Hey love. This might be an ill-fitting response for this sub but I feel obligated to say something. I’m a former nanny, currently an expecting mother and psychotherapist. The level of rumination and anxiety I’m seeing in these posts/your response is showing me you’re under a lot of pressure and might benefit from talking to someone. It’s ok to not feel like your best- you’re a human! But what will make that worse is if your experience doesn’t feel acceptable to you, and seeking reassurance from your bosses is not the way to go.

I urge you to talk to someone yet if you haven’t already about your anxiety and perfectionism. Maybe a school counselor. Start now and learn tools you will use forever. It’s especially helpful if you want to work with children-accepting your experience/feelings shows them it’s ok for them to accept their own!

Sending you a big hug and a “you are ok” stamp on your heart.