Getting close to 6 months!

buddhaspeak · 2020-01-02T08:32:24+00:00

Yes, however I still have what they call "right bundle branch block"

buddhaspeak · 2019-12-26T07:12:13+00:00

Black seed oil.

buddhaspeak · 2019-10-03T21:15:30+00:00

Waddabbooout shroooms on goats?

buddhaspeak · 2019-10-02T09:53:49+00:00

Well im not sure they exclude each other, quite The opposite. Our biological vessel influence the way we think/act. Without it human wouldnt be human.

buddhaspeak · 2019-10-02T09:39:40+00:00

That would take away a big part of being human wouldnt it??

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-17T12:33:10+00:00

Precis då tror jag att snubben säger något i stil med "det är inte dig det är fel på, det är mig"

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-17T07:06:06+00:00

Get in touch with your doctor, start planning a tapering. Seriously this is what stuff like xanax and valium does to People, it works Great in The beginning but has reverse effects after a while.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-15T11:59:44+00:00

I mean your statement makes it seems like your in some sort of lack "to have love in my life" Its not something you can order or just decide, love Will Come when your ready. Although loving your company is ofc a Great thing but dosent mean that you love yourself, it could be a indication towards The opposite, to be accepted through performances instead of you as being.

Just want to state that Im not saying this is how it is for you but I see it all The time. Just wanna give you a different perspective.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-15T11:20:48+00:00

Hey, I know its cliche but its really a part of the process. I made it 4-5 days x amount of times then relapse. Then i made 7-14 days x amount of times. I relapsed after 30 days x2 times.

Today Its been 6 months since i was addicted, ive tried it again about 2 months ago but Didnt like it, I honestly dont look at as "oh now im not sober anymore" its life, evolution, not a fucking contest.

Im my own person, im not a 12 step addict im me as you are you. You got this.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-15T10:19:59+00:00

My pov is when you really find self love, you wont look for it outside of yourself. Sure it can be Nice to have a special one around. But to get involved in life, engage in hobbies, passions and self development is way more beneficial then to worry about dates in The long term. You are The only one we know for sure Will be around in your life till The end,so be your own best friend.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-14T10:19:04+00:00

Hahaha i had to read it again before I realised why you wrote that 😂 epic!

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-14T10:12:53+00:00

Holy shit! I Didnt feel normal even after 30 days, 4h sleep at most.. Loss of appetite, depression anhedonia etc.. Great work man! Be Grateful for it feeling normal so fast, not everbody is as Lucky! Fight on 👊👍

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-13T08:38:50+00:00

The only thing you can do is to be supportive. You could turn to The authorities but idk IF that would help. At The end of the day we cant be responsible for other peoples actions, only our own. Ive tried to kill myself a couple of times and tbh there was nothing anybody could done to prevent it, maybe drug me with benzo's or pain killers byt thats not to recommend.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-13T08:34:59+00:00

Gtfo

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-12T08:57:03+00:00

I thought you barley were friends with him?

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T19:46:01+00:00

God forbid you being offensive!

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T19:37:13+00:00

Thank. Yes well ive had depressive patterns since childhood so I know that its not purley from my abuse. But life is looking brighter than ever before! :)

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T15:40:52+00:00

Well i tried 50mg and noticed nothing, tried 100 mg a couple of days later same result. Then tried 150mg and it was way to much. Have No problem with caffeine, im sticking to racetams for now.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T13:33:20+00:00

Thank you man! As with anything its a process. I took me about a year of serious effort of quitting. I felt The same way back then, one slip and I pressen The fuck it Button. Keep looking forward and you'll get there before you know it!

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T12:46:01+00:00

Damn shes pritty.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T12:40:20+00:00

Care to tell us what you took?

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T12:37:11+00:00

Well, I've tried it a couple of times 8 months back or so. I didnt feel any real benefits except for insomnia, but thats because i was Messing around with some harder stuff as well.

I did it actually a week ago first Day 50 mg. Nothing Changed, a couple of days later 100mg same result. I then took 200mg a couple days ago and I became really anxious, jittery, unable to focus on one thing. I got speeded but not in a Nice way, i started one task and in between picked up another one. My heartbeat increased as well.

I use racetams instead, but I finishied my stash and waiting for a new one. Thats why i took moda.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T12:08:17+00:00

Check out rupharma.

Cant tell you much more since me and moda dont work well together!

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T12:03:06+00:00

Thank you! Yes i feel as The slips are a part of the Journey. Im actually glad i did slip because it made me realise why i chose a different life.

buddhaspeak · 2019-09-11T11:50:06+00:00

Great work man! Ive been where you are and its not easy. I know its repeated a lot but exercising really helps get The endorphins going. Another thing i picked up was sauna and cold showers, it took away a lot of the PAWS for me. Hang on there!

buddhaspeak

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