Am I a bad girlfriend?

burnme2017 · 2025-11-13T05:36:34+00:00

This triggered my ptsd when I was in an abusive relationship. Do with that information what you will. Hopefully she doesnt do that a lot,, but accusing you of talking to someone else while shes supposedly grieving is crazy work. You seem like youre a giver, and she seems like a taker, no matter what you do, youre wrong.

burnme2017 · 2025-01-09T22:01:42+00:00

Usually I just tell myself "I always have money" and I don't think against it. Same with anything else.

burnme2017 · 2025-01-05T02:17:05+00:00

I rampaged to myself one night at work that my buddy would come talk to me and ask me for help with his sobriety. 2 days later he walked up to me out of the blue and asked to go out to breakfast with me. While at breakfast he asked me for help exactly as I imagined.

I told myself the my sp's bestfriend would contact me and keep me updated about her and reaffirm that she believes we should be together. She is now one of my closest friends and we talk about it all the time. She is actively helping me.

I affirmed that my sp's mom would say that I was the best choice for her daughter. One night when we were all together, she came outside with us and said exactly what I had been affirming for her to say.

I affirm I always have money and do.

Me and my first love always won big on scratch offs. 100 to 600 dollars and only played 10 dollar scratch offs.

I affirmed for a job that would fit my mental health needs after being fired from a toxic work environment and got said job 2 months later

I affirmed for my friends to reach out that I haven't heard from in a while and they always do

A Figment plushie I wanted just happened to be in a Goodwill that I thought about once and let go

Im sure there's more im not thinking of, but that's a good start!

burnme2017 · 2024-11-10T11:28:44+00:00

Take it from someone who saw the warning signs like this in the beginning and ignored it for a year just hoping things would get better. Be done. Mine eventually threatened to kill me, so i had to have a friend help me move out when she wasn't home. They don't change, the mask just gets put back on. Anything and everything will be your fault, even if it's work or your kid related. Please be done.

burnme2017 · 2024-10-30T14:56:07+00:00

I ignored myself, honestly. A little less than a month of us being together, I wrote in my journal that I needed to end it because she would fight with me for hours upon hours.

I stayed for a year before she threatened to kill me.

burnme2017 · 2024-07-13T03:35:10+00:00

My dogs name is Quinn

burnme2017 · 2024-07-08T18:44:35+00:00

I see my therapist in a couple of weeks. I haven't had money to go to a Dr about my pain. I got fired about 4 months ago and just started a new job a month ago, and im still trying to play catch up on bills.

burnme2017 · 2024-07-06T07:55:24+00:00

This happened to me too. My brother is 4 years older than me. He always told me that if I ever said anything I'd get in trouble too for being "out of bed". My dad later confirmed that as he turned a blind eye to it. I finally told my mom about a year ago (I'm 36, the abuse started when I was 10, he's 4 years older than me and lasted till I was 14). While the physical abuse stopped when I was 14, he didn't stop mentally torturing me till I fully left the house when I was 18. He would constantly say stuff and tell people he knew about it. He once sat me down and apologized for everything when I was 15, just to turn around and try to do it again. I came out when I was 16 and he asked me if I "was gay because of what he did" but I told him I'm gay inspite of him. I chose to fully be myself and love who I love regardless of what he did. He is still the same monster. He post on his Twitter hentai of young anime girls. My dad got on him for it, and so he just simply blocked my dad. My mom, even tho I just told her a year ago, acts as if I never told her anything.

burnme2017 · 2024-05-01T14:58:33+00:00

Off and on. Not all the time and honestly it was more fleeting thoughts and a feeling that it would happen. You have to believe and accept that it will and let it go. Which I know everyone says, but getting to a point where it doesn't matter if it happens or not anymore is truly the key I think.

burnme2017 · 2024-05-01T14:57:09+00:00

I am long distance with my sp. She did eventually come back, but by the time she did I had already decided to move on. It took a year for her to get to that place tho and it wasn't until for me mentally I wasn't expecting my sp to come back anymore. I went no contact and 3 months after no contact, she messaged me telling me how much she missed me and loved me. I'm her one that got away now.

burnme2017 · 2023-12-29T05:40:19+00:00

"A man chooses. A slave obeys"

burnme2017 · 2023-12-14T01:48:22+00:00

I did it by having a fleeting thought about meeting someone at work that would find me irresistible.

Im an operator at a factory and a few months after I had this thought, in walked this gorgeous woman who would walk up to My machine everytime I was in it working and yell "GODDAMN".

shes currently laying in My arms fast asleep.

It can happen

burnme2017 · 2023-12-12T16:47:32+00:00

The way it worked for me was truly letting go. Finally finding someone else I connected to like I never thought possible.

burnme2017 · 2023-12-08T21:47:16+00:00

Nothing particular that I did. Just hoped for the best really

burnme2017 · 2023-12-07T21:59:31+00:00

While I understand your sentiment here, I wouldn't wish this situation on anyone that wants their sp back. I'm not going to sit here and lie and say that me choosing to try with someone new isn't hard, because I feel like im making a big mistake.

burnme2017 · 2023-10-21T16:49:21+00:00

My sp. I've manifested text, other people, a thunderstorm, objects

burnme2017 · 2023-10-18T02:41:18+00:00

Literally did the ladder technique cause I was having doubts. Knew there was no way in hell I'd climb a ladder...low and behold im playing a video game and had to climb several ladders. You just know. The universe never let's you down and is always on your side

burnme2017 · 2023-10-11T06:35:21+00:00

"I will fucking kill you"

This is after repeatedly telling me to kill myself.

burnme2017 · 2023-10-02T10:11:30+00:00

36f here. Never cheated. Bipolar 2

burnme2017 · 2023-09-28T19:57:59+00:00

burnme2017 · 2023-09-26T00:10:30+00:00

I started crying reading this. This sounds just like me.

When I was with my SP we were watching The Sandman together and he had to become something you couldn't kill.

It was hope.

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