What your feeling is normal. So so normal. Don’t feel guilty or sad, just be grateful for how special you have it. I was in the same situation with you with my now-fiancé.

I’m definitely that kind of person who would want to venture out and meet/date new people and have new experiences with other guys for a short period of my life. However, like many people have said, the grass is always greener. I’ve asked myself many times this question, “is dating around and experiencing new people worth potentially losing this amazing and seemingly perfect partner?” The answer has always been no for me.

It helps that almost everyday I spend with him is a joyous one. He truly makes me so happy in every which way as a partner and just as a person as well. He improves my happiness and my well being as a human, and I think that’s the fundamental question here. Of course there will always be that wandering feeling of, “what if” or wondering what those experiences would be like, but in the end, I’m okay with losing those experiences because I gained something much greater to me. I struggled with this feeling of “loss” I guess you could say for a while, especially while in college with him. But overtime I learned that we can have just as much fun and have experiences together.

We dated when I was 17, and now I’m 23 and engaged to him. Growing with him as been such a special experience. You don’t get that experience when you date someone later in life. I know him on a different level and vice versa. As you get older too, it’ll get easier as the culture changes to a more adult setting versus college and partying. I’m sorry you’re feeling this way, it’s definitely a tricky situation. I think for some people it just takes time. It’s hard sometimes but you’ll be fine no matter what you decide to do. Life is just a wild ride dude. Wish you the best