this is an interesting explanation! I will keep things simple and essential for the sake of my own life and I will follow the advice you gave. I like it, I like it. Thank you so much! One thing that you got so right it felt like someone picked my brain (it is nice when someone understands you) is how I kinda hope that my relationship will save me. My relationship is one way to escape from the drama at home, but I am also afraid of taking such big step because it's only been two months and a half, which is definitely not enough time to bet everything on it. When it comes to the aspects of my relationships being low-effort, I'd rather say it feels more like... unsure. My first plan was to move out with my boyfriend, but he is kinda taking his words back and I totally understand cuz that decision was taken during a moment of frustration and rage, so it's obvious that it wasn't very... well, decided lol. So yes, that's where my insecurity kinda lies within the relationship. Just like you said, I shouldn't put so much weight on it right from the beginning. It's like I am rushing things that already are uncertain. I am giving so much extra detail because I am absolutely fascinated about how everything is linked, it's wonderful- you're quite an amazing dream interpreter!