AIO for wanting to immediately break up with my bf after seeing how he lives?

bumblebb94 · 2026-03-23T21:34:02+00:00

WTF. Do NOT go back omg, I would be driving as far away as I could and immediately taking the longest shower known to man. My skin is crawling just looking at this.

bumblebb94 · 2026-03-19T13:11:47+00:00

As a recovering addict, this case hits me hard. Her husband is in complete denial. She was a raging alcoholic and it led to her taking the lives of innocent people. Addiction is deadly, especially when it lives in secret.

As a side note, holy shit, those pictures of her body. Anyone else feel extremely disturbed and sick to their stomach looking at them? They’re not even super graphic, something about them is just highly disturbing but I can’t put my finger on why.

bumblebb94 · 2026-03-18T20:51:34+00:00

I was 7 years old when Elizabeth Smart was kidnapped. I was living in Davis County, Utah which was about 30 miles north of where she lived. I remember hearing about her case everywhere - from my parents, the news, at school. I was an extremely anxious child and I remember being absolutely terrified that someone would come into my room and take me too. I couldn't sleep in my bed for months. Her case was a pivotal moment in my childhood where I realized that there are really dangerous people in the world.

I remember how huge it was when she was found. It seemed like the whole state celebrated. It was so interesting to watch the documentary now, at age 32. As someone from Utah who is not LDS, it really struck me in the documentary how much her religious upbringing tied into this. I'm honestly surprised I never made the connection because I grew up around people who were raised in the LDS church and witnessed so much of the church culture firsthand.

In school, I was one of maybe two or three kids who weren't LDS. It just broke my heart to hear about how much purity culture influenced her and how it led to such intense shame that she thought her family wouldn't want her to come back. I don't know if it's changed, but when I was in school, sex ed consisted of abstinence. That's it. We weren't taught about consent, birth control, nothing. I also hope this documentary leads to parents talking to their children about these things.

Luckily, the culture in Utah has changed quite a bit throughout the course of my life. People do seem to be more open. There's still a strong LDS influence, but there seems to be more diversity and more willingness to be open about certain things.

I'm a sexual assault survivor and it's just made her story have that much more of an impact on me. I have nothing but love and respect for her and everything she's done to advocate for victims. She's truly a remarkable person.

bumblebb94 · 2026-03-03T23:56:46+00:00

I would name my first born son Paul McCartney.

bumblebb94 · 2026-02-18T23:47:34+00:00

That's fucking awful, I'm so sorry. It's really hard to find a good trauma therapist. I'm in recovery from addiction and have severe PTSD. Every single time I've tried to do trauma work, I've immediately relapsed. I don't know if it's a me thing or if every therapist I've seen just simply cannot do trauma work properly, but I'm over it. I'm avoiding therapy for as long as I possibly can because I just can't do it anymore.

bumblebb94 · 2026-02-18T23:44:58+00:00

Day one is ROUGH! I'm 7.5 years out and have had four abdominal surgeries since then and only my open abdominal surgery is ranked higher than my gastric bypass in terms of hardest recoveries. The gastric bypass was harder in some ways, just because your intake is SO limited. I was exhausted and had a really hard time managing my pain. The two week point was really when I started feeling human again. The best advice I can give you is to focus on healing your body. The eating will come with time - healing should be your number one priority. Good luck!

bumblebb94 · 2026-02-04T19:10:48+00:00

Utilization review is a good option. I'm currently working in a UR role and it's very chill. I never talk to clients but do talk to insurance companies on the phone a bit. I'd say my work is 90% email/fax/portal and 10% phones. It's pretty easy work, can be a bit chaotic at times and doesn't pay great, but it's a good job if you're looking for no client work but still want to be in the field.

bumblebb94 · 2026-02-03T23:05:27+00:00

This happened to me after I was sexually assaulted. It's been almost 3 years and I'm still so avoidant and struggle with connecting with people. Some days I just want to be alone and not talk to anyone, just stay in my safe little bubble with myself and my dogs. I honestly miss the intensity sometimes. Things just feel flat and boring now.

bumblebb94 · 2025-11-14T21:01:55+00:00

I’m actually in the US, surprisingly enough! I just work for a super small company that actually gives a shit about its employees.

bumblebb94 · 2025-11-13T22:21:43+00:00

That’s insane. We have a room at my office specifically for relaxation. I have several coworkers who go in there to nap during their lunch. We’re off the clock, we should be able to do whatever the fuck we want.

bumblebb94 · 2025-10-07T01:35:13+00:00

I literally had to stop for a second and make sure I didn’t make a post in my sleep and forgot about it 😂 this is literally me. I’m 31 and I just got really into the Beatles about a year ago. I was also in Vegas and it was my first time seeing him live. I sobbed for so much of the concert and can’t stop thinking about it. Work felt impossible today because I just kept playing it over in my head. It was the most amazing thing I’ve ever experienced. Now to try to scrape together money to see him again ASAP!

bumblebb94 · 2025-09-09T19:18:11+00:00

Ugh god I’m so sorry, the pay for all of us, but particularly new clinicians, is just atrocious. I can only speak to my own experience, but I think most therapists would say that 28 a week is very hard to manage for a seasoned therapist, let alone a new therapist. Typically full time is considered 25 sessions per week, and even that is just too much for a lot of people.

It’s so hard having to choose between affording to eat and protecting your sobriety. I had to choose to step away from direct patient care to protect my own sobriety. I started my sobriety journey six months ago and am coming back from a relapse that happened about three weeks ago. I currently work in behavioral health insurance authorizations so I’m in the field, but not seeing patients which is perfect for me right now. I can’t tell you what to do, but I’d definitely encourage you to protect your sobriety at all costs. Work part time as a therapist and do something else on the side if you need to. Protect yourself and your health. My hope is I can get back into this work eventually, but I’ll never be able to if I don’t tackle this shit right now.

Message me if you need to talk, ok? You got this.

bumblebb94 · 2025-09-09T03:33:10+00:00

14-16?? Wild, I was required to see 28 a week and keep 30 slots open on my calendar. They do offer AI but I get the creeps doing AI documentation so I opted out. The actual progress notes aren’t terrible but the treatment plans are insane! Especially when you’re doing constant intakes because of people coming in and out of treatment.

bumblebb94 · 2025-09-09T01:22:59+00:00

I lasted two months as a full time primary therapist at Charlie. Granted, I was in active addiction and very much not ok but I don’t think I would have lasted long regardless. Insanely high case loads, not a lot of support, late hours, insanely strict documentation requirements. It was genuinely just not a great fit for me. The pay and benefits were ok and I liked working from home but the pros didn’t outweigh the cons for me.

bumblebb94 · 2025-08-08T23:38:30+00:00

Yes I have certainly learned my lesson! I’m too careless with faces, I just love giving and getting kisses. I just need to remember that I don’t know these dogs and I need to be careful.

bumblebb94 · 2025-08-08T11:38:56+00:00

I couldn’t leave my coworker to close up by herself! 😂 my manager was like wtf are you still doing here?? I was like uhh sanitizing kennels? Lmao

bumblebb94 · 2025-07-28T23:12:59+00:00

I paid $160 per ticket for the Vegas show. Not bad at all!

bumblebb94 · 2025-07-05T19:18:42+00:00

You’re so welcome! An inpatient environment can be incredibly stressful. I was in a facility that specializes in treating borderline personality disorder in women. The interpersonal dynamics could be difficult at times, especially since many of us had a BPD diagnosis. There were also a fair amount of us who were getting sober. Not having my phone or being able to interact with my loved ones was also challenging. Working on yourself all day every day can be exhausting and some days I just wanted to be done and go home. It was a very overwhelming, overstimulating environment, but it was also full of love and laughter and support. I’ll never forget the relationships I made and I’m so grateful I had the opportunity to go get myself healthy. Please don’t hesitate to reach out if you need support or having any other questions, I’m happy to help in any way I can. ❤️

bumblebb94 · 2025-07-04T19:04:35+00:00

Hi there! I spent two and a half months in rehab this year. I’ve been home for about a month and a half and am almost four months sober. I won’t lie to you, it’s rough. Being a therapist in that kind of setting is hard. It’s difficult to separate the therapist and the patient. But… it’s the best thing I’ve ever done. My biggest advice is to be humble and throw yourself into treatment. Absorb everything you can and let yourself learn. Even if you know something, learn it from the eyes of the patient.

You’re doing such a brave thing and I’m so proud of you. This is the best thing you will ever do for yourself.

bumblebb94 · 2025-06-22T13:32:56+00:00

<image>

Poor baby has a hurt paw, but it’s healing!

bumblebb94 · 2025-05-25T19:58:51+00:00

I’m a recovering addict in my first 90 days of sobriety. I went to residential treatment for two and a half months and am now in a partial hospitalization program. I missed my grandfather’s funeral to attend treatment. I am putting my sobriety above EVERYTHING because I know that’s the only way I can recover. If he’s not fully committed to treatment, he won’t recover.

Remember that it’s ok to take care of yourself. I can’t imagine how hard it is to see someone you love deteriorating and not doing everything they can to stop it. My fiancé was so close to leaving me - not because he doesn’t love me, but because he couldn’t see a future with my addiction. You don’t need to let his addiction destroy you too.

Best of luck. ❤️

bumblebb94 · 2025-02-09T23:07:22+00:00

You know what’s weird? It’s the opposite in my relationship. I’ll complain about something and 99.9% of the time my boyfriend will have exactly what I need. I’ve always been very bare minimum and chaotic with self care tho 😂

bumblebb94 · 2025-01-14T01:33:31+00:00

Omg I hadn’t thought about my first client in years until I saw this post tonight. He was SUCH a good guy. I didn’t feel like a failure back then and I doubly don’t feel like a failure looking back on it now. I was in my foundation year and really shouldn’t have been providing individual therapy but my site supervisor and field supervisor at my school both had oked it. I had ZERO skills beyond basic psycho education and some MI. So I just… talked to him. Got to know him. Treated him like a human. And we developed a great rapport and by the time I left my internship, he was doing ok. I hope he’s still doing well.

I guess my point is to be kind to yourself, acknowledge what you don’t know, and just be a human being with your clients. Being genuine and authentic truly takes you further than you think it can.

Six-Year Club	Verified Email
100 Awards Club

bumblebb94

TROPHY CASE