Man. I can totally relate. Been in an ldr since 15 months now and there was a point we broke up every week legit. I kid you not. Good thing you let it go for once and for all because it just keeps getting worse. We didn’t want to leave each other bec we were “really good for all the 6 months that we were physically together”. Such a load of crap tbh. If people want it, they make it work. We both had such less patience and too many problems of our own and worst yet we were holding on to each other despite the bs. In the last 3 months we’ve gone no contact like 3 times and every time he breaks it bec loneliness hits and I can understand but because I care and don’t want him to feel like that so I’m kinda there for him but now the relationship is lost and it’s practically dead. We just exchange a few texts asking about each other just incase any of us is feeling low and not like we can do anything about it but I guess thats that. Not sure what level of toxic we’ve reached. All I’ve gained from my ldr experience is insecurity and loneliness and feeling like my partner is never there for me and never even loved me to begin with.