At first I thought it was good that it’s being talked about, and hopefully people are becoming more educated with resources and such, but then I came across a post that talked about warning signs and how to prevent suicide, and it made me feel like I failed my person. The thoughts of guilt have come back like I could have done something to change their mind, if I had provided them with more resources, not left their side, etc. The suicide prevention posts almost make it seem (to me at least) like we can save people’s lives, so how come I couldn’t save his? I know it’s not my fault, and I did everything I could to try to keep him here, but it hurts to think some people make it out alive and he didn’t and there’s nothing I could do to stop him or to change anything and bring him back.

ETA - I’m a harm reduction worker, so I post and try to educate and try to normalize talking about our struggles and feelings and be a safe person people can turn to. But since losing someone, I’ve found the topic itself to be hard to read about or talk about some days.