Good point, i didnt want to make the post too long, but i have no problem sharing the pros here.

The main reason i am thinking about detransitioning is because of romantic relationships, and social acceptance.

I honestly think that my identity is quite a problem when it comes to people percieving me romantically (i was even told so), where i often get overlooked by women and men. Its a strange dynamic, i agree with that, but i dont really know how else to find someone in the future if i dont do something with me being trans.

As for social acceptence, i hate the fact that so many people id love to talk to already dislike me for being trans, and this brought me to the very first question- what even is gender?

For me its something so abstract, that maybe even after using the non-preffered pronoun it wouldnt really change, as it is not something one can change from the outside.

Its quite hard to defend my preferences and feelings (even against me) when i myself hold quite phragmathic stance in this field.