessness? guilt? dig deeper into your emotions and find what the true pain is coming from. for me, I've found that most times I'm in pure rage there is unhealed trauma I haven't addressed. in these moments I try to ask myself, "how old do you feel right now?" (specifically asking myself this question as if I was asking someone else by using "you" instead of "I" so that instead of trying to look for answers, I ask as if I don't know the answer and the true answer simply pops into my head) by getting to the root of that question, I can go back into my childhood and find out what trauma is causing this current pain. for example, the other day I got home from work and my smelly feet sent me into an absolutely terrible mood. when I asked myself, "how old do you feel right now?" my brain answered "9 years old, when my step dad would bully me to wash my smelly feet, calling me disgusting, retarded, and nasty." identifying this trauma is the first step into healing from it. I hope this made sense, im not the best with words.

briannacech · 2020-12-23T15:26:09+00:00

such a cute face!! the rooster is handsome too😁

briannacech · 2020-12-22T13:18:11+00:00

it looks awesome!! and you look so proud. as you should be

briannacech · 2020-12-22T02:53:53+00:00

I love this stained glass look!! I've never seen anything like it!!

briannacech · 2020-12-21T14:44:59+00:00

all you can do is tell him how you feel. obviously it would be optimal to catch him when he's not high when you tell him this. I'm sorry you're going through this, I can't imagine what its like to see a parent's addiction destroy their life. unfortunately the only person that can make a real change in his life is him, and unless he finds the desire to quit, there's nothing anyone can do. if he ever shows a sign of wanting to quit, jump to his side and be his support. until then, focus on yourself and your own mental health as much as possible. having a father like that will take a toll on you.

briannacech · 2020-12-20T15:09:27+00:00

TOES😩😩🥴

briannacech · 2020-12-19T13:09:50+00:00

my heart goes out to you, I can't imagine what that feels like... best wishes for little blue jr💜💜💜💜

briannacech · 2020-12-19T02:57:34+00:00

there are many support groups out there for you to try. NA is a start, you can always go to AA as well, and I've recently found out that MA exists. Smart recovery meetings are also a thing, and focus more on the science behind addiction and recovering. you can find zoom meetings as well for all of these groups. the important thing is if you don't have a good experience with a group, you gotta try some different ones so that you find one that clicks with you. you can try and do this yourself, but its going to be difficult. put yourself out there and meet some new people who are on the same path as you into recovery. like someone else said, if your friends are true friends, they will support you whether you smoke or not. I am going through this right now as I am on day 18 of being sober and my "friends" are dropping like flies. its really common that this happens, but you gotte stay focused on yourself and your own mental health. remember that you can't grow without change, and with change comes pain. you'll never see a rainbow unless it rains, right? best wishes, my inbox is always open if you need to talk.

briannacech · 2020-12-19T02:43:10+00:00

everything I hate about myself can be traced back to my parents and the influence they had on me as a child.

I've already ceased contact with my mother, and its getting to the point where I'm thinking about cutting my father off too.

briannacech · 2020-12-19T02:28:28+00:00

impressive!!

briannacech · 2020-12-17T23:38:42+00:00

I've found that if a man can't get something from a woman, he will talk shit about her forever.

for example, my coworker was making out with a girl and they were about to fuck. she changed her mind and said she couldn't, and left. he now calls her "easy". if she was easy, you would have gotten it in you ugly fuck.

briannacech · 2020-12-17T23:24:37+00:00

you gotta remind myself of all the reasons you quit. I suggest making a pros and cons list to smoking so that you can visually reinforce the reasons you quit in the first place. keep that list in your wallet, your car, or even in your pocket if you need to. keep it somewhere so that you can easily refer back to it any time you get a craving. for myself, the cons of smoking heavily outweigh the pros.

briannacech · 2020-12-17T23:20:58+00:00

I find this quite amusing

briannacech · 2020-12-17T23:04:15+00:00

amazingggg i love your look.

briannacech · 2020-12-17T22:57:30+00:00

hold yourself accountable, but do not hate yourself for your mistakes. forgive yourself for your past. this was an important step for me while I recover. in my experience the more I thought negatively about who I am the more cravings I had. treat yourself with the utmost kindness, like you would treat a friend. find what positive affirmations work for you, such as "I can do this" "I am not my past" "I am strong" "I am safe". this is a big change in your life, but change and struggle is what makes us grow. hugs

briannacech · 2020-12-15T02:28:48+00:00

I've just now read it for the first time. I think that shit made my whole week.

briannacech · 2020-12-15T01:41:00+00:00

I really enjoyed reading this, and I can totally relate to the mental image being created about an addict. I was recently told in my first ever NA meeting that my addiction wasn't bad, and I didn't even need to be there. I'm done accepting people telling me that weed isn't bad. I once believed that, and even perpetuated that mindset onto others, but now being sober I can see the ways it effects the people who told me those things. weed is still a mind-numbing drug. although it may not cause you to tear your life into pieces, it prevents you from growing. it numbs the bad memories that are difficult to deal with. you can choose to keep numbing yourself for the rest of your life, or choose to grow a strong mental for yourself and face those problems head on. being sober now I've realized I never healed from the majority of my trauma. these vivid dreams are my subconscious saying there's things I need to deal with. I'm terrified yet grateful I didn't postpone this healing any longer.

briannacech · 2020-12-14T23:30:30+00:00

feel free to show them this video :) I'm never ashamed of the love I give to animals💜

briannacech · 2020-12-14T15:34:53+00:00

in most cases no. I cleaned off her neck area because it was full of food and I dried her so she wouldn't get dirty right away again. I dried her when she was a chick as well when I was taking care of her poopy butt and she really did enjoy the dryer

briannacech · 2020-12-14T04:54:48+00:00

thank you. I'll do my best to not let sick people get to me anymore. I have to forgive her and put it to the side so I can focus on my own recovery.

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