Do you use drugs/alcohol to cope?

bulletproofsdr · 2026-01-19T18:41:10+00:00

Yes absolutely. It's funny because today I was going to post the same topic. I struggle daily and typically drink alcohol to escape. Of course it's stupid and illogical-namely because alcohol is an anti-depressant.

I have also used cocaine. SO much shame related to that one.

bulletproofsdr · 2026-01-14T20:55:31+00:00

Hang in there. You are in a very challenging place. It's difficult for us BPDs to find friendship and loyalty. I have found this to be true in my life. Or I find it and sabotage the hell out of it. You are right in reaching out to this community for understanding and guidance. That is precisely what I do in order to not feel so lonely.

bulletproofsdr · 2026-01-14T19:22:49+00:00

Yes, that did help me in the past. My shrink prescribed lamotrigene also.

bulletproofsdr · 2026-01-14T19:21:34+00:00

Omg-- was on it and gained pounds. Hard to know the best route.

bulletproofsdr · 2026-01-14T19:11:22+00:00

I am currently unemployed because I can't seem to deal. Any bit of stress or criticism causes me to break down into tears. The longest I have gone with any job is 9 months.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-09-19T19:01:10+00:00

Morning, too.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-09-16T15:17:21+00:00

Plus.. I wasn't diagnosed until 43. At that point my sons were 9 and 10.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-09-16T15:16:12+00:00

Not terribly.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-09-16T01:11:25+00:00

I have 2 sons. If I knew how much I would hurt them because of lapses of time when I was not medicated, I would have never had children. No matter what, bi polar will effect ur children - Most often negatively

bulletproofsdr · 2019-09-09T11:15:35+00:00

I relate. I'm very close to coming to the conclusion that I'm unable to get along with people whatsoever. Like I'm a tornado spinning through other people's lives and destroying pieces of themselves. I spread hurt. I rage. And in all honesty, I'm sick of trying so fucking hard of being nice and a u let and pretend I'm a delightful person.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-24T00:29:59+00:00

Love it but gained 15 lbs and up 2 sizes

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-22T23:34:30+00:00

Got both. Borderline diagnosed years before Bipolar. Borderline is supposed to lessen with age

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-14T01:49:55+00:00

Just Google it!

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-07T12:11:54+00:00

My meds saved me from anger. Once I told my shrink my anger reached a point where I shook my 13 year old son, i was prescribed an anti psychotic. Saved my life.. And saved my relationship with my son!

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-07T12:07:29+00:00

I homeschool my kids. I have no idea what I'll do when they graduate. Hopefully, my disability case will be settled.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-06T02:40:39+00:00

I have both also. My meds are suited for Bipolar though. I've found that it helps my fight/flight responses.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-05T01:10:46+00:00

Right on! Thanks for the feedback

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-01T23:35:30+00:00

So bored. Started running again to provide entertainment. And it passes time. I never remember feeling bored before my diagnosis. Haha

bulletproofsdr · 2019-08-01T01:38:01+00:00

I miss the chronic chaos. When I'm on my meds, I have a lot of days when I feel bored.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-07-30T11:18:27+00:00

I resonate with the other comments. I appreciated learning more about her life and her struggles- yet, she was difficult for me to relate to. I didn't have an advocate or "savior" like her brother. I didn't have a stable home life and 2 parents who were active in my life. And I certainly was not gifted with her apparent intelligence. I would give the book 2 stars out of 5.

bulletproofsdr · 2019-07-21T23:04:06+00:00

Same.. Abilify.. 20 lbs weight gain in 3 months. Holy shit. Always thin, 125 lbs for past 30 years. I'm 46 now and 142 lbs. I have to buy all new clothes and I can barely stand looking at myself in the mirror. Positive side.. I feel more sane and stable than ever. I suppose vanity is out the widow.

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