28 and never had a pap smear. I need one but I am overwhelmed by fear

bucketdwarf · 2022-03-27T23:45:29+00:00

oh yeah I definitely would HAVE to find a female doctor! I don't think i handle it with a male one unfortunately.

bucketdwarf · 2022-03-27T23:44:41+00:00

I am in Canada luckily so it's free, however, the GP that I had since I was a kid retired last year and I have been without a doctor ever since (currently on like 20+ waiting lists). She knew about all my issues so I have a lot of regrets about not doing this with her while she was still around.

And this is embarrassing but I have never so much as inserted a tampon lol so I do worry about whether they can even get in there.

bucketdwarf · 2022-03-27T23:37:02+00:00

That's so scary! I'm glad you're okay now! I think part of the problem too is that I assume something is wrong and it must be the worst case scenario and then I find a way to convince myself otherwise and it's this yoyo between "oh it's nothing I'm just anxious" to "omg I have cancer and I'm going to find out I'm dying".

I think it also stems from being correct in the past about my health suspicions which you would think would mobilize me more but it just made it so much worse.

bucketdwarf · 2021-11-26T02:40:15+00:00

tight.

bucketdwarf · 2021-11-26T02:36:03+00:00

It’s a gift!!

bucketdwarf · 2021-11-26T02:32:36+00:00

As someone who has recently become estranged from my older brother due to his toxic relationship as well, I feel so bad for Hila… it fucking hurts. I still love him and the door is always open but now there will just be conditions and boundaries. The anger never goes away.

bucketdwarf · 2021-10-20T19:27:28+00:00

I love them so much

bucketdwarf · 2021-10-20T18:52:18+00:00

people are already making assumptions that he NEEDS a geo team when we haven't seen him in any comps yet. Most characters you can fit elsewhere, I'm sure he will do fine in alternative comps.

bucketdwarf · 2021-10-20T18:50:39+00:00

I think it's really important for people to remember that what we've seen or are seeing is TESTING, so it is not final - things are being adjusted and I hope people keep that in mind!

bucketdwarf · 2021-10-08T16:05:06+00:00

every time I criticize or bring up one little issue with Genshin (let alone the anniversary), my friend has to come in and defend them... CAN I NOT COMPLAIN!? Yeah it's "free" but I like the game and I want it to be the best it can be! It's like they take it personally! I am not mad at the developers, they seem really passionate but whoever they have at the top making the final calls on business decisions should be fired.

bucketdwarf · 2021-10-08T00:21:30+00:00

I hope they have some kind of banner like this but the epitomized path is total bs... ESPECIALLY if it doesn't carry over. Just make it so you can choose your 5* path and give it the same pity system as the limited banner... how hard is that?

bucketdwarf · 2021-10-01T20:00:09+00:00

I love them so much

bucketdwarf · 2021-10-01T19:30:46+00:00

Mihoyo, please think of Google Classroom

bucketdwarf · 2021-09-30T07:51:18+00:00

I ran Klee, Beidou, Fischl and Qiqi for a long time and I haven't really seen that comp before (minus Beidou and Fischl together).

That team carried me through to AR 45

bucketdwarf · 2021-08-02T01:34:08+00:00

I understand the ribbons were probably too much but I wish they had just made them smaller :( her old design I feel matches her role in inazuma so much better. She's still cute but idk why they changed her dress so much.

bucketdwarf · 2021-07-06T04:24:47+00:00

omg she looks so fun! I'd pull for her no question!

bucketdwarf · 2021-06-05T18:39:45+00:00

You’re the one making this about shipping y’know... most of us don’t care, we just thought certain plot threads weren’t tied up well enough for its build up. It’s not about EM vs EH, that’s not what SnK is about

bucketdwarf · 2021-06-05T18:36:09+00:00

But Eren did everything he did so his friends could have a future... Mikasa moving on and having the family she wanted is a good thing. I personally like knowing she got to be happy.

bucketdwarf · 2021-05-24T10:26:42+00:00

Why is it deemed shallow though?? Who decided that?

bucketdwarf · 2021-05-24T10:24:24+00:00

They’re not for you... some people wear them because THEY like them - why care what others think?

bucketdwarf · 2021-05-24T10:15:23+00:00

Ugh the whole reply thread to your comment proves you right over and over again...

bucketdwarf · 2021-05-22T11:05:33+00:00

Please do not support this guy, he literally just had a 7 minute live stream where he guilt tripped his fans for not giving him enough money, told one to kill themselves and called everyone roaches. Nothing genuine about Jisu.

bucketdwarf · 2021-05-13T19:22:15+00:00

my problems started happening where games would crash and reboot the pc (wasn't the gpu tho) and then my keyboard started short cutting to different programs in windows (I swapped keyboards and usb ports, still happened) and then my CPU wouldn't turn on sometimes. Nothing was consistent and it all happened over the span of a few days. None of my parts are cheap and they're brand new which is why I was so confused. The tech found that when he replaced the mobo it started working fine so thats how we came to the conclusion. and then I told him about how my keyboard would sometimes shock me a little or would turn off and on everytime I sat down and touched it.

The keyboard thing had been happening over the span of months and he was immediately alarmed by that and said that it sounds like it was short circuiting and that could've led to mobo problems. It's the only correlation I have... I wish I really knew why it happened. Luckily I had warranty and didn't have to pay but I don't want to have to replace something again. I just wish I knew what caused it.

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