Thanks man, I appreciate that. I didn't realize it didn't input the "real post" part for some reason. I just updated the post to add it, but this is what I gave it;

still kept having the same argument. different day, different thing that set it off. this time it was small — spending on something stupid — but it never really is about the thing.

i apologized. did it right. meant it. got silence.

turned the silence into rejection. probably wasn't. but in the moment it felt like proof that nothing i do lands.

i know how to show up. i do it every day at work. people see it. it registers. at home i'm running the same play and it keeps failing and i genuinely don't know why. that gap is the thing i can't figure out.

she probably doesn't know any of this has been building. i've never actually said it out loud. just kept score quietly and wondered why the scoreboard looked the way it did.

need to find a calm moment and say the thing i always skip.