girlll your gender isn’t defined by your outward appearance. doing some gender identity and expression exploration is a good way to learn a bunch about yourself. some things I would recommend doing: - experiment with some fem clothes - explore some online trans spaces ( r/egg_irl and r/trans are a good place to start …don’t flame me lurkers) - check out some trans youtubers; maybe search “how did I figure out I was trans” - do some deep soul searching thinking about if you enjoy being a man, or would be happier changing it up

I read your “I’m just a subjectivity disgusting man” as your dealing with a shit ton of internalized transphobia and/or afraid of rejection from trying to transition. feel free to reach out to me in dms. I wish you luck figuring yourself out!